it's exactly 2 hrs and 14 minutes before Christmas day ends. since, i introduce a bit of anarchy in our household.. it's been celebrated differently. (hehe)
Christmas day is usually just another ordinary day, nothing really special. we are long gone in our dreams when clock strikes 12 but not today. of coarse, thanks to my good acting skills and award-winning performance for a daughter role, my parents bought it. (yes!)
i didn't really asked for something big. i just made an effort to spend time with family. we were singing the whole night while waiting for noche buena. (ehem ehem 98?!!?) i remember... "Stop in the name of Love, before you break my heart....." wahahahaha. i actually ended the song after that line and still 98?!!? (what the?! haha!)
we shared my cooked canton, fried eggs, cake, ice cream, puto bumbong, rice and mawawala ba ang Coke? :D woo sarap!
this mornin', we bring the component outside like we always every year so we can eat n celebrate outside (literally). honestly.... so we can hit the volume louder. (hihi) at first, my dad calls the shots on what will be played until after lunch i was proclaimed DJ. (bwahahaha!) started with dream sounds, slow jams and cool down music.. 2nd set list are the latest RnBs, pop, house mixes and ended with dance retro right before dinner. (haha!) i had a nyc time doing some steps with my sister again. i missed that. (awww)
hit the mic to take some rest. then dinner. then sang again. (adik!!!)
i missed my family. i usually realize that when this kinda day ends. i know iv been always too off specially nowadays or this year... but it didn't really mean anything less for them. i just got older, i guess and they got more older.... and patience is a virtue WE NEED to have. (haha!) like over dinner, just listening to their conversation irritates me once in a while... well, im already in acceptance stage coz iv been hearing them since lunch time. sometimes, i dnt really know which is harder... to be them or to be me? in the end, i ended up smiling.. tellin myself soon, they'll end this phase where patience is a virtue WE DON'T NEED to have. =p
i had a nyc Christmas day at home. with family. hope you are too.
"Christmas is not Christmas without its essence in your life"
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
santa, can u hear me?
santa can u hear me? i have been so good this year, and all i want is one thing..tell me my true love is near he's all i want..just for me, underneath my christmas tree i'll be waiting here, santa that's my only wish (next) year... (haha! inedit?!)
cute song. hehe.
so, the weekend is over. how was it? geez, i dunno. i was in a whole. hehe.
got 1 day out of it to call timeout.
nweiz, this is a happy post.
i just had a mini xmas party with my ofycmates and it was a blast.
i was late and that's not new.
hehe. i didn't had enough time to buy, wrap and dedicate my gifts so.. yah. took a while. :)
over songs and food overflow.
we reunited again.
story after story.
laugh after laugh.
gifts galore and more!
smiles are everywhere.
yep, we did miss one another.
awww, pasko na!!!
happy holidays everyone!!!!!
cute song. hehe.
so, the weekend is over. how was it? geez, i dunno. i was in a whole. hehe.
got 1 day out of it to call timeout.
nweiz, this is a happy post.
i just had a mini xmas party with my ofycmates and it was a blast.
i was late and that's not new.
hehe. i didn't had enough time to buy, wrap and dedicate my gifts so.. yah. took a while. :)
over songs and food overflow.
we reunited again.
story after story.
laugh after laugh.
gifts galore and more!
smiles are everywhere.
yep, we did miss one another.
awww, pasko na!!!
happy holidays everyone!!!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
that thing i did today
hi.. let me tell bout a thing i did today... i push play today i didn't stop; paused but not stop... i wanted this one thing to happen. i already thought about it in my head... i attempted, tried and failed to think 3x or right on this thing.... that i did today. (3x coz i did think twice and i didn't really change my mind. bad. =p) so i went doing this thing until it was deadline. then reality hit me (i could even see conscience say "i told you so" or "karma") ....what was i thinking? or was i? (guess not!) ........i should hate myself. im a horrible person and friend at that.
something happened and it was not how i pictured it. i thought i had the perfect plan. i thought i already got a deal with heaven or christmas came early. well, we dnt always get what we want... don't we? from a series i thought i live up to one doctor said and where it got me? here with coffee, pen and paper. well, im glad i tried. rather say "what might have been?" now, i know. so, that's what they mean about doing something... haha! it's not me but i like that attitude, the excitement, liked the challenge. again, horrible person and friend.
actually this "karma" isn't over. i mighta just got myself into a deep whole again. might take a while before i come back. get back to you after the weekends.
u know that feeling when you know you are so wrong but you still dnt wanne be right. yea. that feeling. no, dnt say it. i know... i bump my head so bad. i have a disease. i should not do this.... i shouldn't. ughh..
It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you
And when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you
Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan
upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan
bawat patak, anong sarap
ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
ang beer na ‘to o ang pag-ibig mo?
Pangarap ka na lang ba
O magiging katotohanan pa
Bakit may mahal ka ng iba
Ngunit di bale na
Kahit mahal mo sya
mahal naman kita
lang hiyang mga kanta yan.... sama mo na ung saktong kanta na migraine.
lech!
loosing sanity.
what is happening?
hinde mapigilang damdamin. wild.
dying to tell u feelin pare... pro f*ck di pwede. hinde!!!! oh hinde!!! (ok, OA na! =p)
lech! lech!! lech!!!
-121908:1354PM
something happened and it was not how i pictured it. i thought i had the perfect plan. i thought i already got a deal with heaven or christmas came early. well, we dnt always get what we want... don't we? from a series i thought i live up to one doctor said and where it got me? here with coffee, pen and paper. well, im glad i tried. rather say "what might have been?" now, i know. so, that's what they mean about doing something... haha! it's not me but i like that attitude, the excitement, liked the challenge. again, horrible person and friend.
actually this "karma" isn't over. i mighta just got myself into a deep whole again. might take a while before i come back. get back to you after the weekends.
u know that feeling when you know you are so wrong but you still dnt wanne be right. yea. that feeling. no, dnt say it. i know... i bump my head so bad. i have a disease. i should not do this.... i shouldn't. ughh..
It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you
And when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you
Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan
upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan
bawat patak, anong sarap
ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
ang beer na ‘to o ang pag-ibig mo?
Pangarap ka na lang ba
O magiging katotohanan pa
Bakit may mahal ka ng iba
Ngunit di bale na
Kahit mahal mo sya
mahal naman kita
lang hiyang mga kanta yan.... sama mo na ung saktong kanta na migraine.
lech!
loosing sanity.
what is happening?
hinde mapigilang damdamin. wild.
dying to tell u feelin pare... pro f*ck di pwede. hinde!!!! oh hinde!!! (ok, OA na! =p)
lech! lech!! lech!!!
-121908:1354PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
hey reality!
today, i woke up with sunshine beaming to my face. light emerge from my eyes as i try to open them. i knew then that i needed a new start. i have to wake up and not see storm in my window or even dark clouds. i pulled myself up, off my bed and went down.
downstairs, i said hi to my dad and my mom. went on straight to the kitchen to wash my face and make coffee. mornin! in my head, i tried to remember....
i know i told a million times myself that il stop being sad about all this but who am i kiddin' then? i needed to be sad for me to be happy. i needed to not be ok to be ok. it was a phase. it was a cycle.
a little over 2 weeks ago, i can still picture myself how was i. nowhere here. far away from all this and enjoying --- everything. i know i wrote the last 3 drama-inspired posts over my depression and frustrated feelings. drank a few for a couple of days. stayed quiet. acted like everything was the usual and hide in absence. i know im not a good pretender sometimes thus every time anyone asked "what's wrong?" i say, "nothing". i can't say it. im too chicken to get it over with or maybe i knew im going nowhere. i can't help feeling sorry and stupid and weak and shallow. damn it! like what my friend made me realize.. yes, it's hard being at the border. but u know, almost doesn't count. came 90 but 10 didn't. train left, im not in it. that time, i thought... i had "problems".
but wait there's more....
the week after this drama, life to me was like wheel of fortune. like my feelings depended on this magical roulette of chance that was really called reality. i was going with the flow. waiting for that roulette to stop and tell me what to do. one moment i was happy, one moment i was blue. one time i had a career and now it's gone. i had enough reasons to have a bleak outlook in my head and i can't give any excuse for it. my friend told me that straight. i was so down. like it really sucked to be me and i know it. i have the right answers and the right stuff to do but i dunno how to get a hold of myself. a number of people asked "how i feel?" i said, "gud question.." i just dnt know anymore. i can't seem to know which problem should i be sad about. there's too many of them. as if things were getting better and better everyday. it rained, it poured and i dnt have my umbrella. yea. im out there... somewhere in the middle. gone.
i needed a hug and lucky me, i got virtual hugs at least. the days i miss the people who hug me when something's wrong. ana.. mikey.. ed.. carl.. boogie.. uri.. awww... the warmth.
days passed by and i must say a little alone time helps. i have to do this. i have to. i need to do this. i gotta pass these emotional turmoil. logical, in short and right with this career thing. bigger problem at hand. bigger picture to paint. shake this sh*t off.
"Oh I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah" -- Kravitz
... coffee?
downstairs, i said hi to my dad and my mom. went on straight to the kitchen to wash my face and make coffee. mornin! in my head, i tried to remember....
i know i told a million times myself that il stop being sad about all this but who am i kiddin' then? i needed to be sad for me to be happy. i needed to not be ok to be ok. it was a phase. it was a cycle.
a little over 2 weeks ago, i can still picture myself how was i. nowhere here. far away from all this and enjoying --- everything. i know i wrote the last 3 drama-inspired posts over my depression and frustrated feelings. drank a few for a couple of days. stayed quiet. acted like everything was the usual and hide in absence. i know im not a good pretender sometimes thus every time anyone asked "what's wrong?" i say, "nothing". i can't say it. im too chicken to get it over with or maybe i knew im going nowhere. i can't help feeling sorry and stupid and weak and shallow. damn it! like what my friend made me realize.. yes, it's hard being at the border. but u know, almost doesn't count. came 90 but 10 didn't. train left, im not in it. that time, i thought... i had "problems".
but wait there's more....
the week after this drama, life to me was like wheel of fortune. like my feelings depended on this magical roulette of chance that was really called reality. i was going with the flow. waiting for that roulette to stop and tell me what to do. one moment i was happy, one moment i was blue. one time i had a career and now it's gone. i had enough reasons to have a bleak outlook in my head and i can't give any excuse for it. my friend told me that straight. i was so down. like it really sucked to be me and i know it. i have the right answers and the right stuff to do but i dunno how to get a hold of myself. a number of people asked "how i feel?" i said, "gud question.." i just dnt know anymore. i can't seem to know which problem should i be sad about. there's too many of them. as if things were getting better and better everyday. it rained, it poured and i dnt have my umbrella. yea. im out there... somewhere in the middle. gone.
i needed a hug and lucky me, i got virtual hugs at least. the days i miss the people who hug me when something's wrong. ana.. mikey.. ed.. carl.. boogie.. uri.. awww... the warmth.
days passed by and i must say a little alone time helps. i have to do this. i have to. i need to do this. i gotta pass these emotional turmoil. logical, in short and right with this career thing. bigger problem at hand. bigger picture to paint. shake this sh*t off.
"Oh I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah" -- Kravitz
... coffee?
Thursday, December 04, 2008
introducing noise
finally, i broke my silence. i shared to one of my closest friend what's going on with me. and damn, i knew it. she'll laugh at me. that's fine. i was laughing at myself anyway. what can i say. im a funny person. haha! btw, that felt good. the silence, being broken. just needed time. as we were discussing, i got a different opinion from her which was understandable and so i wonder. wonder.... wonder... and wonder some more.... kept on looking outside this cafe' window and still wonderin. maybe later with booze. (planning to try something new ;D)
actually, i already thought of that, like i told her and did it. there were a number of things that i made effort on. what can i do? could i have made it more clearer? maybe i should've done something else? what could that be? hmmmm.... or maybe im being too hard on myself to assume and ask and wonder more on my part. i dnt really know. did i did it too late? i guess i ask the hypothetical question too late?! haayz. well, life is life like what my friend say. sigh and smile girl. sigh and smile.
nweiz, as i am trying to continue on this entry... Christmas carols are playing..... aaaawwwww.... can i cry? hehe. what kind of Christmas would this be? for some time i had it clear. though now... exciting i guess. well, there are just 2 possibilities anyway.... recent events have showed that more likely we know which of the two but i would like to entertain a sense of unpredictability and hope for excitement. (yes, u can say it. im weird!) sometimes i dnt know myself too.
message. hey, i envy you. i do.
officially. goodluck to me. say "goodluck reg and merry holidays!!! " =p
actually, i already thought of that, like i told her and did it. there were a number of things that i made effort on. what can i do? could i have made it more clearer? maybe i should've done something else? what could that be? hmmmm.... or maybe im being too hard on myself to assume and ask and wonder more on my part. i dnt really know. did i did it too late? i guess i ask the hypothetical question too late?! haayz. well, life is life like what my friend say. sigh and smile girl. sigh and smile.
nweiz, as i am trying to continue on this entry... Christmas carols are playing..... aaaawwwww.... can i cry? hehe. what kind of Christmas would this be? for some time i had it clear. though now... exciting i guess. well, there are just 2 possibilities anyway.... recent events have showed that more likely we know which of the two but i would like to entertain a sense of unpredictability and hope for excitement. (yes, u can say it. im weird!) sometimes i dnt know myself too.
message. hey, i envy you. i do.
officially. goodluck to me. say "goodluck reg and merry holidays!!! " =p
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
you know what's hard?
you know what's hard...
when you are trying to do something for the first time and it sucks that you're not makin it
when you are required to learn and you just can't find the right drive
when you live too far from your friends and your address just blows
when you have parents who are right up your ass and they treat you like you're 7
when you realize that money is an issue
when you start being cheezy and mushy and all that. crap!
when you not have time on your team
when you want anything so bad and yet you have to tell yourself, "not today or never"
when you needed to be right than feel right
when you feel right but needed to be right
when you feel like screaming your heart out
when you face frustration hitting on you
when you challenge to be different
when you put up a fake smile and wave to the crowd like the usual
yea. these are a few... a few of the many things i can define hard. a few that i have already been. i can just imagine the torture!!! i do see a picture of me, miserable and quiet. yes, it's sad. im off my game. im so lost today. i always thought then that never would i be "you know what's hard" dramatic but here i am. eating my own words. being one of those... people. i should really laugh at myself, actually i am. im not even drunk and i wrote this. im nuts. i know. gotta admit and believe me, it gets harder. sigh. uugggghhh! aaaahhhhhh. fudge!!!!! hey you...... up there! c'mon help me. but hey, dnt worry. il get over it. i just need something new to do. so......
how does one make it stop?
tell me, how do i uncross the line?
how do you start quitting?
Ctrl + Z, pls. pls. pls...... work. (shet! crazzzzy!!!)
"aking napatunayan... na nsa huli... ang pagsisisi... pra bang gs2 kong umiyak... ngunit pra saan pa wala nmang magagawa....." --- could have took the risk but too late for that too. too much information sucks, damn it!
when you are trying to do something for the first time and it sucks that you're not makin it
when you are required to learn and you just can't find the right drive
when you live too far from your friends and your address just blows
when you have parents who are right up your ass and they treat you like you're 7
when you realize that money is an issue
when you start being cheezy and mushy and all that. crap!
when you not have time on your team
when you want anything so bad and yet you have to tell yourself, "not today or never"
when you needed to be right than feel right
when you feel right but needed to be right
when you feel like screaming your heart out
when you face frustration hitting on you
when you challenge to be different
when you put up a fake smile and wave to the crowd like the usual
yea. these are a few... a few of the many things i can define hard. a few that i have already been. i can just imagine the torture!!! i do see a picture of me, miserable and quiet. yes, it's sad. im off my game. im so lost today. i always thought then that never would i be "you know what's hard" dramatic but here i am. eating my own words. being one of those... people. i should really laugh at myself, actually i am. im not even drunk and i wrote this. im nuts. i know. gotta admit and believe me, it gets harder. sigh. uugggghhh! aaaahhhhhh. fudge!!!!! hey you...... up there! c'mon help me. but hey, dnt worry. il get over it. i just need something new to do. so......
how does one make it stop?
tell me, how do i uncross the line?
how do you start quitting?
Ctrl + Z, pls. pls. pls...... work. (shet! crazzzzy!!!)
"aking napatunayan... na nsa huli... ang pagsisisi... pra bang gs2 kong umiyak... ngunit pra saan pa wala nmang magagawa....." --- could have took the risk but too late for that too. too much information sucks, damn it!
migraine
Oo nga pala,
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako?
Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako,
Kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod,
Kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman,
Yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot,
Ay 'di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil 'di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil 'di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil 'di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil 'di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
-- Moonstar88, Migraine
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako?
Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako,
Kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod,
Kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman,
Yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot,
Ay 'di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil 'di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil 'di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil 'di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil 'di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
-- Moonstar88, Migraine
i started my day with my head, hurting.... it really hurts. i woke up 830. obviously i won't be making it by 9. i slept around 12mn. so it looks like 8hrs wasn't enuf. i drink coffee and took a bath. it was around 1030 when i left, i was in ayala by 12nn. then lunch?! KFC. wohoo! =p
as i was on my way to ayala. i heard this song... yes. i really like it. the song hit everything it can. and i knew then i was in for another level of brain crushing. (world, are u telling me something?)
nweiz, i took the great effort of getting through firewall just to download a copy, hack to my pc drivers and place it in my ipod. then it was the song repeating to my ears since hours and hours ago... haha! yea. im crazy!
what can i say?? i have migraine.
Monday, November 24, 2008
can u blame me?
i just did something stupid today.. i was really not myself and i hate it! hate it!
i lost my proxy card.
i left my watch. i really hate it when i forget my watch. i feel lacking.
something's wrong with me today.
a bit paranoid too.
of the question that im debating to question. (whaat?!)
it's that kinda day where im tryin to not be bothered...
of the many things that plays inside this twisted brain. (geez!)
i have this fear.
imagining it makes me numb.
to whoever is in charge i ask, please spare me.
i am too weak. i can't do this again. i just can't. (deep pare!)
i feel really lazy.
im suppose to be bibo but i wasn't and i didn't even think twice about it. go on, tell me whatever you want....
the type of day when i just felt like singing something from Boyzone. (hey, im a BSB fan!)
the moment compelled me to watch a love story called Tristan and Isolde (hahaha! what a great idea!!! am i genius or what?!)
someone told me.. the tagline was: before Romeo and Juliet there was Tristan and Isolde.....
(so are we watching this or not?!!)
and so i started.... really excited.
took a while before the potential love story begin.... i was too anxious to know how would it start.
then they're story began.... it was played out nice. not too dramatic or overly shallow. the scenes was just right.
the shocking twist.... it got me. darn!!! i can't believe it. it was torture!!!!!!!
the ending.... i wouldn't give it away. as much as my heart wants to share and pour out every emotion i had. (go! download and watch.)
"Something more than duty and death!
Why are we capable of feelings if not to have them?
Why long for things if they are not meant to be ours?
Well don't listen to me.
You're so sure of things.
You're certainty, it's like armour.
I wish I had that."
i lost my proxy card.
i left my watch. i really hate it when i forget my watch. i feel lacking.
something's wrong with me today.
a bit paranoid too.
of the question that im debating to question. (whaat?!)
it's that kinda day where im tryin to not be bothered...
of the many things that plays inside this twisted brain. (geez!)
i have this fear.
imagining it makes me numb.
to whoever is in charge i ask, please spare me.
i am too weak. i can't do this again. i just can't. (deep pare!)
i feel really lazy.
im suppose to be bibo but i wasn't and i didn't even think twice about it. go on, tell me whatever you want....
the type of day when i just felt like singing something from Boyzone. (hey, im a BSB fan!)
the moment compelled me to watch a love story called Tristan and Isolde (hahaha! what a great idea!!! am i genius or what?!)
someone told me.. the tagline was: before Romeo and Juliet there was Tristan and Isolde.....
(so are we watching this or not?!!)
and so i started.... really excited.
took a while before the potential love story begin.... i was too anxious to know how would it start.
then they're story began.... it was played out nice. not too dramatic or overly shallow. the scenes was just right.
the shocking twist.... it got me. darn!!! i can't believe it. it was torture!!!!!!!
the ending.... i wouldn't give it away. as much as my heart wants to share and pour out every emotion i had. (go! download and watch.)
"Something more than duty and death!
Why are we capable of feelings if not to have them?
Why long for things if they are not meant to be ours?
Well don't listen to me.
You're so sure of things.
You're certainty, it's like armour.
I wish I had that."
Sunday, November 02, 2008
hellboy II
i just watched the movie with my family at home. i never knew Abe could be so cheezy but it was cute and funny. we all know Red was cheezy the last time. i like the thought that they were even drinking beers while singing it. really got drunk too. i like this song... this also goes to my top faves.
c'mon everybody now...... hahahaha!
Chorus
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
o shit! i got a zit. ugh. >.<
c'mon everybody now...... hahahaha!
Chorus
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
o shit! i got a zit. ugh. >.<
mukang guilty again
tell me, can you just forget a particular person from your class? embarrassingly, i just did. it's just 4 years ago. i can't seem to forgive myself for forgetting. we were even close during my first year in high school and i did this horrible thing. im really sorry. i can't even say anything more than that. in my lamest defense, i was busy with org. busy with thesis, i guess. busy with my own group or i was always missing when original A's(kmi) bonds with original B's(sila) due to my other activities in life. we had different barkadas. but i should've still remembered. i know we were in the same batch and took the same course. i was just 100% convinced that we didn't had the chance to be classmates. and my last memory was really frm 12yrs ago. hahahaha! soz tlga! i almost ask earth to swallow me. of all my classmates i chose to have this selective memory gap on her. i mean seriously, mukang guilty tlga. zero(0) memory?!! not one conversation that i can think of. gosh! how could i? i swear, i didn't do this on purpose. in the end, when i already ran out of logical reasons.. i wanted to think that there is a bigger explanation why but il rather keep that to myself. hehe. magaling! magaling! magaling nman kc reg e.... you're so forgetful. (i did remember one instance that we were really classmates before we part ways, so medyo bumawi ako.... ok na un)
strike 3! im out. coach, should i face the wall? hehe. il be more careful next game. oo na! talo na ko... tama na...
on the lighter side of things, its really a fun experience. embarrassing but fun. humiliating but still fun. ang galing tlga e. =p
strike 3! im out. coach, should i face the wall? hehe. il be more careful next game. oo na! talo na ko... tama na...
on the lighter side of things, its really a fun experience. embarrassing but fun. humiliating but still fun. ang galing tlga e. =p
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
mukang guilty
i owe a friend this post(well, a part of this post) so that she can read my side of the story about the other night. hehe. well, the truth is i dnt have much anything to say. uv seen it all. u were there. i had fun and i had fun. lam mo na un. hehe. i enjoyed the night although i was really sleepy before that. i wanna thank you for that very very nice comment and pleasant reaction. sorii, i really didn't notice. mukang guilty nga kc cguro kaya NR. haha! so, this was about the other day.
today.... if someone asked me how was i 2-3hrs ago. sasabihin ko.. "wag mo muna ko kausapin, bad trip ako." bad3p tlga! hmp!!! nako.. nkk-inis! gs2 kong sumigaw. obviously, i went home earlier than expected coz i just can't stand staying at the office anymore. not that i hate being there.. may issue lng and everyone is tense and paranoid and i can't be with them any longer. too much negativity and i dnt wna hear it. it's doesn't really help and ease anything. so, why bother ur brain thinkin? dnt get me wrong, i understand. i just think that sometimes, people should learn how to keep things to themselves.
nweiz... that was one thing why i was bad3p. the other thing was.. about this weekend. my friends and i were planning this trip for the long weekend since i dnt know when.. hehe. and unfortunately there was a final change of plan this lunch time that screwed everything. of coarse, i understand. i just got really frustrated and sad. i really wanted to go. in fairness, there was of coarse numerous attempts to come up with alternates... i, of coarse is still interested kc nkpg-paalam na ko.. galit na kmi ng kapatid ko... ng-cancel na ko ng lakad at ready na kong maging pasaway. hehehe.... (tigas ulo ko noh?) so ituloy na dapat. but then every plan was being scratch. wooo! nkk-inis tlga... nkk-pikon. honestly, minsan lng ako ma-irita... at ma-pikon kya pag nangyari un.. malamang totoo. ayoko tlga ng malabong usapan. i did loose my patience for a couple of seconds during lunchtime and that's just me being me in the situation. during our afternoon break, i already given up and stayed quiet after sometime. i already lost my excitement. masaya sna... haaayz... there are things better not knowing. (mukang guilty. hmp! reg! hmp!)
like i said, i went home earlier. i ran with my other office friend and maybe he notice i was sad. sabi nya... "i-inom na lng ntin yan..." i smiled.. and thought... "tama ka... cge bukas."
well, that was hours ago. i calm down after i ate KFC and now, while watching 3 dads and 1 mom.
today.... if someone asked me how was i 2-3hrs ago. sasabihin ko.. "wag mo muna ko kausapin, bad trip ako." bad3p tlga! hmp!!! nako.. nkk-inis! gs2 kong sumigaw. obviously, i went home earlier than expected coz i just can't stand staying at the office anymore. not that i hate being there.. may issue lng and everyone is tense and paranoid and i can't be with them any longer. too much negativity and i dnt wna hear it. it's doesn't really help and ease anything. so, why bother ur brain thinkin? dnt get me wrong, i understand. i just think that sometimes, people should learn how to keep things to themselves.
nweiz... that was one thing why i was bad3p. the other thing was.. about this weekend. my friends and i were planning this trip for the long weekend since i dnt know when.. hehe. and unfortunately there was a final change of plan this lunch time that screwed everything. of coarse, i understand. i just got really frustrated and sad. i really wanted to go. in fairness, there was of coarse numerous attempts to come up with alternates... i, of coarse is still interested kc nkpg-paalam na ko.. galit na kmi ng kapatid ko... ng-cancel na ko ng lakad at ready na kong maging pasaway. hehehe.... (tigas ulo ko noh?) so ituloy na dapat. but then every plan was being scratch. wooo! nkk-inis tlga... nkk-pikon. honestly, minsan lng ako ma-irita... at ma-pikon kya pag nangyari un.. malamang totoo. ayoko tlga ng malabong usapan. i did loose my patience for a couple of seconds during lunchtime and that's just me being me in the situation. during our afternoon break, i already given up and stayed quiet after sometime. i already lost my excitement. masaya sna... haaayz... there are things better not knowing. (mukang guilty. hmp! reg! hmp!)
like i said, i went home earlier. i ran with my other office friend and maybe he notice i was sad. sabi nya... "i-inom na lng ntin yan..." i smiled.. and thought... "tama ka... cge bukas."
well, that was hours ago. i calm down after i ate KFC and now, while watching 3 dads and 1 mom.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
number ones
one time i was asked what are my top fav songs.... name three(3).
it was torture!
i like a lot of songs... and i mean a lot!
i really had a hard time thinking about it then.....
took awhile before i even can give one.
i then said..
So Little Time, Arkana
Took a while to drag me out of bed,
Aim some coffee at my head,
Saw the clock I'm running late,
Its an ordinary day.
And I'm like a dog on head,
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
Its sad but true,
Id rather be with you.
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
before too long.
So little time so much to do,
I'd rather spend my days with you.
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you.
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But I'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.
then ugh. can't really think of the next song....
until i browse to my phone and..
Stellar, Incubus
Meet me in outerspace
I will hold you close, if your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way
That I can show you how, it feels to be inside of you
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
and then.... i know it's corny but... hehe.
Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore, Reo Speedwagon
And even as I wander
Im keeping you in sight
Youre a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winters night
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
Its time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore
i can't really say that these are final. i think these are the ones on top of my head amongst all the songs i really really like. these are the songs, i strongly feel i could sing over and over(ok cge na nga, kht pa always with feelings... haha!)
it was torture!
i like a lot of songs... and i mean a lot!
i really had a hard time thinking about it then.....
took awhile before i even can give one.
i then said..
So Little Time, Arkana
Took a while to drag me out of bed,
Aim some coffee at my head,
Saw the clock I'm running late,
Its an ordinary day.
And I'm like a dog on head,
Knock one out and then fall asleep,
Its sad but true,
Id rather be with you.
Don't you forget about me,
When you're a celebrity,
It will be only you and me
before too long.
So little time so much to do,
I'd rather spend my days with you.
So little time so much to do,
I'd like to spend one day with you.
And if that day is not enough,
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But I'm not making plans for tomorrow,
For tomorrow never comes.
then ugh. can't really think of the next song....
until i browse to my phone and..
Stellar, Incubus
Meet me in outerspace
I will hold you close, if your afraid of heights
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way
That I can show you how, it feels to be inside of you
How do you it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
How do you do it, make me feel like I do
How do you do it, its better than I ever knew
and then.... i know it's corny but... hehe.
Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore, Reo Speedwagon
And even as I wander
Im keeping you in sight
Youre a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winters night
And Im getting closer than I ever thought I might
And I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
Its time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever
Cause I cant fight this feeling anymore
Ive forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I cant fight this feeling anymore
i can't really say that these are final. i think these are the ones on top of my head amongst all the songs i really really like. these are the songs, i strongly feel i could sing over and over(ok cge na nga, kht pa always with feelings... haha!)
thinking activity
pipol alwys cm down to 1 thnkin activity, evn wen drs nthn 2 think about. pipol create sumthn 2 thnk about. wn pipol say they dn wna thnk, their lyin.
d thing s dt thinkin onli helps when u choose to accept it does.. i dunno d facts bt.. am i ryt? or am i ryt? people jst luv to thnk. evn d impossible. evn d unthkable. evn wn u dnt hve 2 n 2 much wn u hve 2. thnkin change thngs. thinkin often gets u ol logical n ideal.. often ryt bt seldom real..
note 2 thy self: nvr evr overthnk. evr.
d thing s dt thinkin onli helps when u choose to accept it does.. i dunno d facts bt.. am i ryt? or am i ryt? people jst luv to thnk. evn d impossible. evn d unthkable. evn wn u dnt hve 2 n 2 much wn u hve 2. thnkin change thngs. thinkin often gets u ol logical n ideal.. often ryt bt seldom real..
note 2 thy self: nvr evr overthnk. evr.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
why prolong the agony?
i just had a nyc bonding moment with my long-time friend from college last saturday night. after work (yes, i came in) i took the liberty of having fun and unwinding. and what is the one thing that makes me unstress? movie! (i have to admit that KFC and 3 dads & 1 mom was my other options specially weekdays, which i did) we watch pineapple express. perfect! it was damn funny! you have to watch. after movie, there are many things we've talked about and i missed that about us. we realize over our conversations that there were a lot of other things why we were friends. shet, BFF? =p
nweiz, so why the title? i just realize that i've really changed or is changing in making decisions in my life. i do feel that sometimes i feel like im trying to get so many things done coz i have to. which worries me like you can never imagine. like im in a hurry. why prolong the agony? i hate waiting sometimes. i get tired, i get bored. i feel time is being wasted on things i dnt really wanna do or should nt do at all. simple as that. i always believe that it is always a yes or a no. nothing in between. even when unsure there's still a bigger side and we know it. we just dnt wanna say. im becoming more and more decisive in diff aspects of my life and i think, is a good thing. what im saying is if its something i have to do or im sure i will do one way or the other. i do it. i say, why not? its gonna be sometime right? so why not today? hehe. how soon is now? how far is near? sabi ng friend ko. "di ka nman si darna!"
well of coarse, im not perfect. and i dnt make the right decisions all of the time but then that's life. it should suck sometimes. i could be wrong every now and then. people can hate me. il make it up and will say im sorry. haha! like i always say: good shit happens. so, need not to be scared. why prolong the agony? if it happens, it happens. i should not worry. why make life miserable when its already too challenging living it? life is too short, why so serious? haha! move if you have to. make it happen. but we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves. i know, im not d same fan of the long-term planning committee lately for the past years specially on one topic in our lives (and what could that be?! hmmm!) and i think that's just fair. we can always be careful in hoping. we dnt wna keep it too high and too low. i choose to just enjoy the moment whatever it is. there's a bigger reason and explanation why we are where we are and we just need to take time to understand it. i choose to be spontaneous and it doesn't mean i dnt care.
nweiz, so why the title? i just realize that i've really changed or is changing in making decisions in my life. i do feel that sometimes i feel like im trying to get so many things done coz i have to. which worries me like you can never imagine. like im in a hurry. why prolong the agony? i hate waiting sometimes. i get tired, i get bored. i feel time is being wasted on things i dnt really wanna do or should nt do at all. simple as that. i always believe that it is always a yes or a no. nothing in between. even when unsure there's still a bigger side and we know it. we just dnt wanna say. im becoming more and more decisive in diff aspects of my life and i think, is a good thing. what im saying is if its something i have to do or im sure i will do one way or the other. i do it. i say, why not? its gonna be sometime right? so why not today? hehe. how soon is now? how far is near? sabi ng friend ko. "di ka nman si darna!"
well of coarse, im not perfect. and i dnt make the right decisions all of the time but then that's life. it should suck sometimes. i could be wrong every now and then. people can hate me. il make it up and will say im sorry. haha! like i always say: good shit happens. so, need not to be scared. why prolong the agony? if it happens, it happens. i should not worry. why make life miserable when its already too challenging living it? life is too short, why so serious? haha! move if you have to. make it happen. but we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves. i know, im not d same fan of the long-term planning committee lately for the past years specially on one topic in our lives (and what could that be?! hmmm!) and i think that's just fair. we can always be careful in hoping. we dnt wna keep it too high and too low. i choose to just enjoy the moment whatever it is. there's a bigger reason and explanation why we are where we are and we just need to take time to understand it. i choose to be spontaneous and it doesn't mean i dnt care.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
present day
a post from today.
i went away last weekend n i had fun. i really had fun last weekend. last weekend i had fun. the fun last weekend i had. hahahaa! nweiz, let's do that again.. :D
i went away last weekend n i had fun. i really had fun last weekend. last weekend i had fun. the fun last weekend i had. hahahaa! nweiz, let's do that again.. :D
belated
this was a post from 2 days ago.
ouch! that made me shut up and remain quiet. i cnt breathe. im on a high. my mind is all over this place. there's no ground. im tryin to stop myself. i cnt do this. not now. fast forward pls.
hours after. the rain already passed n im soakn wet. im sitting nxt to unknown n d feeling s jz crazy. half of me sayin yes and the other half is sayin no. hw can i do ds 2 myself? guess, i like the challenge.
seconds after. a song played in my head.... evryday situations begin 2 simplify. cz thngs wil nvr b d sme agn btwn u n i. i intertwine r lyf forces n tryin to unify. (edited song of coarse)
ouch! that made me shut up and remain quiet. i cnt breathe. im on a high. my mind is all over this place. there's no ground. im tryin to stop myself. i cnt do this. not now. fast forward pls.
hours after. the rain already passed n im soakn wet. im sitting nxt to unknown n d feeling s jz crazy. half of me sayin yes and the other half is sayin no. hw can i do ds 2 myself? guess, i like the challenge.
seconds after. a song played in my head.... evryday situations begin 2 simplify. cz thngs wil nvr b d sme agn btwn u n i. i intertwine r lyf forces n tryin to unify. (edited song of coarse)
Sunday, October 05, 2008
exactly!
i am in chillax mode. (since i worked yesterday) went by my friends' blogs. got a few laughs specially lonermode's entries. then thought i stopped by tikoy's. her most recent entry said something like:
"it's hard to wait for something that you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want..."
damn! that's deep, pare! pro un un e... exactly what i mean.....
"it's hard to wait for something that you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you want..."
damn! that's deep, pare! pro un un e... exactly what i mean.....
Saturday, October 04, 2008
at least
at least there was one reason to shmyl today. thanks. :D [fine! talo na ko sa araw na to..]
at least di nman nauwi sa away ung mumunting diskusyon nmin nila momii at dadii knina.. haayz... minsan di ko lam kung alin ang mas mahirap... maging ako o maging sila? hehe.
at least i did get my job done today. slight. may 3 items ako na tagged For Review. 8 ang quota per dev per day. hanep! actually nk-10/11 ako. kso due to a show stopper. di ko sya ma-unit-test. pro coded na. :D may 2 na lng ata ko not started, the rest is In Progress. yez! bibo!
at least may isang araw pa ko na weekend. hehe.. hayaan na ntin bayad nman. ayoko lng tlga ngttrabaho ng Sabado. Saturday is my day, i should not work at all... :D
at least i have the remaining 3 hrs of my Saturday to watch Grey's and the Office. :D at cguro irereplay ko ang Prison Break pra sumaya-saya nman ako. hihi. (adik!)
at least... there are enough small things to get you through one big bad day.
at least di nman nauwi sa away ung mumunting diskusyon nmin nila momii at dadii knina.. haayz... minsan di ko lam kung alin ang mas mahirap... maging ako o maging sila? hehe.
at least i did get my job done today. slight. may 3 items ako na tagged For Review. 8 ang quota per dev per day. hanep! actually nk-10/11 ako. kso due to a show stopper. di ko sya ma-unit-test. pro coded na. :D may 2 na lng ata ko not started, the rest is In Progress. yez! bibo!
at least may isang araw pa ko na weekend. hehe.. hayaan na ntin bayad nman. ayoko lng tlga ngttrabaho ng Sabado. Saturday is my day, i should not work at all... :D
at least i have the remaining 3 hrs of my Saturday to watch Grey's and the Office. :D at cguro irereplay ko ang Prison Break pra sumaya-saya nman ako. hihi. (adik!)
at least... there are enough small things to get you through one big bad day.
Thursday, October 02, 2008
aun!
day 1 at the fate bench. ang hirap! it was madness! ugh! di ko ata matatagalan sa beach na to.. mukang kailangan tlga mglaro.. pro hinde, bawi bukas.. hehe. bawal mglaro reg. bawal! [focus reg!! focus!] pro i really can't stop smiling. kagabi, knina, ngaun. shet!!!! [it's hard, pare! it's hard.]
nweiz, let me tell you about my day. i started the day with my ipod plugged in my ears from the second i stepped out our door. what am i listening to? chillout and house. its loud. in my defense, i was really sleepy, i dnt wanna give-in. i also wanted to concentrate on my readings and review pra hinde nman ako antukin... no chance, il sing with it.. dahil hinde mo sya makakanta :D
this morning, i bumped with Ms. Reggie from Resource and asked about the upcoming project. She said: "gusto mo?" then smiled and walked away. I didn't really had a clue on what she meant. I didn't took her seriously.
came lunch. ate at World Tops. had a nyc Pan Am Chicken. i was really hunger! :D
i made a wish after lunch while we were in the elevator. and i just got it. ang galing!!!! it was about 3:30pm when two of the PMs went down and looking for devs then minutes after we were able to move all our things upstairs. starting tomorrow my work day starts 1pm and ends 10pm.
"...Be careful what you wished for. Cause you might just get it all. You might just get it all." Ü
nweiz, let me tell you about my day. i started the day with my ipod plugged in my ears from the second i stepped out our door. what am i listening to? chillout and house. its loud. in my defense, i was really sleepy, i dnt wanna give-in. i also wanted to concentrate on my readings and review pra hinde nman ako antukin... no chance, il sing with it.. dahil hinde mo sya makakanta :D
this morning, i bumped with Ms. Reggie from Resource and asked about the upcoming project. She said: "gusto mo?" then smiled and walked away. I didn't really had a clue on what she meant. I didn't took her seriously.
came lunch. ate at World Tops. had a nyc Pan Am Chicken. i was really hunger! :D
i made a wish after lunch while we were in the elevator. and i just got it. ang galing!!!! it was about 3:30pm when two of the PMs went down and looking for devs then minutes after we were able to move all our things upstairs. starting tomorrow my work day starts 1pm and ends 10pm.
"...Be careful what you wished for. Cause you might just get it all. You might just get it all." Ü
forfeit the game
everyday, we live and learned that we play a different game with fate. sometimes we win, sometimes we loose and then sometimes we don't know the score... which makes the game fun and exciting and hard and challenging -- addictive! (music score cue: cnt fight this feeling anymore.. wahaha!) something to look forward everyday when you wake up and live your day. i know everyone loves to win and everyone wants to try. everyone wants to play the game. every chance, every moment that we can grab that window of opportunity -- we take it. we were thought to not get tired, not stop and never give up. i know that's right and im not gonna argue. but why? why do we play? (tell me, what is my problem?!!! wahahaha) Ü
i am still trying to understand and putting logic to something not understandable and logical solely to the human brain and i have to say im insane for doing this. for even trying. actually, im laughing at myself right now. haha! im slowly loosing track of the point(if there is) that im trying to make. but dont fret, im not stopping. (haha!) i have to get over this, i have to write. by the way, no! im not drunk. im perfectly sober and normal. the last time i drink was a little over 24hrs ago. just two(2) beers, light. (see?!! not drunk!)
so nweiz, why?! i ask this because i nid to ask. i nid to tell and constantly remind myself of a gud reason why should i continue playin this game of fate. why am i here again... i know im the paranoid, worrier and scared person you all know which makes this hard. plus i am the cheezy, corny, confused and complicated person in this topic which makes it even harder. and "no one" even knows what i am disturbing myself about... wink* wink* told you, can't get it over with.... hahahaha! like always, i bring chaos to my head for fun. (c'mon! what's wrong with me?!!) Ü
moving on... the real point is i "THINK" i want to forfeit the game. i dnt wnna play. i wanna forget that there is a game. i shouldn't played in the first place but i didn't stop myself for crossing the line that is not to be cross YET.(hihi) i was well aware of the penalties, i even heard the referee called it. its hard playing alone. its not healthy. "its complicated" or should i say too complicated... haha! and its not fair. il get tired and exhaust myself, il waste everything and that's not good and i dnt want that. i should'nt be thinkin about this and i should'nt be writing but here i am.. so clearly, i did it again. i just wrote about my experience of beating the red light and not taking the front seat but then again! (kulit reg!) they always told me im a hard-headed person and once again i prove them right(well, just so u know... i really tried! but there are some things i cannot stop. oo, adik!) i thought "striking while the iron was still hot" was a good idea, it wasn't. at least that's what i think. either i am totally right or wrong about all this, who cares?!! its just a matter of what?! days; hours; minutes; hope not seconds that i would be writing yet another post like this..... (pls ignore me!)
i enjoyed playin, got excited in crossing the line. too much for reality i have to wake. dnt get me wrong, im not quitting this fate game. im not a looser. im not a quitter. all im sayin is im not playin... for now... il wait when the game is really on. and i hope to win it... meanwhile, il take the bench. il enjoy the beach. wear my shades. il even get a tan!
i am still trying to understand and putting logic to something not understandable and logical solely to the human brain and i have to say im insane for doing this. for even trying. actually, im laughing at myself right now. haha! im slowly loosing track of the point(if there is) that im trying to make. but dont fret, im not stopping. (haha!) i have to get over this, i have to write. by the way, no! im not drunk. im perfectly sober and normal. the last time i drink was a little over 24hrs ago. just two(2) beers, light. (see?!! not drunk!)
so nweiz, why?! i ask this because i nid to ask. i nid to tell and constantly remind myself of a gud reason why should i continue playin this game of fate. why am i here again... i know im the paranoid, worrier and scared person you all know which makes this hard. plus i am the cheezy, corny, confused and complicated person in this topic which makes it even harder. and "no one" even knows what i am disturbing myself about... wink* wink* told you, can't get it over with.... hahahaha! like always, i bring chaos to my head for fun. (c'mon! what's wrong with me?!!) Ü
moving on... the real point is i "THINK" i want to forfeit the game. i dnt wnna play. i wanna forget that there is a game. i shouldn't played in the first place but i didn't stop myself for crossing the line that is not to be cross YET.(hihi) i was well aware of the penalties, i even heard the referee called it. its hard playing alone. its not healthy. "its complicated" or should i say too complicated... haha! and its not fair. il get tired and exhaust myself, il waste everything and that's not good and i dnt want that. i should'nt be thinkin about this and i should'nt be writing but here i am.. so clearly, i did it again. i just wrote about my experience of beating the red light and not taking the front seat but then again! (kulit reg!) they always told me im a hard-headed person and once again i prove them right(well, just so u know... i really tried! but there are some things i cannot stop. oo, adik!) i thought "striking while the iron was still hot" was a good idea, it wasn't. at least that's what i think. either i am totally right or wrong about all this, who cares?!! its just a matter of what?! days; hours; minutes; hope not seconds that i would be writing yet another post like this..... (pls ignore me!)
i enjoyed playin, got excited in crossing the line. too much for reality i have to wake. dnt get me wrong, im not quitting this fate game. im not a looser. im not a quitter. all im sayin is im not playin... for now... il wait when the game is really on. and i hope to win it... meanwhile, il take the bench. il enjoy the beach. wear my shades. il even get a tan!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
beating the red light
i went overboard far beyond limit and expectation. i just passed it. like every typical violator i just went right through it. can you blame me for not stopping?....... yah! you can. it's not that i didn't see it. i did. in fact i was staring at it blankly only inches away from where i sit. seconds before, i was even battling in my mind whether to do it or not. i know it was right to stop but it felt good to go. i look outside the glass of my door trying to get myself bothered with other things but then all i saw was myself smiling at my reflection as i replay in my head what just happen. ha ha! it was the shades that made me do it. those dark shades that instead of covering me had exposed me to see. to see what was not needed to be seen. what was not needed to think about. exaggerate about. damn! guess, i'll have to accept the ticket on this one mr. officer... i'll try not to take the front seat next time.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
readin about u....
i like reading about myself.... i enjoy it. i get to know myself better... i get to prove who i am... and get a written explanation so i could get away with it... haha! like i needed one....
i like reading about other people... i get to justify my first impressions on them... ooops! hehe! i get to understand better why humans are like humans... (?!!?) like reading articles of the difference of men and women... men and they're rules... ugh. never ending! that needs an entirely different post. nweiz......
here are my favorites:
1. My Visual DNA [http://friends.imagini.net/rege]
this was pretty accurate.... :D very presentable too...
a wildcat in my moods, a thriller for fun, a habit of a high time roller, and love bug of love
2. Gender Guesser [http://www.hackerfactor.com/GenderGuesser.html]
BLOG post: I'm a guy? No freakin way!
Is that even fair?!!!
3. What's Your Name Hidden Meaning? [http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/]
BLOG post: what rege means
4. Astrology Insight [http://www.astrology-insight.com/]
BLOG post: LEO
5. Nohari and Johari Windows
http://kevan.org/johari?view=rege
55% of people think that rege is cheerful
66% of people agree that rege is friendly
http://kevan.org/nohari?view=rege
71% of people think that rege is simple
57% of people think that rege is childish
negative na ba ang simple and childish???! geez!!!!!
**your F.R.I.E.N.D.S character (i must say that I really liked to be Rachel but her description from this quiz is a bit off....)
**how about avatars? create yours at FaceYourManga.com
i like reading about other people... i get to justify my first impressions on them... ooops! hehe! i get to understand better why humans are like humans... (?!!?) like reading articles of the difference of men and women... men and they're rules... ugh. never ending! that needs an entirely different post. nweiz......
here are my favorites:
1. My Visual DNA [http://friends.imagini.net/rege]
this was pretty accurate.... :D very presentable too...
a wildcat in my moods, a thriller for fun, a habit of a high time roller, and love bug of love
2. Gender Guesser [http://www.hackerfactor.com/GenderGuesser.html]
BLOG post: I'm a guy? No freakin way!
Is that even fair?!!!
3. What's Your Name Hidden Meaning? [http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/]
BLOG post: what rege means
4. Astrology Insight [http://www.astrology-insight.com/]
BLOG post: LEO
5. Nohari and Johari Windows
http://kevan.org/johari?view=rege
55% of people think that rege is cheerful
66% of people agree that rege is friendly
http://kevan.org/nohari?view=rege
71% of people think that rege is simple
57% of people think that rege is childish
negative na ba ang simple and childish???! geez!!!!!
**your F.R.I.E.N.D.S character (i must say that I really liked to be Rachel but her description from this quiz is a bit off....)
| Which Friends Character Are You? | |
 | You are Rachel. You are beautiful, fashionable, and a bit selfish. You're very selfish and pay great attention to image. Spoiled when you were young, you were always the popular and snobbish kid. Although you hang on to your adolescent attributes, you grow more responsible every year. |
going for SL!
yep. im up for it. im trying to get sick. wala lng. i just wanted a valid reason to not go to work. :D as if i really need an excuse. (soz! old times! =p) last wednesday i started having coughs, my throat just hurts that night and i barely ate my dinner plus my head aches. ugh. sometimes, getting sick really blows but i miss it. staying home while your friends are at work is something i miss more... ;D
why am I sick?! i guess... like everyone said... too much of anything is always bad.... i spend the last 2 weeks spending time with my friends... dinner after dinner and gimik after another... prang ang tagal ko nman nawala d b? namiz nila lng cguro ako.. :D (hihi) i realized ang dami ko na plang circle.... network... friendster... not bad... not bad... haha! nweiz.. so aun.. everyday puyat.. 12MN or lampas lagi uwi... ayan! heto! ngkasakit na... kulang sa tulog... pagod and all that... sana umabot to til monday... :D
"pambihira" sabi nga ni carla... well... just trying to be spontaneous... haha! haaay... mahirap tlga bumalik sa beach... balik aral and all.. certification. hooo! walang drive.. walang urge... yesterday, i just spend 2hrs working on a teaser for our "Bowling Nights" on a computer that cannot be installed with anything that would help me do it... but since i am on the beach, everything was possible.. took a whyl but yea. it was really fulfilling. why so serious right? haha! pro il get there..... in fact, we'll be starting training for a new client? next next week.. see.... life is spontaneous as your career is.. it starts 8am. huwaw d b? 8am to makati from north... exciting!
nweiz... ito inuubo pa rin.. sna mawalan ako boses.. hihi... or mging husky for a day. maiba lng... =p
why am I sick?! i guess... like everyone said... too much of anything is always bad.... i spend the last 2 weeks spending time with my friends... dinner after dinner and gimik after another... prang ang tagal ko nman nawala d b? namiz nila lng cguro ako.. :D (hihi) i realized ang dami ko na plang circle.... network... friendster... not bad... not bad... haha! nweiz.. so aun.. everyday puyat.. 12MN or lampas lagi uwi... ayan! heto! ngkasakit na... kulang sa tulog... pagod and all that... sana umabot to til monday... :D
"pambihira" sabi nga ni carla... well... just trying to be spontaneous... haha! haaay... mahirap tlga bumalik sa beach... balik aral and all.. certification. hooo! walang drive.. walang urge... yesterday, i just spend 2hrs working on a teaser for our "Bowling Nights" on a computer that cannot be installed with anything that would help me do it... but since i am on the beach, everything was possible.. took a whyl but yea. it was really fulfilling. why so serious right? haha! pro il get there..... in fact, we'll be starting training for a new client? next next week.. see.... life is spontaneous as your career is.. it starts 8am. huwaw d b? 8am to makati from north... exciting!
nweiz... ito inuubo pa rin.. sna mawalan ako boses.. hihi... or mging husky for a day. maiba lng... =p
Friday, September 05, 2008
here goes
..nothing.
im not prepared 4 ds... bt im willin to try n c wher wil ds go. im xctd n worried. wish me luck! in case il freeze.. damn! then i guess, earth can swallow me. haha! im scared. heartbeat racing by the second as i watch and hear it tick. involuntary grin. unstoppable imagination. im in panic. i just brought chaos in my head. and my voice? testing... 1 2 3. how do i do this? well, just deal with it. breathe. attempted walking for fresh air... but then bam! time's up. shock came over me. ran. look myself in the mirror and reset my mind. listen and face what is needed to be done. excruciating moments of paranoia, excitement and worry as i sit on the coach. what the hell?! i can do this and im not hopeful. im gonna enjoy the nyt and that's all there's to it. period.
:D
im not prepared 4 ds... bt im willin to try n c wher wil ds go. im xctd n worried. wish me luck! in case il freeze.. damn! then i guess, earth can swallow me. haha! im scared. heartbeat racing by the second as i watch and hear it tick. involuntary grin. unstoppable imagination. im in panic. i just brought chaos in my head. and my voice? testing... 1 2 3. how do i do this? well, just deal with it. breathe. attempted walking for fresh air... but then bam! time's up. shock came over me. ran. look myself in the mirror and reset my mind. listen and face what is needed to be done. excruciating moments of paranoia, excitement and worry as i sit on the coach. what the hell?! i can do this and im not hopeful. im gonna enjoy the nyt and that's all there's to it. period.
:D
Sunday, August 31, 2008
panahon na nman
May, may naririnig
akong bagong awitin (bagong awitin)
at may may naririnig
akong bagong sigaw. (e ikaw)
Hindi mo ba namamalayan?
wala ka bang nararamdaman?
Ika ng hangin na
Humahalik sa atin:
"panahon na naman
ng pag-ibig.
panahon na naman
aahh.
panahon na naman
ng pag-ibig.
gumising ka
tara na."
Masdang maigi ang mga
mata ng bawat tao,
nakasilip ang isang
bagong saya
at pag-ibig na dakilang
matagal nang nawala,
kumusta na?
nariyan ka lang pala.
..maligayang pagbalik, pag-ibig, sa puso ng bawat tao
--Rivermaya
in lab ang mga tao sa paligid.... bakit kaya? hehehe... kc ba dahil BER months na? at unti-unti nang lumalamig ang bawat gabi ng inyong pag tulog? kay tagal na bang ngintay ng pusong ng-iisa? ang lalalim ng mga status, mga one-time makata ang mga hirit.... ang deep ng mga thots at ang cheezy ng mga pahayag.. walang sinabi lolo nyo..... hehee..
tila isang sakit ang dumapo sa knila.. mga sintomas daw ang aking patuloy na makikita.... pare-parehas ng sinasabi... at mga gawi... walang kalinawan... mga tila cgurado pro walang maikwento.... speechless ang gimik! mga lutang na kamalayan.. mga hilong salita...
ganun tlga pag in lab. di mapigilang damdamin na lubos na umaapaw sa kanilang isipan.... bukang-bibig na dahilan at walang katapusang pag-ngiti sa iisang pinanggagalingan ng tanging namumutawi ng mga labi.... aaaahaaaayyyy.... kokorny nyo!!!!!!
pro masayang maging masaya... kaya pipigilan mo pa ba? :D
akong bagong awitin (bagong awitin)
at may may naririnig
akong bagong sigaw. (e ikaw)
Hindi mo ba namamalayan?
wala ka bang nararamdaman?
Ika ng hangin na
Humahalik sa atin:
"panahon na naman
ng pag-ibig.
panahon na naman
aahh.
panahon na naman
ng pag-ibig.
gumising ka
tara na."
Masdang maigi ang mga
mata ng bawat tao,
nakasilip ang isang
bagong saya
at pag-ibig na dakilang
matagal nang nawala,
kumusta na?
nariyan ka lang pala.
..maligayang pagbalik, pag-ibig, sa puso ng bawat tao
--Rivermaya
in lab ang mga tao sa paligid.... bakit kaya? hehehe... kc ba dahil BER months na? at unti-unti nang lumalamig ang bawat gabi ng inyong pag tulog? kay tagal na bang ngintay ng pusong ng-iisa? ang lalalim ng mga status, mga one-time makata ang mga hirit.... ang deep ng mga thots at ang cheezy ng mga pahayag.. walang sinabi lolo nyo..... hehee..
tila isang sakit ang dumapo sa knila.. mga sintomas daw ang aking patuloy na makikita.... pare-parehas ng sinasabi... at mga gawi... walang kalinawan... mga tila cgurado pro walang maikwento.... speechless ang gimik! mga lutang na kamalayan.. mga hilong salita...
ganun tlga pag in lab. di mapigilang damdamin na lubos na umaapaw sa kanilang isipan.... bukang-bibig na dahilan at walang katapusang pag-ngiti sa iisang pinanggagalingan ng tanging namumutawi ng mga labi.... aaaahaaaayyyy.... kokorny nyo!!!!!!
pro masayang maging masaya... kaya pipigilan mo pa ba? :D
Thursday, August 28, 2008
n wer bck
"everybody's changing and i dnt feel the same..."
it was my first day at work again... at ODC
on my ride to work i seem so excited to be there
can't really describe the feeling but the feeling really did made me smyl
despite the traffic and the very undeniable fact that i was late
i get nervous when excited and i did feel my hands sweating. yes, i do that.
it was already raining when i got off the bus but that didn't stop the happy feeling
hey! no raining on my parade
the makati rockstar catwalk was something i miss out and to walk down its road again was a blast
as i was stepping closer and closer my heartbeat raise in reply
haha! yes, i am weird.
at the elevator, when i saw my reflection at the mirror...
memories came flashing which replaced every nervous feeling with unforgettable funny moments
awwwwwww, geez! i really did miss these guys.
nyc to be back again.... ;)
it was my first day at work again... at ODC
on my ride to work i seem so excited to be there
can't really describe the feeling but the feeling really did made me smyl
despite the traffic and the very undeniable fact that i was late
i get nervous when excited and i did feel my hands sweating. yes, i do that.
it was already raining when i got off the bus but that didn't stop the happy feeling
hey! no raining on my parade
the makati rockstar catwalk was something i miss out and to walk down its road again was a blast
as i was stepping closer and closer my heartbeat raise in reply
haha! yes, i am weird.
at the elevator, when i saw my reflection at the mirror...
memories came flashing which replaced every nervous feeling with unforgettable funny moments
awwwwwww, geez! i really did miss these guys.
nyc to be back again.... ;)
Sunday, August 10, 2008
jose cuervo
after everything that was done for the day.. we just can't seem to get enough of each other..... we decided to celebrate and partee. yes. we took it in our house.there were smirnoff. coors. and of course, jose cuervo (tequila). chips. music and TV. everyone was game and that's all we needed. :D
.... hours and hours after. we never realized or we are not capable to realize anymore that it was 4am. i was tipsy. i know. but i was still standing and in control of everything.... nope. hinde ako gumagalaw lng mg-isa.. haha! two(2) of the guys stayed sa sala, tulog!
morn
ing after, i
woke up with
a headache. i slept at 430am and got up at 8am. haahaha.. record! had the sudden rush to take pictures of the evidences and called it a day to remember....i was too timid that day... had breakfast at Marmi's... played Dora.. haha.. which named me Baby and Marmi, Mommy. went home.. went to church. headed back at Mommy's for 4hr lunch. went home again to wash clothes and attempt to iron. cooked dinner, ate with Tin and headed to Mommy's for the last time. hahah
aha! and we said to ourselves.... this is the life.... :Dyep. life has been nyc and God has been good to us. i was so worried in doing this job here. but i had d pleasure of doing things on my own. its tough. it's hard. sometimes, work just blows. but then again, if i think about it.... im not too unlucky after all. i met new friends. tried new stuffs. out here on my own.... i think i matured a bit and im doing it all while having fun.
looking forward to many next weekend.
downtown take 2
continuation....
as we are seekers of adventure and challenge.. we arrived at the train station just the time it was actually arriving at the station. you can picture the train and our car arriving at the place at the same time, and yes... we ran and we laugh. beat that!
this time we were with Ate Rachel (haha), we were more confident we wouldn't get loss because we already did that. and so, everything was planned to go as planned. . . .
4th destination. Supposedly Adler Planetarium.
i googled before-hand the bus routes we need to take, we took this bus 146 paid $2 and we're off. the driver said he could drop us off but he didn't. he made us take off a place too far from it, luckily it was the park's place. so again...
4th destination. Millenium Park.
well, it's a park alright.... we saw this electronic-like fountain that has an image of a face. a man or a women in it.. (moving) they smile, grin, move they're eyes... then after some time they act like they're blowing water to the ground.. only that water really comes off. :D its different. it was placed in rectangular pot-whole of sort.. (haha!) di ko lam idescribe... nweiz, it was fun! a lot of kids was enjoying the wet floor.
then there was this giant silver bean. i dunno why... but it's there.. took a lot of shots there...
there was a field with people doing some exercise like luneta. :D
what else, there was this metal thingy architectural structure that we also took shots of.
5th destination. Adler Planetarium.
and here we are.. ooh.. 1st time to get inside one so i was really really excited. we got off a free trolley. we saw an amazing view just outside the planetarium. chicago skyline was nyc. we were looking at it by the sea.... with the right kind of wind... with birds flying over.. wooo... perfect MTV and picture place. we even saw a newly wed being photographed.. aaaaawww.. haha!
nweiz, so we entered the planetarium. i would have to say, i was really excited. we had 3 tickets and an audio device to start with...
first ticket was the exhibit all-over the place, the audio device was for the narration... (aba! astig! ok na idea!)
second ticket was "Cosmic Collision", we were just in time for the show... of course, like any other expectaion. we were in a dome... the seats was soft and comfy... it was about collisions in space and its relevance to us. it was pretty cool, i really enjoyed it. the voice-over was nyc and the sequence was great. not too complicated and not boring.
3rd ticket was for the night sky. i should admit.... i was still excited. :D (sorry tlga 1st time) it was a bigger dome and a large geeky-complicated-lookin-contraption was in the middle. unlike the first show.. this was not really narrated. it was discussed by a speaker who carelessly uses this red pointer laser as fast as you can imagine and go around and arch on stars and constellations like it was a part of our
daily lives. it was a discussion about constellations, stars, how you find things up in the sky, moons, planets.... there were a lot of topics and it really got boring. nothing magical or awesome about it. i did not enjoyed it.... the stars air-dome discussion at elem was even nicer.... as it finish, i was expecting a stiff neck. (haha!)
5th destination. Museum of Science and Industry.
we took a long way to get here and been in 2 buses. it actually took us 5 miles from the heart of downtown Chicago. when we got there, we saw that there are a lot places to see and places to go, plus we're seeing this show: "Grand Canyon Adventure". we got time to burn, so we explored th
e 
other exhibits. we first passed a carnival circus-inspired walkway... i enjoyed the mirrors and the 3d worm-like animation that you can "kunwari touch" (haha! hirap iexplain)
then we proceed to "UB505-Submarine". yea. it was a submarine on land. i dnt know if it's real but it really looks like it. there
were missiles and the complete submarine thingy. another fee to take you inside. after that, we wanted to go visit "Smart Home" but then it would cost us another $5 so we passed(haha!) plus it would eat our time to the show. aaaww.... i would've wanted to see that.... they said the house runs on solar and it has this cool stuff that it does automatically just like in the movies. :D so we took chances, in seeing the "Space somethin
g" haha! forgot the name. we saw astronauts and their rockets. we even took a picture inside an astronaut suit along with the 5-7 yr old kids (wahahaha! sorri wala sa pinas!)
minutes after, we climb upstairs and saw the museum postcard in real-life. haha! waahahaha. Jake and I went wild on where to take picture. there was this huge train. airplanes. city skylines. more trains. more planes. and a miniture village. oooh wow! we were like kids moving from one picture opt to another. :D
and so the time is up and the show was on. we went in a yet another dome-like seating. (oooh.. not again! traumatic!) i really expected something extra-ordinary on the show but not. it was a documentary film about the grand canyon.. a little close to Al Gore's "Inconvenient Truth". it started ok and the water rafting sequence was interesting but the rest was pretty boring. another option to the show was dinosours live! but we missed the screening when we got there. shoot! oh well.. took the time to rest.
after the show, everyone was either in "going-home" or "where do we eat" mode. yea. i was starving too.. we took a bus back to the park area and started walking to the station. wooh! no problem in walking, it's just that I was really hungry that time. I was merely doing a walkathon. hahaha! 15-20 minutes after we got there. i just decided to buy something from Jamba Juice just to get over the hunger. I ordered "Carribean Passion" and I think even if there was nothing passionate about it..... i didn't care. :D bought cookies too. woooh! food! yey! maybe a few minutes after, I was my normal self again. :D
we decided to go outside the station again and look for a place to eat. walked around the neighboring streets and amazingly most of the stores were CLOSED. whyyyyy???? it's only 7pm. weird!!!!! luckily this Jimmy John's store was OPEN. I didn't bother ordering, they served sandwiches and I'm not a fan plus I'm already full. Some of the guys, went back at the station to eat real food. haha! So, they ordered and I sat there taking pictures of the lights and the signs around. (love 'em) Jake had an unfortunate situation with his order that pissed him off, Marmi and Tin didn't enjoyed their very hard very cold sandwich either. haha! (wawa nman kmi...)
it was almost 8 so, we headed back to the station. we were one of the first that we
nt in so we had nyc seats. everyone was tired and everyone was sleepy. I have to admit we were a lot tired the first time we got there. But everything was a blast. Buzzer Beater. Getting lost and Getting lost again.. Walking for an hour. No signal. Stiff Neck. Slyp Time. haha! We enjoyed every picture, every place and every stop. We were like kids getting to know the famous places in downtown Chicago and it was nice knowing them. ;)
as we are seekers of adventure and challenge.. we arrived at the train station just the time it was actually arriving at the station. you can picture the train and our car arriving at the place at the same time, and yes... we ran and we laugh. beat that!
this time we were with Ate Rachel (haha), we were more confident we wouldn't get loss because we already did that. and so, everything was planned to go as planned. . . .
4th destination. Supposedly Adler Planetarium.
i googled before-hand the bus routes we need to take, we took this bus 146 paid $2 and we're off. the driver said he could drop us off but he didn't. he made us take off a place too far from it, luckily it was the park's place. so again...
4th destination. Millenium Park.
well, it's a park alright.... we saw this electronic-like fountain that has an image of a face. a man or a women in it.. (moving) they smile, grin, move they're eyes... then after some time they act like they're blowing water to the ground.. only that water really comes off. :D its different. it was placed in rectangular pot-whole of sort.. (haha!) di ko lam idescribe... nweiz, it was fun! a lot of kids was enjoying the wet floor.then there was this giant silver bean. i dunno why... but it's there.. took a lot of shots there...
there was a field with people doing some exercise like luneta. :D
what else, there was this metal thingy architectural structure that we also took shots of.
5th destination. Adler Planetarium.
and here we are.. ooh.. 1st time to get inside one so i was really really excited. we got off a free trolley. we saw an amazing view just outside the planetarium. chicago skyline was nyc. we were looking at it by the sea.... with the right kind of wind... with birds flying over.. wooo... perfect MTV and picture place. we even saw a newly wed being photographed.. aaaaawww.. haha!
nweiz, so we entered the planetarium. i would have to say, i was really excited. we had 3 tickets and an audio device to start with...
first ticket was the exhibit all-over the place, the audio device was for the narration... (aba! astig! ok na idea!)
second ticket was "Cosmic Collision", we were just in time for the show... of course, like any other expectaion. we were in a dome... the seats was soft and comfy... it was about collisions in space and its relevance to us. it was pretty cool, i really enjoyed it. the voice-over was nyc and the sequence was great. not too complicated and not boring.
3rd ticket was for the night sky. i should admit.... i was still excited. :D (sorry tlga 1st time) it was a bigger dome and a large geeky-complicated-lookin-contraption was in the middle. unlike the first show.. this was not really narrated. it was discussed by a speaker who carelessly uses this red pointer laser as fast as you can imagine and go around and arch on stars and constellations like it was a part of our
daily lives. it was a discussion about constellations, stars, how you find things up in the sky, moons, planets.... there were a lot of topics and it really got boring. nothing magical or awesome about it. i did not enjoyed it.... the stars air-dome discussion at elem was even nicer.... as it finish, i was expecting a stiff neck. (haha!)5th destination. Museum of Science and Industry.
we took a long way to get here and been in 2 buses. it actually took us 5 miles from the heart of downtown Chicago. when we got there, we saw that there are a lot places to see and places to go, plus we're seeing this show: "Grand Canyon Adventure". we got time to burn, so we explored th
e 
other exhibits. we first passed a carnival circus-inspired walkway... i enjoyed the mirrors and the 3d worm-like animation that you can "kunwari touch" (haha! hirap iexplain)then we proceed to "UB505-Submarine". yea. it was a submarine on land. i dnt know if it's real but it really looks like it. there
were missiles and the complete submarine thingy. another fee to take you inside. after that, we wanted to go visit "Smart Home" but then it would cost us another $5 so we passed(haha!) plus it would eat our time to the show. aaaww.... i would've wanted to see that.... they said the house runs on solar and it has this cool stuff that it does automatically just like in the movies. :D so we took chances, in seeing the "Space somethin
g" haha! forgot the name. we saw astronauts and their rockets. we even took a picture inside an astronaut suit along with the 5-7 yr old kids (wahahaha! sorri wala sa pinas!)minutes after, we climb upstairs and saw the museum postcard in real-life. haha! waahahaha. Jake and I went wild on where to take picture. there was this huge train. airplanes. city skylines. more trains. more planes. and a miniture village. oooh wow! we were like kids moving from one picture opt to another. :D
and so the time is up and the show was on. we went in a yet another dome-like seating. (oooh.. not again! traumatic!) i really expected something extra-ordinary on the show but not. it was a documentary film about the grand canyon.. a little close to Al Gore's "Inconvenient Truth". it started ok and the water rafting sequence was interesting but the rest was pretty boring. another option to the show was dinosours live! but we missed the screening when we got there. shoot! oh well.. took the time to rest.
after the show, everyone was either in "going-home" or "where do we eat" mode. yea. i was starving too.. we took a bus back to the park area and started walking to the station. wooh! no problem in walking, it's just that I was really hungry that time. I was merely doing a walkathon. hahaha! 15-20 minutes after we got there. i just decided to buy something from Jamba Juice just to get over the hunger. I ordered "Carribean Passion" and I think even if there was nothing passionate about it..... i didn't care. :D bought cookies too. woooh! food! yey! maybe a few minutes after, I was my normal self again. :D
we decided to go outside the station again and look for a place to eat. walked around the neighboring streets and amazingly most of the stores were CLOSED. whyyyyy???? it's only 7pm. weird!!!!! luckily this Jimmy John's store was OPEN. I didn't bother ordering, they served sandwiches and I'm not a fan plus I'm already full. Some of the guys, went back at the station to eat real food. haha! So, they ordered and I sat there taking pictures of the lights and the signs around. (love 'em) Jake had an unfortunate situation with his order that pissed him off, Marmi and Tin didn't enjoyed their very hard very cold sandwich either. haha! (wawa nman kmi...)
it was almost 8 so, we headed back to the station. we were one of the first that we
nt in so we had nyc seats. everyone was tired and everyone was sleepy. I have to admit we were a lot tired the first time we got there. But everything was a blast. Buzzer Beater. Getting lost and Getting lost again.. Walking for an hour. No signal. Stiff Neck. Slyp Time. haha! We enjoyed every picture, every place and every stop. We were like kids getting to know the famous places in downtown Chicago and it was nice knowing them. ;)
Thursday, August 07, 2008
bday
i'm taking it back. i said i was pretty sure that i'm gonna be sad on my birthday coz i'm not celebrating it at home. for the first time in my history il b celebrating far from the persons i wanna be with.... [aaaawwwww! haha!] but then again, that wasn't the case.. [wink*]
i celebrated with a bunch of new peeps in my lyf. 12 of them. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ok, 13. [waahahaha!] i cooked fettucine, fried chicken and corn n carrots side dish. [not bad! not bad!] ehem ehem.. hehehe! anyway, they brought me a "surprise" ice cream cake, pizza[16 inch?], soda[six 1.5], beers[box] and another chicken... wohoo! my cake even had a lettering that made me definitely smiling and happy. instant full blown party..... kulang na lng balloons n party hats! the ref got overloaded in an instant. ang saya!
i didn't expect all the effort. I really really appreciate it. The party didn't started early because we didn't come out early from work and I had a hard time cooking the chicken [and then sabi ng iba madali lng daw mgfried chicken.. hahaha] We didn't have a wok for me to do a deep-fry. It became a fencing battle against the pan and me. I had the cover as shield. I am already wearing my bday dress and its getting oiled. [hahahaa!] I had to make up for the time. We started at about almost 8pm. [waaahahah tomguts!] took me an hr to prepare everything...
Marmi was my official photographer. :D tnx marmi. we had fun taking group shots... obvious nman d b? All things was set except for the one person we call now "Pouch" [Bern in real lyf] Called him twice and i think he was still dreamin.... [asar!] Nweiz, since food comes before friendship, we started eating without him. [wahahaha!]
we began with the important part of candle blowing. :D i had a lighter as a candle. weehehehe...
shempre masaya tlga ko. didn't really got to a wish. i wouldn't know what would it be anyway......
then the moment of truth begins where the chef gets judged and I think I passed. :D [ehem! ehem!] I had a few mistakes that was being edited by a secret ingredient but that was it. [naks! pwede na.. pwede na...] after that, we hit the cake... it's an ice cream cake. it melts. :D woo! sarap! hehe.. and after... we, girls took the pleasure of cleaning out the kitchen. no, the party wasn't over.... we were just getting ready for the real party. [if u know what i mean...]
boys went out and bought Jose Cuervo Especial [tequila] huwaw! i knew then mahaba-habang inuman to... i couldn't imagine tomorrow. :D after a few beers, took Jose Cuervo for a test. no available shot glass so bahala na... hahahha! slice lemons and salt ready. So, the test started execution.... one straight drink after another... after some rounds, i should say that the drink already passed the first tym. hahaha! [no, wonder why it had a commercial] i was drinking pure tequila... woo! grabe! am i drunk?! no. but i was tipsy. may tama na ko. but i was still my normal self. ganun tlga ko e [sanay!] hehe.. hinde. i try to think, fight and not entertain the alcohol in me. i usually keep myself as is and active. believe me, it takes it away. try to walk too.. that really helps... [just be careful on the first] time passed and drinks was being emptied and half-emptied. it was a wednesday and we still need to be at work the next morning.. i was already the next morning when we finish... haha! but at least, its just 12 or 1am.
it's been a long nyc nyt. thank u guyz!
of coarse, i can't forget the peeps back home who never fails to be there for me on my special day. my family, thanks bb! miz ka na ng ate! huhuhu... thanks mimi, didi, iyo and iya for the txt and greetin'.... dnt stop mizzin me..... haha! mahihirapan lng kyo...
my friends.. across the world... from txt, email, testi and posts.. ayos kyo! kinumpleto nyo araw ko... :D
i had a pleasure of celebrating my bday twice bcoz of d tym difference. so, definitely... there were perks this way...
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
downtown take 1
the much awaited gimik since we got here... i searched and tried to plan our day and come up with an itinerary...... then here's what really happen.... =p
at exactly 7 o'clock we were leaving home and the challenge began... we needed to get our ass's at Lake Cook train station before 730.. woo.. buzzer beater! while we were on the ride, Carla called.. "Rege, asan na kyo? Nawawala kmi..." we were laughing at first, coz it looked like we'll be arriving first.. turns out.. we were in the wrong station... as I read the words Deerfield station. huwaaat?!! it's a little less than 15mins before the train. they even 
said, that the station is closed on weekends.... huwaaat??? it can't be. noooo!!!!! we met with Jake at a lost on what to do... Chris parked and took chances in asking.. he said it's opened and we rly needed to hurry.... we go over the other side and parked again and ran. i was laughing about the fact that we are not in Lake Cook. haha! baliw! baliw! we had a short momment of taking pictures all-over the station... we got excited! first tym e.... called Cholo to ask where are they??! more likely we just needed to say we are not in Lake Cook... we already saw the train coming and it's coming in fast. we were all worried despite the fact that we can't stop taking pictures... then we saw Owen and Marmi running.. yey! train's here....
train was nyc. nothing like PNR. wala sa kalingkingan... aircon, 2 floors, moveable seat rest, ticket holder and shempre malinis. its $5 unlimited ride for the day. took us 45mins. got off the very busy Chicago Un
ion Station on Adams Gate. We were mistaken for kids by a guard. ehem! ehem! outside, picture galore! [wala pa kming 30mins at downtown mukang ubos na batt] haha! downtown baby! :D
at exactly 7 o'clock we were leaving home and the challenge began... we needed to get our ass's at Lake Cook train station before 730.. woo.. buzzer beater! while we were on the ride, Carla called.. "Rege, asan na kyo? Nawawala kmi..." we were laughing at first, coz it looked like we'll be arriving first.. turns out.. we were in the wrong station... as I read the words Deerfield station. huwaaat?!! it's a little less than 15mins before the train. they even 
said, that the station is closed on weekends.... huwaaat??? it can't be. noooo!!!!! we met with Jake at a lost on what to do... Chris parked and took chances in asking.. he said it's opened and we rly needed to hurry.... we go over the other side and parked again and ran. i was laughing about the fact that we are not in Lake Cook. haha! baliw! baliw! we had a short momment of taking pictures all-over the station... we got excited! first tym e.... called Cholo to ask where are they??! more likely we just needed to say we are not in Lake Cook... we already saw the train coming and it's coming in fast. we were all worried despite the fact that we can't stop taking pictures... then we saw Owen and Marmi running.. yey! train's here.... 
train was nyc. nothing like PNR. wala sa kalingkingan... aircon, 2 floors, moveable seat rest, ticket holder and shempre malinis. its $5 unlimited ride for the day. took us 45mins. got off the very busy Chicago Un
ion Station on Adams Gate. We were mistaken for kids by a guard. ehem! ehem! outside, picture galore! [wala pa kming 30mins at downtown mukang ubos na batt] haha! downtown baby! :D the view was nyc. if I only have an SLR.. nweiz.. i did have a few nyc shots. try to get more next tym.
1st Destination. Sears Tower.
the view was nyc at the north side.. you can see the buildings, the sea and the small layer of land that divides them. you get to see MJ too.. [Michael Jordan] on the wall.. and a lot of falling in line.. :D plus dnt forget to buy your photos at the end. ;)
2nd Destination. Field Museum.
accdg to mr. google, it's a 41min walk. other option was to take taxi or the free trolly or a bus. we walked.. took a walking appreciation of downtown Chicago and it was fun. it was hot but it was a nyc experience. I got sun burn and i didn't care.. it's summer. [at least here, it is] the walk was enjoyable until we got to a turn... we reached Grant Park and a Lollapalooza event was going. That explained why we were suddenly walking with a whole bunch of people.. couples.. a band was on. people were wearing the best out of their summer wear... as in wow! felt i was in a beach. the sun was freakin' in heat pare! we were walking the street and i felt every drop of perspiration moving down my back. ugh! are we there yet?!!!
so we got there and saw the architectural columns... oooh... wow! piktuuuu
uuuur!!!! w
hat a view! im definitely away from home... we got in and huwaw! T-REX men! waahahahaha... elephants.. as if i was in a movie.. i felt like all the other kids around.. look MOM! look! so amazed! and then we headed to McDonalds.. hehe. tomguts pare! after we headed to the very interesting "Underground Adventure". (crap!) hehe.. kht onting adventure wala. it really was for kids... the museum composes of three(3) floors... so last stop was upstairs.. we passed by some of them just so we get get a glance of everything and we went it to look at our "Evolving Planet" and took a fast flashback from 400 billion years ago. (so, meron tlga dinosours dati!?!) =p woo! enjoy!
3rd Destination. Shedd Aquarium.
whoa! long line! but thanks to City Pass we didn't have to be in it. :D wooh... fishes! hang dami! can't really choose where to start... hahhahaha.... we got seperated from the pack... [haha! prang wolves lng] we started roaming around the oceanarium, then the underwater viewing deck?! hehe. then i saw the dolphins, a show was on-going. ooh! astig! i never knew that they swim upside down underwater.... huwhaaay?! and i was never prepared for a nyc shot! hahahaha! afterwards, we decided to go someplace else while waiting for the next show. we headed to "Wild Reef" and to our surprise it was an exhibit of... drum roll please.... about Pilipinas. It even said in the entrance: Welcome to the Philippines. We're home. Saw shars, stingrays, "Dori" fish, corals, corals and corals... =p Mabuhay! Kudos!
and then we're off to the oceanarium again, run a quick pass to the Beluga whales then we headed to the seats. txted the other pack to join us. Show started on time and the seats were filled. The dolphins were cute. The show was pwede na... haha! I expected more. Last stop, the penguins. the glass was already all wet and full of moist. I can barely see them and i think they're tired. aaawww...
4th Destination. NEXT WEEK.... to be continued.
so we got there and saw the architectural columns... oooh... wow! piktuuuu
uuuur!!!! w
hat a view! im definitely away from home... we got in and huwaw! T-REX men! waahahahaha... elephants.. as if i was in a movie.. i felt like all the other kids around.. look MOM! look! so amazed! and then we headed to McDonalds.. hehe. tomguts pare! after we headed to the very interesting "Underground Adventure". (crap!) hehe.. kht onting adventure wala. it really was for kids... the museum composes of three(3) floors... so last stop was upstairs.. we passed by some of them just so we get get a glance of everything and we went it to look at our "Evolving Planet" and took a fast flashback from 400 billion years ago. (so, meron tlga dinosours dati!?!) =p woo! enjoy!3rd Destination. Shedd Aquarium.
whoa! long line! but thanks to City Pass we didn't have to be in it. :D wooh... fishes! hang dami! can't really choose where to start... hahhahaha.... we got seperated from the pack... [haha! prang wolves lng] we started roaming around the oceanarium, then the underwater viewing deck?! hehe. then i saw the dolphins, a show was on-going. ooh! astig! i never knew that they swim upside down underwater.... huwhaaay?! and i was never prepared for a nyc shot! hahahaha! afterwards, we decided to go someplace else while waiting for the next show. we headed to "Wild Reef" and to our surprise it was an exhibit of... drum roll please.... about Pilipinas. It even said in the entrance: Welcome to the Philippines. We're home. Saw shars, stingrays, "Dori" fish, corals, corals and corals... =p Mabuhay! Kudos!and then we're off to the oceanarium again, run a quick pass to the Beluga whales then we headed to the seats. txted the other pack to join us. Show started on time and the seats were filled. The dolphins were cute. The show was pwede na... haha! I expected more. Last stop, the penguins. the glass was already all wet and full of moist. I can barely see them and i think they're tired. aaawww...
4th Destination. NEXT WEEK.... to be continued.
Saturday, August 02, 2008
unsmart move
ive hoped 4a scene to happen but it didnt. ive hoped that by the time i go home there's sumthn more dt il smyl about and there's none. yea, im sad. yes, im frustrated. i dnt have d luxury of tym n my hands n dt just sucks. bt hu am i kiddin, ryt? freakin s2pid idea. da hell was i thinkin. the times that i just hate myself. haha! geez..... some things never change....
[i 4got to publish this so... ya, its delayed. the power of drafts.]
Monday, July 28, 2008
it's been a week
july 19. i got on a plane at 9am to tokyo, japan; narita airport. it was a 4hr flyt via JAL (Japan Airlines) Yep. there were a lot of Japenese going to Japan. haha! the plane fud was kinda ok. i can say that it was really catered to satisfy the way of the samurai.. hehe. so we got there (me and 3 other) and saw more Japanese.. hehe! i saw one and his eyes was unbelievable merely like a line.
(i should've took a picture!) whoa! tlga! i can say that the Japanese knows how to dress and represent themselves.. especially the guys.. they are clean, formal and are classic business man types and they pack light unlike other nationality i know.. like me.. haha! nweiz, so we were there trying to get our next leg of the flyt race... to chicago. we were scheduled to be leaving by 4pm but... a very fortunate event happened. me and another colleague was called through the terminal... and we met this japanese girl...
she said: "you came from the philippines right? and you are on you're way to chicago?"
we said: "yes"
she said: "we are currently overbooked with our flyts today.. so would you be interested in taking the next flight and we will upgrade you to business class?"
we said: "sure"
she said: "ok, thanks for your cooperation"
wohoo! a free ride to business lounge came with it. unlimited drinks and snacks with the business class people... hahaha! since we are filipino, we shared our tickets to our 2 other friends so they could enjoy the same priveledge.. hey! we got it for free.. so it's just right to share and like i said... we are filipinos.. hahaha! we snatch a lot of snacks as we can.. so we dnt go hungry, money saved right? we were doing that for about 4hrs til we get on our flyts.. hehe.
and then the wait ended and we had to leave... we walked in a red carpet. cool d b? we didn't get the chance to buy any souvenir coz we didn't really wanted to spend... only souvenir i took was these pictures. yep. you're seeing a weird sign. i dnt wna give the detailed pictures on what it means.. better see it first-hand!
july 20. we were flying and enjoying the business class ride to chicago. i should say wow! ganun pla pag business class.. upgrade lht. fud was coming right after another... di ko na tlga sya makain nung huli except of course for the dessert. hehe. cheesecake! woo! sarap! uber bloated and busog! there was wine, nuts, salads, chicken, juice, coffee, fruits, bread, veggies, etc. like there's no tomorrow.. and some of the drinks come with refill... san ka pa? they give the usual stuff but upgraded... thicker kumot, mas ok sa sounds na headset, mas kumpleto na groom kit (which i took home), slippers, ala lazy-boy seats (with massage function and TV/Radio) so the 13hrs was great!
we arrived in chicago about pass 5pm july 19. tooked awhile to get everything done.. immigration, buggage and the call for taxi. haha! di nmin alam pano e. we were calling at the wrong phone. nweiz, we got home... our taxi driver was an Albanian of the American Taxi Dispatch Service. took about 30mins.. as we were looking around i can say it was a nyc lookin neighborhood...
and i said.. this is it. as we opened the door to our new house.. "this is it!" and "whoa!" "waaaaaaaaah" "ang ganda nman d2" "oh wow!" "grabe!" haha! in short i enjoyed what i saw... i never imagined something like it. it was a complete house and a very nyc house in fact ---- fully furnished with balcony, kitchen stuff like all cooking mater
ials, 
microwave, dishwasher, oven.. flat TV and DVD plus the room.. wow!!!!!! (i jump on it! haha!)
since we just got here then... we had dinner at our other colleagues house.. with inuman til midnight... hehe.
then the next day(the chicago july 20) they took us for grocery... im not a cook, il cook what i can... so that pretty much inspired the grocery... which meant canned goods, for fried stuff, for pasta stuff and other home stuff... we amount to $214 / 2 = $107 each. a month's worth grocery. :D bought fones too.. had them loaded and activated... visited some other colleagues.. inuman! (try mike's hard time!) sabi nila beer 2x daw un pro di nman ako msyado tinamaan... hehe. (malakas tolerance ko.. tsk tsk)
july 21. (chicago time) our first day at w
ork. needed time
-in was 9am. we left house almost 830.. haha. pa-VIP. we didn't have our car for the carpool yet so the rent-a-car service took us to their place first to pick it up and then go to the office.. woo! crunch time.. haha! we were given a Chrysller. not the coolest ride we wanted but this saves gas and it's still a Chrysller. no other available mazda 6. huhuhuhuhu... our other service car is a mazda 6 and mazda 3. astig!
so we got the car and drove to office. we got lost for a while but we got back.. hehehe... arrived almost 930. met with Mr. Marshall and Mr. Wiener and the others.. meet up with the Department and other counterparts on the client-side... short overview meeting... got settled on our workstation... (we got a office phone each and its not an ordinary phone) took us for a tour.. got our IDs taken so we get our access badges. took lunch at the canteen for $5-$6 max. received our laptops then configured (wahaha.. so may 2 ako ngaun..) and started on some reading....
july 22 - 25. every work day was pretty much the same day. checking-in mail.. conversing with the client team. doing the task.. statusing back n forth.. taking pictures(haha!) after work, we got a habbit of going to TARGET (kita ko si Megatron n Star Scream; nglaro din ako PS3 coming soon na game kso nakalimutan ko... astig! prang street race.. ok ung p
ag-crash 
astig sa graphics). it was WALMART/FRESH FARM for the first days.. haha! i dunno why.. there seem to be always a reason to go. it's our new 5 o'clock habit. yep we were checkin in at 9 then checkin out at 5. we have a 30mins lunch time and a 15min break for mornin and afternoon. lufet! internet is available but not encouraged. laptop is for you and for work, install is available but also not encouraged. :D
at 5pm the sun will be like it was 1/2pm in Manila. really hot. at 8-9pm, the sun is still up. and then you are expected to take dinner at 6-7pm. and slyp.. whoa d b? pano mo ggwin un? eh may araw pa? hehehe..... im home at an average of 6-7pm.. 7-73opm, we prepare dinner. my housemate cooks the rice and i cook the ulam... walang rice cooker e... so di ako marunong sa kaldero... i fry. i do any breakfast. i make pasta. i know the simplest dish: adobo, nilaga. ano pa ba? wala na.. hehe. at 730-9, we eat dinner... and start the dishwasher.. clean the kitchen. 9 onwards.. i watched the TV, log on the net(8am nun sa Pilipinas), call home or be called here or have a house party... haha! we do come around and visit each other... (kht mgkakasama na kmi buong araw) they liked our place the best bcoz of the balcony.
last thursday was movie night for RCG Chicago. The Dark Knight din. daming pictures sa entrance.. hehehe... watched the 730 slot. finished at 10. mahal ng fud.. no one wanted to buy except ung mga sobrang gutom. shared the popcorn and giant drinks.
then last friday (being it our first friday) we had a house party.. i volunteered the house and the sounds(may dala ko speaker) and chips, sila sa the rest (fud, beer, etc) til 12 rin ata kmi.. cut short kc we'll be having the team building the next day..
july 26. team building. yep. it's my first team building with RCG and luckily d2 ko pa sa chicago sya na-experience. i met other RCG folks este saw lng pla.. hehe.. they have their names and all pro i didn't really get the chance to talk kc late kmi.. we are suppose to be there by 9 pro almost 10 na kmi dumating.. dahil sa isang ka-bad3pan na morning na ginawa ng mga boys... haay.. napikon tlga ko.. hmpf! boys will be boys and there's 7 of them, wala pa ung ibang kakilala pa nmin...
so we got to the venue. ate McDo sponsored breakfast with matching Dunkin coffee and the games started.
1st stop, was the "get to know other RCG questionairre game". hehe.. i was suppose to go mingle and ask others for the answers but then i ask around our group and do it. haha! bad3p kc ko e.. wala ko sa mood mk-mingle. nweiz, i saw other ex-antico seniors... can't help but talked to them with Sir.. nagagalit sila.. hehhe.
2nd stop, "form a group thru Taco Making game". we were taco incredients that needed to combine and form a group, in the end we were called the green team (soz!)
3rd stop, the "ala Amazing Race form Cars Puzzle game". there were clues for each puzzle piece group that we have to search around Century Park (di nman sya malaki, masyadong malaki lng!) the park was very nyc and very relaxing, very picture opt place.... there was a lake where you can fish and has a dock. when we arrive a fat man was there fishing as we are running along the docks that shakes the floor which got him to yell at us. "what are you up to?" (duh?!!) we finished 2nd place.
4th stop, the "very complex, very hard and full of rules group obstacle game". there had to be 5 members that needed to be put through a small size hulahoop without touching being it above the ground (so bubuhatin), other 5 members would need to ski using wood planks tied on weak strings on the grass and back(so iipitin mo na lng sa toes), then all 10 members needs to be blindfolded in returning to the start line where they will pass zigzags... and a paper window like structure that need not be stepped-on or moved (so nandaya kmi sa blindfold) eh pucha! ang hirap e! we finished 3rd.
attempted 5th stop, "4-way tag of war that never worked game". it never worked... the ropes are too thin and too weak.
5th stop, "water transfer on bottle relay game" members just needs to be fast in transferring water to a bottle then run to and back. we finished 2nd in speed and 2nd in water content.
over-all champion, kmi.... tied with blue team! damn! (luto!) we were the newbies team and we did great! mga bibo e! we made a name. :D
after awarding, picture taking and we're off to Best Buy. soz... ang daming ok bilin.. DSLR, PS, Laptop(again), Cordless.. hehe tsaka na cguro... iisipin ko muna.. bka ung DSLR na muna. :D and the 2nd bad3p momment. nakow.
july 27. looks like we are not going anywhere today. we were suppose to go to church but our driver had OTY. puyat! 9am na natulog.. church is at 11. the car is registered to him so anyone else is not allowed to drive. im not confident na walang mangyayari sa amin.. yoko mahuli with a car not registered to my name... hehe... dapat kc ngpa-authorize kc kmi nung ni-rent sya.. (kso di nmin un ginawa.. after a month na un ma-eedit)
nweiz.. so we woke up late. mga 9am. hehe! had breakfast, then started preparing lunch (weekend so dish kmi dapat.. adobo this weekend) while watching Parent Trap. haha! then do
laundry... lunch. iron clothes. fold. vacuum house. then sit around and chillax. hehe sabi ko mkksabay ako mg-jog kung sino man.. or mg-gym(pra mg-jog) kung sino man at least an hr. kso minutes lng nila trip.. wahahha.. labo. at minutes nga lng sila ngstay.... there were 2 of the boys... for 15minutes ata.. haha... then they drop by here.. wala lng.. (nanggulo at nanginain...) took off with my mem card (digicam) then bbalik daw mmya for CS (meron kmi at mga adik tong mga boys) at mkk-laba sila... (may nglalaba daw sa knila)
oooops... pass 8 na pla.. hehe... maliwanag pa kc e.. better have dinner. :D so there...
i'm here in chicago and it's been a week.
(i should've took a picture!) whoa! tlga! i can say that the Japanese knows how to dress and represent themselves.. especially the guys.. they are clean, formal and are classic business man types and they pack light unlike other nationality i know.. like me.. haha! nweiz, so we were there trying to get our next leg of the flyt race... to chicago. we were scheduled to be leaving by 4pm but... a very fortunate event happened. me and another colleague was called through the terminal... and we met this japanese girl...
she said: "you came from the philippines right? and you are on you're way to chicago?"
we said: "yes"
she said: "we are currently overbooked with our flyts today.. so would you be interested in taking the next flight and we will upgrade you to business class?"
we said: "sure"
she said: "ok, thanks for your cooperation"
wohoo! a free ride to business lounge came with it. unlimited drinks and snacks with the business class people... hahaha! since we are filipino, we shared our tickets to our 2 other friends so they could enjoy the same priveledge.. hey! we got it for free.. so it's just right to share and like i said... we are filipinos.. hahaha! we snatch a lot of snacks as we can.. so we dnt go hungry, money saved right? we were doing that for about 4hrs til we get on our flyts.. hehe.
and then the wait ended and we had to leave... we walked in a red carpet. cool d b? we didn't get the chance to buy any souvenir coz we didn't really wanted to spend... only souvenir i took was these pictures. yep. you're seeing a weird sign. i dnt wna give the detailed pictures on what it means.. better see it first-hand!
july 20. we were flying and enjoying the business class ride to chicago. i should say wow! ganun pla pag business class.. upgrade lht. fud was coming right after another... di ko na tlga sya makain nung huli except of course for the dessert. hehe. cheesecake! woo! sarap! uber bloated and busog! there was wine, nuts, salads, chicken, juice, coffee, fruits, bread, veggies, etc. like there's no tomorrow.. and some of the drinks come with refill... san ka pa? they give the usual stuff but upgraded... thicker kumot, mas ok sa sounds na headset, mas kumpleto na groom kit (which i took home), slippers, ala lazy-boy seats (with massage function and TV/Radio) so the 13hrs was great!
we arrived in chicago about pass 5pm july 19. tooked awhile to get everything done.. immigration, buggage and the call for taxi. haha! di nmin alam pano e. we were calling at the wrong phone. nweiz, we got home... our taxi driver was an Albanian of the American Taxi Dispatch Service. took about 30mins.. as we were looking around i can say it was a nyc lookin neighborhood...
and i said.. this is it. as we opened the door to our new house.. "this is it!" and "whoa!" "waaaaaaaaah" "ang ganda nman d2" "oh wow!" "grabe!" haha! in short i enjoyed what i saw... i never imagined something like it. it was a complete house and a very nyc house in fact ---- fully furnished with balcony, kitchen stuff like all cooking mater
ials, 
microwave, dishwasher, oven.. flat TV and DVD plus the room.. wow!!!!!! (i jump on it! haha!)since we just got here then... we had dinner at our other colleagues house.. with inuman til midnight... hehe.
then the next day(the chicago july 20) they took us for grocery... im not a cook, il cook what i can... so that pretty much inspired the grocery... which meant canned goods, for fried stuff, for pasta stuff and other home stuff... we amount to $214 / 2 = $107 each. a month's worth grocery. :D bought fones too.. had them loaded and activated... visited some other colleagues.. inuman! (try mike's hard time!) sabi nila beer 2x daw un pro di nman ako msyado tinamaan... hehe. (malakas tolerance ko.. tsk tsk)
july 21. (chicago time) our first day at w
ork. needed time
-in was 9am. we left house almost 830.. haha. pa-VIP. we didn't have our car for the carpool yet so the rent-a-car service took us to their place first to pick it up and then go to the office.. woo! crunch time.. haha! we were given a Chrysller. not the coolest ride we wanted but this saves gas and it's still a Chrysller. no other available mazda 6. huhuhuhuhu... our other service car is a mazda 6 and mazda 3. astig!so we got the car and drove to office. we got lost for a while but we got back.. hehehe... arrived almost 930. met with Mr. Marshall and Mr. Wiener and the others.. meet up with the Department and other counterparts on the client-side... short overview meeting... got settled on our workstation... (we got a office phone each and its not an ordinary phone) took us for a tour.. got our IDs taken so we get our access badges. took lunch at the canteen for $5-$6 max. received our laptops then configured (wahaha.. so may 2 ako ngaun..) and started on some reading....
july 22 - 25. every work day was pretty much the same day. checking-in mail.. conversing with the client team. doing the task.. statusing back n forth.. taking pictures(haha!) after work, we got a habbit of going to TARGET (kita ko si Megatron n Star Scream; nglaro din ako PS3 coming soon na game kso nakalimutan ko... astig! prang street race.. ok ung p
ag-crash 
astig sa graphics). it was WALMART/FRESH FARM for the first days.. haha! i dunno why.. there seem to be always a reason to go. it's our new 5 o'clock habit. yep we were checkin in at 9 then checkin out at 5. we have a 30mins lunch time and a 15min break for mornin and afternoon. lufet! internet is available but not encouraged. laptop is for you and for work, install is available but also not encouraged. :Dat 5pm the sun will be like it was 1/2pm in Manila. really hot. at 8-9pm, the sun is still up. and then you are expected to take dinner at 6-7pm. and slyp.. whoa d b? pano mo ggwin un? eh may araw pa? hehehe..... im home at an average of 6-7pm.. 7-73opm, we prepare dinner. my housemate cooks the rice and i cook the ulam... walang rice cooker e... so di ako marunong sa kaldero... i fry. i do any breakfast. i make pasta. i know the simplest dish: adobo, nilaga. ano pa ba? wala na.. hehe. at 730-9, we eat dinner... and start the dishwasher.. clean the kitchen. 9 onwards.. i watched the TV, log on the net(8am nun sa Pilipinas), call home or be called here or have a house party... haha! we do come around and visit each other... (kht mgkakasama na kmi buong araw) they liked our place the best bcoz of the balcony.
last thursday was movie night for RCG Chicago. The Dark Knight din. daming pictures sa entrance.. hehehe... watched the 730 slot. finished at 10. mahal ng fud.. no one wanted to buy except ung mga sobrang gutom. shared the popcorn and giant drinks.
then last friday (being it our first friday) we had a house party.. i volunteered the house and the sounds(may dala ko speaker) and chips, sila sa the rest (fud, beer, etc) til 12 rin ata kmi.. cut short kc we'll be having the team building the next day..
july 26. team building. yep. it's my first team building with RCG and luckily d2 ko pa sa chicago sya na-experience. i met other RCG folks este saw lng pla.. hehe.. they have their names and all pro i didn't really get the chance to talk kc late kmi.. we are suppose to be there by 9 pro almost 10 na kmi dumating.. dahil sa isang ka-bad3pan na morning na ginawa ng mga boys... haay.. napikon tlga ko.. hmpf! boys will be boys and there's 7 of them, wala pa ung ibang kakilala pa nmin...
so we got to the venue. ate McDo sponsored breakfast with matching Dunkin coffee and the games started.
1st stop, was the "get to know other RCG questionairre game". hehe.. i was suppose to go mingle and ask others for the answers but then i ask around our group and do it. haha! bad3p kc ko e.. wala ko sa mood mk-mingle. nweiz, i saw other ex-antico seniors... can't help but talked to them with Sir.. nagagalit sila.. hehhe.
2nd stop, "form a group thru Taco Making game". we were taco incredients that needed to combine and form a group, in the end we were called the green team (soz!)
3rd stop, the "ala Amazing Race form Cars Puzzle game". there were clues for each puzzle piece group that we have to search around Century Park (di nman sya malaki, masyadong malaki lng!) the park was very nyc and very relaxing, very picture opt place.... there was a lake where you can fish and has a dock. when we arrive a fat man was there fishing as we are running along the docks that shakes the floor which got him to yell at us. "what are you up to?" (duh?!!) we finished 2nd place.
4th stop, the "very complex, very hard and full of rules group obstacle game". there had to be 5 members that needed to be put through a small size hulahoop without touching being it above the ground (so bubuhatin), other 5 members would need to ski using wood planks tied on weak strings on the grass and back(so iipitin mo na lng sa toes), then all 10 members needs to be blindfolded in returning to the start line where they will pass zigzags... and a paper window like structure that need not be stepped-on or moved (so nandaya kmi sa blindfold) eh pucha! ang hirap e! we finished 3rd.
attempted 5th stop, "4-way tag of war that never worked game". it never worked... the ropes are too thin and too weak.
5th stop, "water transfer on bottle relay game" members just needs to be fast in transferring water to a bottle then run to and back. we finished 2nd in speed and 2nd in water content.
over-all champion, kmi.... tied with blue team! damn! (luto!) we were the newbies team and we did great! mga bibo e! we made a name. :D
after awarding, picture taking and we're off to Best Buy. soz... ang daming ok bilin.. DSLR, PS, Laptop(again), Cordless.. hehe tsaka na cguro... iisipin ko muna.. bka ung DSLR na muna. :D and the 2nd bad3p momment. nakow.
july 27. looks like we are not going anywhere today. we were suppose to go to church but our driver had OTY. puyat! 9am na natulog.. church is at 11. the car is registered to him so anyone else is not allowed to drive. im not confident na walang mangyayari sa amin.. yoko mahuli with a car not registered to my name... hehe... dapat kc ngpa-authorize kc kmi nung ni-rent sya.. (kso di nmin un ginawa.. after a month na un ma-eedit)
nweiz.. so we woke up late. mga 9am. hehe! had breakfast, then started preparing lunch (weekend so dish kmi dapat.. adobo this weekend) while watching Parent Trap. haha! then do
laundry... lunch. iron clothes. fold. vacuum house. then sit around and chillax. hehe sabi ko mkksabay ako mg-jog kung sino man.. or mg-gym(pra mg-jog) kung sino man at least an hr. kso minutes lng nila trip.. wahahha.. labo. at minutes nga lng sila ngstay.... there were 2 of the boys... for 15minutes ata.. haha... then they drop by here.. wala lng.. (nanggulo at nanginain...) took off with my mem card (digicam) then bbalik daw mmya for CS (meron kmi at mga adik tong mga boys) at mkk-laba sila... (may nglalaba daw sa knila)oooops... pass 8 na pla.. hehe... maliwanag pa kc e.. better have dinner. :D so there...
i'm here in chicago and it's been a week.