bye for now

this is it!

living the dream. 

woot! woot! 

unforgotten forgotten one

no. di ko naman sya kakalimutan.

nagbawas lang ng pag-isip sa knya. 

pwede di ba? 

kwentong fairytale

si sir chief at maya

may mas fairytale pa ba?

mula sa una hanggang sa bagong chapter ng storya nila

sa haba haba nga naman ng prosisyon sa simbahan din ang tuloy... 

ang ganda ng simbahan

ang ganda ng vows

ang ganda ng gown

ang ganda ng avp

ang ganda ng pictures

ang ganda ng wedding! 

bukod na lng cguro sa pagkanta ng endless love (haha)

ang galing! ang galing!

mabuhay ang bagong kasal!

(sorry na, ngayon ko lng napanuod)

24 days to go

(and the music plays)
She's gone 2000 miles, it's very far
The snow came down
Get's colder day by day, i'll miss her

2000 miles?

How about?

 8,502 miles 1,3682 kilometers 7,388 nautical miles 

 

 

ok. ...i'll miss you too. 

use somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, and all you know, and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Someone like you, and all you know, and how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat
I hope it's gonna make you notice
I hope it's gonna make you notice

Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me, somebody

Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody
Someone like you, somebody

I've been roaming around,
Always looking down at all I see 


Hep! hep! Para yan sa mga Yolanda survivors. Pwede nilang gawing kanta nila.
Pwede di ba? :)

long exam

bossing..

hindi naman sa nagrereklamo ah

pero bossing baka pwede naman magpahinga din pag may time...

medyo antagal na ng long exam namin

medyo pagod na ang brain cells

mahirap na intindihin eh

ilang items na ung sinagot namin

ilang essay na yun

sunod sunod

pabreaktime naman kayo

cge na please bossing. :)

howard

what a great song!

it's really sweet.

good job writing that one.

...ever since i met you bernadette.

(and he'll probably still lives with his mom)

but i still love sheldon more. :)

cars

yep. i like cars.

i like them fast.

i like them old.

i like them looking nice.

i like driving.

kung mayaman lang ako, may 3 cguro ako or apat. haha. 

ginusto ko rin magtrabaho nga pala sa car shop (iba yun sa pagiging racer) alam ko nasabi ko na yun. (may old entry ata dito un) naisip ko lang sya ulit ngayon. ang saya magdetail ng sasakyan. kayang-kaya ko isipin yung design. bumuo at gumawa ng iba't-ibang car projects. iba yung joy, prang bagong laruan! 

mag-aral kaya ako maging mekaniko?

countdown

got my work cut out for me.

1 day

8.5 days

14 days

18 days

60 days

whew!

the switch

i won't say i'm an expert on advices.. or handling things
because there are times that i don't know what to do too.
some subjects are not rocket science stuff but we just can't solve
so, i ask my girl friends.

then they give me their questions and issues in life that i can easily answer
i don't know why it keeps on happening
but it always seems that im more prepared to wear their shoes
(which is why i think, i have few girl friends)
until i realize what they all have in common
they are not excited about the things i am excited about, when all girls grow up.. weird.

like i said.. convenience is subjective, just like happiness.

convenience store

maybe i can't blame some people for choosing convenience vs. anything else
in every aspect of their lives
the word explains itself

why would you have it any other way?
why would you deprive yourself of it?
why would you place yourself in an inconvenient situation?
why would you not choose it?
why would you risk everything?

the subject seems easy to understand
but i really don't understand it sometimes
the pros would definitely be more than the cons
but i feel like that's just their practical answer
they say everything just needs getting used to
don't miss out on the sure thing...
but i think some things, cannot be learned.
cannot be forced.
cannot be changed.

convenience is subjective.

not a morning person

I like my mornings.
Waking up with my pillows.
Getting up, making coffee, watching the morning news.
Reading to kill time. 
Used to be that simple.
Until i had to change it.
I don't like my mornings.
Waking up on the chair.
Rushing to get up, not having coffee, not watching the news.
Running to make up some time.
Very complicated.

fidelity

I never loved nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly

I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart

And suppose I never ever met you
Suppose we never fell in love
Suppose I never ever let you
Kiss me so sweet and so softSuppose I never ever saw you
Suppose we never ever called
Suppose I kept on singing love songs
Just to break my own fall

Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Just to break my fall
Break my fall
Break my fall

All my friends say that of course
It's gonna get better
Gonna get better
Better better better better
Better better better!

I never love nobody fully
Always one foot on the ground
And by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart

I hear in my mind all of these voices
I hear in my mind all of these words
I hear in my mind all of this music

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
It breaks my heart

When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
Breaks my heart

When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart
When it breaks my heart

Jobs

For inspiration.

When you touch someone's heart, that's limitless.

You got to have a problem that you want to solve,

A wrong that you wanna right,

It's gonna be something you're passionate about otherwise you won't have the perseverance to see it through.

You can't look at the competition and say we'll gonna do it better,

we have to look at the competition and say we'll gonna do it differently.

In your life, you only get to do so many things, and right now we chose to do this so lets make it great. 

When you grow up, you tend to get told that the world is the way that it is, your life is just to live inside the world and try not to bash the walls too much but that's a very limited life. Life can be much broader and once you've discovered one simple fact and that is everything around you that you call life was made up by people that are no smarter than you then you can change it, you can influence it, you can build your own things that other people can use, it's the shake off this erroneous notion that life is just there and  you're gonna live in it versus embrace it. Change it. Improve it. Make your mark upon it. And once you learned that, you'll never be the same again. 

We'll put a dent on the universe.

Here's to the crazy ones..

How's that?

back to the future

let me tell you something about the future...
i don't know anything about it.
and im sure you don't know it too.
but we always invest in it.
don't we?

a few times before i've tried to figure some things out
i've made plans, a list
to make the best of everything starting with the small ones
then maybe at least, i get to have shot at that future
we always try to ensure
and paint in our heads
so even when things won't go as i'd like it to be or didn't
i know..
it is still one of the most happiest thing to do.

nothing more exciting than the future! 

aced it!

I aced today's lesson. :)

There are times when you give up something you really want or have for the joy of others. It's sad but brings a different joy somehow.

oo

Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli

#perstaympinakingganangupdharmadown

thankful

I'm glad that things are turning out to be just fine.
Looks like we got what we need.
Nothing to worry.
Everything will be well.
Always loved the smile.

hey september

don't you fail me now. 

we can do better. 

Dr. Regina Mamaril, MD, Pediatric Surgeon

Oo. Doktor. Paglaki ko pero hindi pra tumulong sa may sakit po or pra gamutin ang nanay at tatay ko po.

Na-aamaze lang ako sa science, sa human body and mahilig ako sa kids. Elementary pa lng ako, naisip ko na pano ko sya iaachieve. 

1. Lipat school to prepare for college.

2. Take BS Biology.

3. Pass NMAT.

3. Take College of Medicine.

4. Take Internship.

5. Pass the Board.

6. Take Pediatrics Residency.

12 years or more. No. 1 lang nacheck-an ko. :)

Kaya yung academics pero hindi ko kaya yung taon. Pangalawa, hindi kaya ang tuition, books, allowance at ang walang kamatayang miscellaneous. Ginawa ko namang 3rd choice yung BS Bio, di ko nga lang tinake. Pero nag-summer ako ng science courses just in case. Astig ko nun sana, Com Sci Degree / Medical Degree. 

Naisip ko na rin san ako magcclinic. Gusto ko sa Makati Med. Cguro kasi, yun pa lang ang napasok kong hospital tsaka nakakita ako ng artesta for d perstaym. (Christopher de Leon & Sandy Andulong) 

Gusto ko sana.. Pink yung room kaso msyadong bias kaya Rainbow na lang. Prang si Rainbow Brite na madalas asa mga tshirt ko nun. Horizontal rainbow lines buong pader para makulay na makulay. Pampa-hyper. 

Winish ko na sana hindi sila matakot sa apelido ko. Or maging unang doctor na walang apelido. Para cool. 

Sa mga barkada ko, 3 kami na ginustong mag-doctor. 1 nung elementary. 1 nung highschool. Nagawa naman nung 2. Both continuing their residency in thier chosen specialty. Good job guys! 

Ginusto ko tlga maging doktor, mga 10 yrs din. Pero bago yun at bukod dun.. flight attendant, super model, waitress, then doctor, I.T., lawyer, advertising intern, creative designer, artista, dancer, teller, racer, manager and film director. 

Taas! 

31 things

It always rain during this time of year. If im lucky, i get thunderstorms. floods. But that's ok, weather like this makes you think about a lot of things from time to time. Like reviewing some of your everyday learnings. (naks)

1. Don't make anyone else' every problem, your problem. Skip some. They are ok.

2. Only fight for those who will celebrate with you when you win the battle.

3. Never fight battles already won.

4. You can wait but don't wait too long.

5. Reconsider but still, don't settle.

6. It's fine to be selfish sometimes.

7. Accept to only play small roles for other people.

8. Learn not to make yourself small, it's not your obligation.

9. Not all questions needs to be asked.

10. The less you know, the less you know. Maybe that's best!

11. Give yourself a break, it's not you. It's them.

12. Follow your routines, don't be lazy.

13. Plans can't be plans forever. 

14. Let go and make new ones.

15. Something's gotta give.

16. Don't worry if it's you.

17. Don't worry if it's them.

18. Every new beginning come from some other beginning's end.

19. Be proud to be independent.

20. But tell them you're dependent at the same time.

21. No reason not to follow your heart. 

22. We all know it's hard.

23. Best effort always.

24. Explain why.

25. And ask why.

26. Don't stop making wishlists.

27. Also, making steps works.

28. Make yourself busy but for the right reasons.

29. Take in good compliments, you deserve it!

30. #pushmoyan

31. You know you've heard this many times before, remember.. It will all work out. 

series finale

get a nice good look

take all the mental picture you can

reminisce old times

relive every memory

remember the bad ones

treasure the good ones

reread those messages

replay them all

make those last seconds count

go crazy!

i can't sleep

i really can't.

there's a lot of things going inside my head.

and i can't turn them off.

i should be tired.

guess, my body is.. but my mind isn't.

i'm ranning out of things to watch.

the music is not working.

i tried reading but i kept reading and reading. that usually works.

i have to sleep.

i need to get up in 4 hours.

or i might fall asleep on the bike.

that's embarrasing.

pls. pls. let me sleep.

new game

back on the floor again

back on the hunt

need to bring back the game face

need to pick a team and be chosen

only way to get back in the league

fight! fight! fight!

right next to me

'Cause I'll be there one day,

And you will be right next to me.

I'll be there one day,

And you will be right next to me.

I swear to the world,

You'll always be my girl.

Just say you'll be,

Right next to me

(Classic 80s. Haha.)

moments of sadness

it could be my migraine
or it could be the meds that i took to get rid of my migraine
but i just feel sad today
i woke up trying to get everything normal
started with the routines
papers
went through my tasks
made some calls
answered some calls
cancelled a meeting
planned the rest of the day
to keep myself busy
i was already out the door and trying to get it locked
getting mixed up with the keys again
when i started crying
i tried to shake it off
but it's still there
tears still fall down sometimes even when you look up

regular joe

i actually can't say he's regular
he is pretty much everything
he acts, he sings, he dance, he writes, he directs
he's funny, he's serious, he's weird
he's creative, he's smart, he's talkative
he's lean, he's cute, he's sharp, he's cool
he's an artist, he's very talented

he shares, he inspires
he's the boss.

tell me, what's regular about that?
i love regular joe.

crazy town

i have said this before. i don't like my friends to self-destruct infront of me.

it's just not fair.

friends are family.

and we don't give up on family even when they do.

it's either that or we're not a family anymore. 

so better take that bus out of crazy town. fast. 

betty go belmonte

sino kaya si betty go belmonte?

ito, pwede ko to tanungin.

itatanong ko nga to sa kanya. 

dapat may sagot sya. 

minsan may mga taong hindi mo matiis. 

kainis! 

question and answer portion

ang alam ko dati ako yung madaming tanong eh

pero lately prang mas madami ng syang tanong kesa skn

sagot naman ako ng sagot (haay regina, hirap hindi sagutin noh)

ayoko naman na masyadong mgtanong prang dati

kc hindi ko kailangan malaman, ok? ok!

kalma lang.

kapit bisig! 

story of us

We're 

as 

good 

as 

it 

gets.

Aren't we?

not this time

i think i've heard enough of what people say

before that, i've also heard enough of what i would say to myself

we already know what I would normally do

so, im not doing it.

not this time.

change is the only constant thing is this world.

fortune teller

bakit kahit gaano ko katagal tignan ung palad ko wala naman akong nakikita?

yung mga card prang pare-parehas lang naman.

may alternate universe kaya sila na nakikita pag tinitignan nila ung customer nila?

amazing din ano! 

mahirap kaya magisip at magbigay ng kapalaran?

cguro mahirap din.

prang nagiisip ka ng isasagot mo sa tanong ni boss tungkol sa estimates. (haha)

bawal daw magalit ang mga manghuhula. 

bat kaya?

ilan kaya ang may gusto na malaman ang kapalaran nila?

ilan dun ang suki na ngayon?

ilan kaya nagalit kay manang?

may lalake bang manghuhula? anong tawag sa knya?

bat ba kc hindi ko naitanong ang mga tanong na yan nung pwede ako mgtanong.

pero bsta manang, aasahan ko yan. 

minsan nakakapikon ka na

kung lumaki ka na dumadating ang lahat ng bagay syo eh maswerte ka,

yun lang.

maswerte ka lang.

kung lumaki ka na hindi nahihirapan sa trabaho at hindi sanay maging empleyado,

eh cguro maswerte ka pa rin

yun nga lang..

maswerte ka lang ulit.

kapag nabinigyan ka ng role at responsibilidad

at sinabi mo na ayaw mo gawin kc maeffort.

and sinabi mo na ayaw mo gawin kc wala sa constitution mo.

at sa huli, ang tanging gusto mo lang naman sabihin ay hindi mo na kailangan gawin, hindi mo na kailangan ng pera at hindi mo kailangan magtrabaho pa.

well, fine! sobrang swerte mo na!

blessed ka na kung blessed.

pero sana sa susunod wag mo na ulitin yang dahilan na yan baka di ka na swertehin pa. 

missing parts

when we see a whole. 

we try our best to fill-it-up. 

to cover. to patch.

whatever it takes,

to be good as new. 

that's what we always do.

so that sooner or later,

we begin to see that..

there are no missing parts.

step 4

masaya tlga tong palabas na to

kung parehas nga lng sya sa totoong buhay

mas masaya yun. :)

ok lang ba kung tuyo ang ulam ko..

kung gusto mo kumain, lumapit lng sa akin

kain lang ng kain kahit wala ng money...

haha.

more knowledge

We are what we are because we have been what we have been, and what is needed for solving the problems of human life and motives is not moral estimates but more knowledge.

-- Sigmund Fred

of course not

managing my own expectations is already a life-long learning for me
i will never be good at it

what more for others
but i've trained to expect little from some people
to manage frustrations

i take it that whatever decision they make

i trust that they've thought about

that they are the best decision for them

made them happy
so, am i expecting anything else?
of course not.

surprise me.

cruel intention

i just heard the saddest love story that i ever heard
i wouldn't wish it for anyone not even to the worst person i will ever meet
(which i think, would be the villain in this story)
that is solid heartless
i can't tell anymore where could be the love on that love story
it's unbelievable to accept that there is such person
normally capable of something so selfish and mean

beyond comprehension
how can anyone live like that and carry on everyday
totall unexcused.

i can never imagine what it would be like to be in that situation
im not sure how much hate is needed to get pass that
but it has to be more than a lot.

may kasabihan po tyo na..

ang taong di marunong lumingon sa kanyang pinanggalingan,

ay naliligaw.

ang taong nagigipit,

ay kawawa naman.

kung ano ang tinanim,

sana lumaki. 

kung may sinuksok,

sana hindi iba ang dumukot.

pagkahaba-haba man ng prosisyun,

di pa rin tayo mauubusan nyan.

pag makitid ang kumot,

gawin mo na lang face towel. 

b.i.

hindi naman sa nangungunsinti
hindi naman sa nagppromote ng mali
hindi nman cguro masama kung ibibigay ko ang option na yun
masama ba kung gusto ko lang nman na may magawa silang ganun
pag natapos yun. eh di tapos na.
sa tingin ko nman malaki na kami para magdecide
oo. hindi nman sya requirement sa buhay
pero hindi naman tlga lahat ng ginagawa lang natin ay yung requirement sa buhay
hindi naman tayo kabisote
and tingin ko, sa mga options na yun
dun tayo mas may natutunan.

best influence.
(kala mo lang bad pero best)

let me know

i know im not always around

i know i can be elusive

i know it looks that i can be cold

but you just let me know

if you need me.

i'll do what i can.

panahon na naman

ng bagyo

oras na para sa flood control ng bahay

maglagay ng mga basahan

trash bag

plangana at timba

siguraduhin ang mga pvc

patayin ang kuryente sa baba

icheck ang socket para sa tubig

magcharge ng mga gamit

flashlight, kandila

Triple A para sa radyo

kumpleto na? 

dehins ko alam

eh bakit nga kaya?!? hmmm

ano kayang rason?

hindi ko na alam

hindi ko na mahulaan

hindi ko na alam kung anong oras ako matatapos

aba sinikatan na ko ng araw ah

in fairness hindi ako inaantok

makapagkape nga

sana naman kc matapos na tong ginagawa ko

(eh kung tigilan mo kaya ang pagsusulat regina)

gusto ko lang magisip muna ng ibang bagay pansamantala

ang hirap pag maski yung sarili mo hindi nagagandahan sa ginagawa mo noh

yung di mo pagiisipan 

sasabihin mo lng agad -- ano ba yan! panget!

prang ibang tao ang may gawa kung makacomment

haaay

ay.. alam ko na!

parang masarap mag breakfast meal ngayon

tingin ko kulang lng ako sa corned beef.

can't wait

We know the system is broken
and it is impossible to fix it.

But we can't wait.

Can't wait for Superman.

public

gusto ko tlga sana mag-aral sa public school nung bata ako
kahit elementary
parang mga magulang ko
naglalalakad lng sila pagpasok
ganun kalapit
sa mababang paaralan ng Acacia o Tinajeros
lalakad lang ako nag ilang steps
dala yung bag ko
everyday
kasabay yung ibang mga bata
siguro hindi naging ganun kabigat ung dala dala kong libro
mas matagal sana ko pwede makipag-laro
or tumambay sa library
may klase kami minsan sa ilalim lang ng puno
nagka-green akong palda
sana naranasan ko din mag-aral sa public school.

not good

i can't sleep when i need to sleep

i can't work when i need to work

i can't focus

or do i do things at a time that im not suppose to do them??!

i don't get what's happening

i can't finish anything

this is not good. 

you got me

I give up, I give in, I let go
Let's begin
Cause no matter what I do,
Oh
My heart is filled with you


Damn!

waiting for the man of steel

What if a child dreamed of becoming something other than what society had intended? What if a child aspired to something greater?

You're not just anyone. One day, you're going to have to make a choice. You have to decide what kind of man you want to grow up to be. Whoever that man is, good character or bad, it's going to change the world.

Sometimes you have to take a leap of faith first. The trust part comes later.



You have to decide what kind of man you want to be..
I like that line.
I hope many can remember that.

ben diesel

i love a real life happy ending
and see effortlessly that it is indeed.. happy
to my "adopted baby brother"
at bunso ng barkada
boom!
congratulations!

problems

if you put everybody's problem in a pile

you would still choose your own problems.

you know it, regina. 

you know it.

dream a little dream of me

Stars shining bright above you 
Night breezes seem to whisper, "I love you" 
Birds singing in the sycamore tree 
Dream a little dream of me 

Say nighty night and kiss me 
Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me 
While I'm alone and blue as can be 
Dream a little dream of me 

Stars fading but I linger on, dear 
Still craving your kiss 
I'm longing to linger 'til dawn, dear 
Just saying this 

Sweet dreams 'til sunbeams find you 
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you 
But in your dreams, whatever they be 
Dream a little dream of me 

Stars fading but I linger on, dear 
Still craving your kiss
I'm longing to linger 'til dawn, dear 
Just saying this 

Sweet dreams 'til sunbeams find you 
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you 
But in your dreams, whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me

The Mamas and The Papas.

(i keep on finding these songs. thanks!)

stumble upon

me? im not hiding.

im right where i always used to be.

you..

why are you looking for me?

the first time

im not really trying to be a writer

pag ba madalas magsulat, writer na?

but i was watching this series and they have this writing class ( i wish we had that in school)

the assignment was to write creatively about your "firsts". 
write about the fantasy.

fiction or non. it is up to you.

so here goes.

it was that night we stayed in the car
you started to touch my head

then my shoulders
looking at me

while i was driving

i wanted to take your hand and if it's ok, hold it

we parked at a gas station

tried to sleep

we moved closer and closer as we were talking

until i let you lean on me

while we look at our pictures
played some music

you were telling me stories

stories about you
i can never forget every word

and then you got cold so i pushed myself towards you

layed my head on your chest

took my arms and wrap them around you

touching your back with my fingers

slowly..

everything was getting comfortable
came a few seconds that we stared at each other
i can't tell what you're thinking
i honestly can't explain mine
but i know i became sure of that one thing

i've been asking myself.

and if i have to try to summarise the feeling..

that moment felt real

and permanent.

trick question

Q: What happens when an unstoppable force meets an immovable object?

A: It never happens. If there is a thing that can't be stopped, its not possible for there to be something else which can't be moved, and vice versa. They can't both exist. You see, its a trick question is the answer.

independence

Sometimes you need to learn to do things on your own

So you have to change plans

Of coarse, at first, you will not accept it

you will hesitate

you will be scared

you will find every excuse you can

to wait

but someday, somehow

you will find a way around it

then you'll be proud of yourself.

i'll be proud of myself.

It's About Freedom.

keynote

if everyone is busy making everything

how can anyone perfect anything?

we start to confuse convenience

with joy

abundance

with choice.

designing something requires

focus

the first thing we ask is

what do we want people to feel?

delight

surprise

love

connection

then we begin to craft around our intention

it takes time...

there are a thousand no's

for every yes

we simplify

we perfect

we start over

until everything we touch

enchances each life

it touches.

only then do we sign our work.

Apple.

tamad

ang tamad ko lang today

anong oras na ko gumising

tapos inaantok pa rin ako

nanuod ng series

bumili ng tubig

lumabas, nag grocery ng nakapambahay

may nakakita nga skin

wala daw ba kong pasok?

muka lang ganun. haha.

muka daw akong galing sa higaan

at naisipan kong mamasyal (grabe!)

well, asa labas na ko.

pagkatapos ng grocery

bumalik nag ayos ng kakainin

kumain habang nanunuod ng series

naghugas ng pinggan

medyo naglinis

ngayon pinagiisipan ko kung gusto ko pumasok o hindi

alam kong kailangan kong pumasok

kung hindi man

kailangan ko pa rin magtrabaho sa bahay

andami kong deadlines

pero..

tinatamad tlga ko today

something old

i love the old times

sometimes i feel i shouldn't be in this time

baka may nagkamali somewhere nahuli ako ng dating sa mundo

i remember growing up sa sunday's best music

pag katapos mamalengke

pag katapos ng misa

habang ngiintay kami ng luto

may time nga alam ko na ung next song

every sunday hindi naman naiiba ung playlist sa radyo or sa pinapatugtug ni mimi

andami naming tapes

naka-ilang casette din

si lolo at lola madaming naiwang plaka

kung gumagana lang sana yung lumang stereo

im sure may roll call ng plaka twing linggo

mula sa long playing at maliliit na plaka

ang ayoko lang naman tlga is yung nakakaantok na kalumaan

ang taas ng energy ko tapos prang bedtime na ulit?

ganun tlga siguro pag madalas matanda ang kasama sa bahay

kakaiba nga na puro kalumaan ung kinalakihan ko and alam ko ung mga bagay na hindi ko panahon

yung iba di ko naman alam na alam ko pa

hindi ko alam na kabisado ko pa

pero wala na kayong magagawa

dito ko lumaki eh

pattern

he says, everything has a pattern

so, i want to know if i have a pattern

i just like to hear it

maybe from an old friend

or a new one

i wanna know what do you know about me

i won't confirm or deny anything about what will i hear

except for the obvious ones

and maybe the awkward ones

i promise not to be mad

i would probably be impressed

just smile after and be quiet

because i think i'm a hard one..

it's just that i have a lot of patterns of people inside my head

and i create them easily

i could use something about me

i can do it myself

but that wouldn't be as much appreciated. 

back to normal

when we have normal things goin on in our lives
we want something different
then when we have something different
we want to be normal
particularly like what i feel nowadays
well, i find time to argue with myself sometimes
(?!?!)

but i do wish things could be back to normal
i'm really working hard for it to happen
and i hope that's a good idea.

alive

i

never 

said..

that...

i'm not gonna dance anymore

of coarse, not!

esta es una parte de mí

me encanta bailar

bossing

bossing!
pasayahin nyo naman po ung kaibigan ko
feeling ko kc malungkot sya
mag-isa

hindi sya sanay
baka pwede nyo syang pangitiin
kahit onti lang araw-araw
sa bday na lang nya yung madami
tsaka sa pasko at bagong taon
hehe
gawin nyo syang busy
yung isa sa mga ideas nya baka pwede po pa-advance
magaling naman sya dun
para may bago syang pag-ka-abalahan
alam nyo nman yun, medyo impatient 
kaya samahan nyo sya mag-intay
sabihan nyo ko kung umiyak
pag hindi pa, alam nyo ng ggawin --- "iiyak na yan! iiyak na yan!"
pero kaya nman nya yan d b?
and ok lang nman sya?
ano ba to, andrama ko na
basta un lang bossing
kung may maitutulong ako sa inyo, game!
basta wag lang mahirap. :P
maraming salamat. ;)

spotless mind

change your heart

and look around you

change your heart

it will astound you

i need your lovin

like the sunshine

and everybody's gotta learn sometime

everybody's gotta learn sometime

mirror moves

history does repeat itself

and sometimes you see it repeat infront of you.

sorry. 

i will try my best not to do the same things from now on. 

New York State of Mind

It was so easy livin' day by day
Out of touch with the rhythm and blues
But now I need a little give and take
The New York Times, the Daily News.


It comes down to reality, and its fine with me cause I've let it slide.
I don't care if it's Chinatown or on Riverside.
I don't have any reasons.
I left them all behind.
I'm in a New York state of mind.

lucky

some people you'll meet...

will caught you by surprise,

with their character

or their humour

or their thinking

or their unexpected talent

or all of the above.

feel lucky.

laughing ladies

oo, merong ganun

kanina nakilala ko sila

sa sasakyan pauwi

4 silang naging magkakilala dahil sa sakayan pauwi

bilang dayo ako, hindi naman sila ngpaawat ipakilala ang mga sarili nila

yung antok ko nawalang lahat

laugh trip si nanay

pwede siyang komedyante sa next life nya

ang galing ng mga ideas nila at kumentaryo

nakakatuwang pakinggan

hindi ko naisip lahat yun

may time na antagal-tagal kong tumatawa sa kwento nya

nahirapan akong pigilan

naiimagine ko kc lahat ng sinasabi nya

hindi naman pwedeng hindi ko marinig

siguro asa late 50s

nagbibilang na ng apo

33 yrs na sa trabaho

kaya ganun na lang sila magbiruan tungkol sa buhay

basta sana pag tanda ko,

ganun din ako. 

19

nuon

bata ka pa

wag mo muna iisipin yan

ngayon

matanda ka na

isipin mo na yan

nako, wag po kayong mag-alala.
19 na po ako.

alexander

si tito alex
naghahatid siya ng mga bata sa school
gamit yung tamarraw
na kahit mainit, maingay at matagtag
gusto naming sinasakyan
kasi siguro masaya yung feeling na malaki yung sasakyan
madami siyang jokes na madalas corny
pero nakakatawa sya mag-execute
ayoko dati ung bigote at balbas niya
kasi nakaka-kiliti
pero tuwang-tuwa naman sya na hanggang tumanda kami kini-kiss ko sya
madalas niya ko niloloko tungkol sa cellphone
sa trabaho
sa figure
mga all time hirit na walang kupas.

the possible project

ding!

not originally the first project i have in mind

but..

that one needs perfect timing and patience so.. 

i will wait.

in the meantime, this idea will be fun.

better get started on planning

i have 6 months

ulit ulit

ang totoo

minsan na lang tayo nakakarinig ng bagong kwento

madalas narinig na natin

paulit-ulit lang

iba iba lang ang characters

iba ang setting

iba ang musical scoring

pero alam na natin yan

kasi siguro 

kailangan talaga ulit-ulit

para magtanda tayo. 

three things

believe in better.

in the end, 

only three things matter:

how much you loved

how gently you lived

and,

how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.

right.

pulitika

siguro mahirap talaga pra satin na baguhin ang impression sa topic na yan

or baka nga impossible pa

ang pulitiko mangangampanya

ang botante nangangampanya rin

ang botante namimili ng kandidato

ang pulitiko namimili din ng botante

in the end, onti lang ang nakakapagisip kung pra saan tlga ang pagtakbo sa posisyon at pag boto

maraming hindi maka-gets 

madalas concern lang sa pangalan ng nakaupo

kahit naiintindihan ko naman sila

namamalian pa rin ako

pero sana, balang araw

ma-gets din ng karamihan. :)

words of wisdom

minsan mahirap yung
masyado kasing masaya
kasi nakakasanay
malay mo, ikaw masurprise kasi
wala na ulit
di ba sabi nila
kung aakyat ka nga lang naman
pero malalaglag din
eh mabuting sa lupa'y mamulot na lamang
at least matatapilok ka lang
di ba gasgas lang
eh pag umakyat ka tapos nalaglag
bali pati buto

yan! yan! yan nga ang sinasabi ko.

galing mo tlga. 

bitter

eh ano naman?
wala nman sigurong masama dun.
1pt for the honesty.
it's a normal feeling.
like all other feelings.
and it will pass.
okay?

corned beef

pwedeng agahan

pwedeng tanghalian

pwedeng meryenda

at shempre

pwedeng hapunan

simple 

madaling lutuin

ang paboritong kainin

taon-taon.

anong paborito ng nanay mo?

signature campaign

ang anay ba ay gamu-gamo rin?

grabe andami!!! 

ilang anay na lang kaya ang kailangang pumirma bago gumuho tong bahay namin?

siguro onti na lang.

haay. 

umulan

dahil wala akong payong

tumambay akong opisina

dahil tumambay ako

hindi ako nakauwi agad

dahil hindi ako nakauwi agad

at umuulan pa rin

trapik at blockbuster ang sakayan ng bus

dahil trapik at blockbuster

hindi ako makasakay agad

dahil hindi ako makasakay

may 2 option lng ako na maglakad or mag jeep

dahil wala akong payong

nagjeep ako

dahil nagjeep ako

malayo layo ang lakarin pra sa sakayan

dahil malayo na ang nilakad ko

sumakay na ko sa unang bus na nakita ko

dahil hindi na ko namili

di ko napansin na magpupuno pa ung bus

dahil hindi umalis agad ung bus

nakakita ako ng babae na naglalako ng mani at umaakyat sa bus, girl power ate!

dahil may binili akong takeout 

hindi ako bumili sa kanya

dahil umulan

at wala akong payong

hindi ako nakauwi agad.

small roles

"There are no small parts, only small actors."

Well, im not really acting. I can wish. Haha.
Anyway, this just got inside my head.
Sometimes, we just play small roles
and it stays that way.
Maybe, not as fulfilling or an achievement.
Maybe it's not as happy.
But to me, i'll take it.
Maybe, i like small roles.
Maybe, that's what i can.
Maybe, that's all that is needed.
So, ok na yan. 

Wala ng madaming tanong.

aerosmith love

That kinda lovin' makes me wanna pull down the shade. Yeah!

That kinda lovin', yeah, now I'm never, never, never gonna be the same.

I go crazy, crazy baby, I go crazy.

You turn it on, then you're gone.

Yeah, you drive me crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby.

Some kinda lovin'

anything could happen

Yet since we found out

Since we found out

That anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could



I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

Oh, whoa

american dream

another good friend is leaving tomorrow
i can't say i can get used to it
but i didn't cry this time. so yey!
i hate goodbye's

i always get saddened by my friends who leave
who choose not to stay and start elsewhere
i need them
i try hard to stop them
because i never fully understand why..

yet for some reason, now, i kinda do.

maybe, i should also take that chance
i can make a good executive assistant or a researcher or a waitress during the day
and a programmer during the night
or i can go to art school
find if Juilliard is real
be an intern
and a mayor of Times Square
take photos and lots of instagram
plus, i owe it to my visa!

guess, i could have a change of plans.

guilty pleasure

One guilty pleasure i have is gLee.

No matter how weird the characters get.

I won't mind if my high school is like that. 

the talk

i did wish we had the talk
even if its like gambling all in
i remember, i tried thrice but fail
i took it as a reality that maybe i shouldn't think about it nor try again, ever
besides, i realized, i wanted the talk because of me
i wanted to get pass the idea easier
up to this day
i often imagine that day and what im gonna tell
or how will i start
should i just be frank and go straight at it
that way, il leave less chance for me to be emotional
coz i know i will be (no matter how hard i try not to)
i also thought of like a cross examination process something like the ones we see on tv, il ask and you answer
then at the end, il tell my side and walk away
..but what about your reaction
i've done different scenarios in my head but none of them was something i wanted myself to hear
because i didn't think or felt that you can
and tell me any good news
why would you?
how can i expect anything from you?
nothing will change
you have a nice thing going
and i think everything is going well for you
maybe that's how they should be
i have to remind myself that they are your own choices
no need for me to ask you if you're really sure
matanda na tyo eh.


(i'm asked why i didn't do the talk with sir. i hope that's the last time i have to explain.)

ode to our fathers

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure, I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love, love, love, to dance with my father again

mr. stark

he's brilliant.
he's cool.
he's articulate.
he's funny.
he's cute.
he's passionate.
he has a fun hobby.
he's classy.
he's modern and old.
i love the shades.
and jarvis.
he tries. a lot.
in so many ways.
and he's great.
he is iron man.

you make me smile mr. stark.
see you again, soon.

like a don

you told me so.
you are like him.
the plot thickens. :)

the graduate

4 years since i first watch this movie.
I was on a bus.
Now, it's a very successful play.
We can definitely have a number of explanations of the movie.
Here's one by Mike Nichols.

I think it was the story of a not particularly bright, not
particularly remarkable but worthy kid drowning
among objects and things, committing moral suicide by
allowing himself to be used finally like an object or a
thing by Mrs. Robinson, because he doesn't have the
moral or intellectual resources to do what a large
percentage of other kids like him do - to rebel, to
march, to demonstrate, to turn on. Just drowning.

Then finding himself to some extant, finding part of
himself that he hadn't found, through connection
with a girl. Finding passion because of impossibility.
Impossibility always leads to passion and vice versa.
Going from passion to a kind of insanity. Saving
himself temporarily from being an object, through the
passion and insanity. Getting what he thinks he
wanted and beginning to subside back into the
same world in which he has to live, with not enough
changed. I think that's the story.

future request

i found a song by accident

then i've been obsessing on it all day

though it's a male song

i'm really close to making a record of myself

would love to hear this song one day, on a special occassion 

for me. ;)  

career talk

we've all heard one
this time, i'll make mine.
some of us plan our careers since we're 4
some of us plan it before, during and after college
some at our first job
it really doesn't matter
as long as you keep planning
and working through your goals & dreams
the ones that makes you get up every morning and excited about the day
1. plans can't be plans forever.
if it does, then there must be something wrong, 2. change it.
some things needed to be rethink again and again
your career is what you make out of it
to do a good job, 3. love your work.
because when you do, it will be great
there's always 4. room for improvement,
challenges and new stuff.
make sure you learn to look for those
make time for 5. free time.
take time off, celebrate with the team!
celebrate at home! congratulate and reward yourself.

working won't be easy
but it doesn't need to be that hard. ;)

maybe a love story, but it's no fairytale

after every story
i always wonder if i would have done something else
to try change anything
to stop things from ending
like reviewing myself if i have learned my lesson
and if i did better this time
honestly, i think i did.

maybe, in an obvious perspective
i didn't made any progress
or failed to arrive at what i wanted
maybe, it took me longer
than usual.

but maybe
this is a nice story in the making.
i only hope it's not 20 years. (haha)

good for you

wow! indeed.
i was right all along.
i was worried, you know.
you understand, if i can't ask. 
so, you really are happy.
well, im sure you made all the right choices.

all the best to you, sir.
yep. dapat lagi kang masaya, ok? ;)

hello hello

today, i got two hello's
surprise!
they picked a day and decided that today is the day.
i wonder why.
but thanks guys.

ok, thank you too universe. ;)

joyful joyful

we all remember the days we were in a choir.
our little version of glee club.
singing church songs.
and the first movie that encourage us to be better at it.
good times.

(sister act 2 re-run)

yolo

you only leave once

sa tingin ko impossible naman na makapagprepare ka na mawala sa mundong ibabaw.

minsan napaguusapan naman at nakakapagbilin sa ilang kaibigan pero hindi pa rin.
kahit pa sabihin mong alam mo, hindi rin.
kahit pa sabihin mong di ka takot, hindi rin.

so, since hindi natin tlga alam kelan ang takdang panahon

dapat...

ingat.

pwedeng kaya mo mamatay pero shempre baka ikaw lang yun. dapat best effort. dapat isipin natin yung iiwan natin. cguro naman may tamang nagawa tyo na pag nawala ka, may malulungkot at hahanapin ka. kawawa naman sila. hindi rin naman natin gugustuhin yun pra sa knila d b? wag natin gawing mahirap. ikaw ng mawawala, yung masakit pa?! oo, hindi naman natin kaya pigilan ang mga bagay-bagay at hindi natin sila maaalagaan or mapprotektahan dun, pero pwede natin subukan. :)

- bawal mamatay kung san malalasog ang mga katawan, kadiri. traumatic. so, kailangan maging maingat sa pagddrive. wag mag-momotor. :)

- bawal mamatay sa tubig. (lalo na ako, maliit lng ako. sandali lang mapupuno ako ng tubig) ang panget.

- bawal mamatay sa sunog, baka hindi ka na nila makilala.

- bawal mamatay sa sariling katangahan or ka-curious-an. hal. magvolunteer sa circus, makipaglaro sa leon, tumawid sa highway kesa magoverpass

- bawal ang msyadong matapang. minsan isipin natin hindi natin kaya yan.

- bawal magsama ng iba sa katangahan or magsama ng kukunsinti sa masyado mong katapangan. maging resposanble sa sarili at sa sarili lang sa mga ganyang bagay.

yan! naisip ko kasi, hindi na natin dapat pang mas pahirapan ung iiwan natin.

gusto ko sana kung mawawala ako. yung sakto lang. old age cguro. hindi mahirap pra sakin at hindi rin para sa iba na dahilan. kc shempre laging may dahilan. yun yung paulit-ulit na knkwento tungkol syo. maganda cguro kung maigsi lang yun then change topic na.

ok lang ako kung white or black ang isuot ng dadalaw skn. ayoko ng mahal na kabaong, kung magagawa nga lang nilang DIY, masaya na ko. ayoko ng usual na bulaklak na may sash pero gusto ko ng usual na bulaklak gaya ng roses, carnation or kahit daisies pero mga boquet. pra sweet. ayoko ng solo pic ko for display. gusto ko ng collage ng pictures ko with kahit sino. pwedeng ipadala sa bisita, dnt worry ibabalik. isama nyo na rin ung mga collage ko. gusto kong suot ay isa sa usual shirt at jeans ko lang, kasama ng isa sa relo ko. dapat may relo. kung kaya iwasan ng mga kaibigan ko umiyak mas ok. yung mga naging crush ko or at ung mga special, pwedeng umiyak (haha) masaya sanang malaman kung bakit sila umiiyak. mamimiss ba nila ko? well, shempre mamimiss ko sila. sa mga kaibigan ko, pakisabi na lang sa knila ang mga hindi nila alam. (hehe) ayoko man makita na umiiyak ang nanay, tatay at kapatid ko pero hindi naman mangyayari yun. haha. ok lng ako guys. may mix tape ako, pwede kaya un ang pagtugtugin sa sasakyan at sa burol? maganda naman eh. magpapafilm showing ako kesa sakla or kung ano man libangan. cge, may popcorn na kasama. :)

masayang tumanda at tumagal sa mundo para sa mga nagpapasaya syo. sabi nga ng isang commercial, minsan hindi sapat ang isang daang taon kapag kasama mo ang mga mahal mo.

ilang taon kaya ang aabutin ko?

scott pilgrim vs. the world

yeah.
maybe i should color my hair magenta?
:)

if you want something bad. you have to fight for it. step up your game. break out the L-word.

count on me

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea,
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see,
I'll be the light to guide you

Find out what we're made of
When we are called to help our friends in need

You can count on me like one two three
I'll be there
And I know when I need it I can count on you like four three two
You'll be there
'Cause that's what friends are supposed to do, oh yeah

Whoa, whoa
Oh, oh
Yeah, yeah

(sorry for disappearing. friends first.)

the world isn't waiting

for you my friend.
so...

can't go back

oh, i hear her.
i understand what's that like.
she's right.
i should've done it like she did.
because, like she said...

you can't because
you can't go back.

im a girl who finishes 35 party hats out of board, crepe paper and stickers during a holiday.

what does that say about me?

christian

blue, light blue at puti

may onting black

ordinary

pero may aircon din

fti ayala ibabaw boni tulay at iba pang byahe

maayos naman

medyo malinis

mukang bago kumpara sa iba
wala msyadong vandal
wala nman akong nakasalamuhang ipis

walang kurtina
wala rin halos tint

gumagana naman ang mga bintana
kapamilya ng joanna jesh
anyway, sino kaya si christian?

bus rating: 4/5

siyudad

Ganito pala.
Daming tao.
Daming sasakyan.
Daming makikita.
Daming ingay.
Daming bago.
Daming din luma.
Daming ilaw.
Daming kalye.
I lab it.

Hindi nman sa ayaw ko sa probinsya.
Mas gusto ko lang sa siyudad.
Mas masayang magkape at magisip.
Mas masayang maglakad.

Excited na ko lumuwas! :)

name game

1. catchy
2. edgy
3. fun
4. professional
5. may character
6. hindi mahirap ispell
7. madaling basahin ng kahit sino
8. available pang username

yun lang naman. ;)

all my loving, i will

Who knows how long I've loved you
You know I love you still
Will I wait a lonely lifetime,
If you want me to, i will.

Close your eyes and i'll kiss you
Tomorrow I'll miss you
Remember I'll always be true
And then while I'm away
I'll write home every day
And I'll send all my loving to you

Love you forever and forever,
Love you with all my heart.
Love you when we're together,
Love you when we're apart.

All my loving, I will send to you
All my loving, darling I'll be true
All my loving, all my loving
Woo, all my loving, I will send to you

;)

back to work

We will never understand why many unfortunate things happen in the world
like some past unfortunate things aren't enough
especially to our loved ones which hurts the most
and those that happens to you
maybe because, He knows you can do it
maybe He is opening up a greater opportunity for you in exchange
maybe He is trying to teach you a lesson
maybe He is doing an inception
who knows, right?

Still, sometimes i can't help to think
about how He picks them?
Why them?
Why him? Why her? Why me?
What is it that we do sometimes, that we meet a very unfortunate event?
Did we ask for it?
Did we deserve it?
Is it for things to be fair?

Whatever reason we may come up with,
we can't know for sure.
We hear what we want to hear.
The thing is, we won't fully have an answer don't we?
Everytime.
Stop guessing.
All is left is for us to get up and get back to work.
Better make the most of it!

suits

yep. he can be the new guy.
he's got a thin tie.
and he didn't went to Harvard. ;)

to friends

sometimes, all you need is someone who has the time to listen for a while
and a person where you can just pick up right where you left of.

i got this.
i'll be fine.

notting hill

one of my friends watch the movie and he didn't get a certain line that julia roberts said

he tweeted about it and ask

then a random girl answered his question

got him laughing about not getting it

so, what do we learn?
don't overthink it, guys.
sometimes, you need to..
look pass what you see.

strike

Inspiration can strike at anytime.

So, we better be prepared when it happens. Amazing things will happen.

;)

tiffany

because i do this time after time after time after time
i do all these shit for other people
and then i wake up
i am empty
i have nothing
(what are you talking about? you seem like a tough girl to me you just do things on your own)
i always get myself in this situations
i give everything to people
and nobody
i
i never
i do not get what i want

there's this thing
i have this thing
it's a thing
it's a thing
it's a dance thing
think about it

if i was reading the signs
you're not a standup guy

pusher

pusher ako?!

e minsan kc kailangan tlga natin yun d b?
taga-tulak ganun

hi, im the cheer leader!
happy to serve!!
daming energy!!!


sabi nga ni carmina
kelan mo gagawin ang mga gusto mo?
mag-enervon pra laging happy. hahaha.(waley)

excelsior

One incident can change a lifetime.

You have to do everything you can. You have to work your hardest. If you stay positive, you have a shot at a silver lining.

The world will break your heart 10 ways til sundays that's guaranteed and i can't begin to explain that or the craziness inside myself and in everybody else. But guess what..

Mine, still works.
I'm still here.

choose

hard to choose
hard not to choose
either way is hard
so, don't give up
have a little more faith

(sing)
don't you worry
don't you worry child ;)

anna karenina

Now, she was a different story.
She was a good example for some parts.
She chose happiness.
She didn't fear.
She build a life then decided to change everything.
She broke a commitment as if it didn't matter. Selfish.
Can't take back the years.
Can't replace them either.
That! Is not fair.
We should not make promises, we can't keep.
Should not begin things and just stop.
But do not settle.
You will realize.
It's bigger than that when the time comes.

Time change people.
And maybe, i am a fool to not change that part.
The pursuit of happiness.

I pray
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.

Amen.

press start

minsan yung inspiration, creativity at productivity di mo alam kung kelan dadating.

napapansin ko madalas late. gabi na. yung tipong kailangan matulog na pra di ma-late kinabukasan.

forever minsan ang startup time. minsan araw. pero di naman namamatayan bigla pag ok na. di nga uso ang break.

kailangan lang tlga painitin ang makina, magintay kahit matagal at kumuha ng tamang tiempo at aandar din sya.

in the box

clean up is necessary for new space

stuff needs to go in the box

ok stuffs?!? haha.

like a trip down to memory lane

this is my most creative one so far

actually they are small things

but one of my most unique ones, i must say

an apple logo with a message (will miss this picture)

30 secrets

some other photos

the archives 

yep. good times.

i'm keeping the mixed tape. (sorry, if didn't reach the intended receiver)

hello march.

it's up to me

they say it's easier to be responsible for your own than to be of others
i'm not really sure if that's true
sometimes you care for people unconditionally
you get used to it
and one day you realize they're ok on their own
so even when it's hard
you stay away
because that will keep everything normal
and they can stay happy
because that's all that matters

i miss him.
even just a friend.
but i think, he's really happy now.

and it's up to me, to be happy too.



(To myself: remind self not to watch that movie again. from now on, you hate that movie. don't forget the book.)

song meaning

my friends say, i sing differently
i heard the same thing at home
they say, i did a good job
i dunno

there are songs that gets really close to your heart
and it shows when you sing them
i hope they get me for that
no explanations need to be said
just smiles

losing my religion

"I think different religions are different doors to the same house. Sometimes I think the house exists, and sometimes I don’t. It’s the great mystery."
― Steve Jobs

"Religions get lost as people do."
― Franz Kafka

“Religion is like a pair of shoes.....Find one that fits for you, but don't make them wear your shoes.”
― George Carlin

"All religions are the same:  religion is basically guilt, with different holidays." 
― Cathy Ladman

"I'm not religious, but I like God and he likes me." 
― Tony Kushner, Angels in America

“Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind.”
― Albert Einstein


Life is bigger
It's bigger
And you, you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no, I've said too much
I set it up

this way to the clouds

i conquered.
yeah!
akala ko hindi ko kakayanin umakyat pa ng bundok
pro yey! nagawa ko
i'm so proud of myself
i gave mother nature / father mountain they're second and last chance (haha)
nagpapasalamat ako na hindi nman nila ko pinatay (hehe)
pina-iyak, gaya ng dati
feeling ko ang galing galing ko lang
no amount of my walking routine can match yung nalakad ko dun
yung 5k - 10k panis!
naawa ako sa puso ko.
akala ko bibigay sya.
so there, i found out that i do have a weak heart and lungs.
akala ko imagination ko lang eh.
but its still working.
and the important thing is, i made it!
wohoo!
it was beautiful!
ang ganda!
dun mo tlga masasabi na someone powerful than us did an awesome job making this world.
wow!
so, lahat ng hirap was worth it.



i'm suppose to repeat my trips but i think that will be my first and last. (hihi) :)

specials

you can really be amazed how some people can get into your life easily
and choose not to go anywhere
to stay and play a part
the ones who always let you know that they are there
even when you can't be with them
those who can tell you things that matter
either they make sense or not
those who won't judge but corrects you
those who knows when your missing
those who help you get busy and "more busy" ;)
those who treat you both as an independent and dependent normal person
and those who will bother to take time to talk, laugh, hug it out and be crazy with you
especially when you need to

it's crazy sometimes how we choose to hold on too long for people and wait until they do those small roles
and hope they know that you'll do it for them too
when there are those few, who just do
without doubts and no hesitation

don't waste time not spending with those person(s)
they are rare
they should be the special ones.

nice to know you

only say it when you mean it

i'm glad to know that some things never change
especially the good stuff
sometimes, some people will really know you,
help you
and watch out for you in their smallest ways
even when they don't have to
even if they know you can do it on your own

diary

from the best of bread
bumili kc ako ng mix combined with cascades, everly brothers and one of my fav, beegees
mas uso to nung grade school ako hanggang high school
di ko tlga trip ang bread nun pro naappreciate ko rin sya pagtagal
peer pressure cguro
may certain twist pala yung kanta
ngayon ko lng nabigyan ng attention yung lyrics
ayon din sa songmeaning
akala ko nman natuwa ung nagbasa ng diary
"wouldn't you know it, she doesn't show it"
galing! not bad for a sad song.

the best pa rin ang make it with you! ;)

old & crazy

when we get old and crazy
i wonder what it would be like
what would i look like
im sure i'd be cooler than you
you.. will be cranky
maybe much silent than ever
but still weird. good weird.
we'll have lots of Polaroids together
but you don't remember most of them
we could replay some movies we like
and i listen to your comments over and over
you bought me a vinyl and i love it!
so we can play old songs and sing along
you drive me around on Saturdays, for a change, finally!
i'm a faster driver but i like you're slow driving
at night,
you take your glasses and read anything then scribble notes
i watch tv and think of something i can instagram at my age
then we talk about random things on the phone
until we decide to sleep and tell good night.

Good night Sir!

pano na lng

pano na lang kung wala ang mga idol natin sa buhay
ang mga taong kinapupulutan natin ng everyday life learnings (naks)
minsan may araw tlga na hindi ka ok
tapos makakabasa ka ng mga saying nila idol
saya!
lakas maka-good vibes!!!!
lakas maka-ngiti. ;)

nakakapagtataka

di ka ba napapagod
o di kaya'y nagsasawa
mahirap ka tlga igets
ano bang binabalik-balikan natin?
wala akong matapos
blanko pa rin ang papel
puro simula
kulang sa oras?
instructions, malabo?
may pinag-iisipan?
may hinahanap?
bakit?
ayaw mo ba?
mahirap kasi hulaan
ayoko ng hulaan
basta kung ready ka na...
tingin ko, handa na ko.

waterfalls

it happened again!
ok. i really need to get an appointment.
every drop is like a waterfalls.

the robin

the best play ever played
wow!
wow!

patience

there are different stories on why we are build the way we are today

from that, we learn the how's, the what's, the who's and sometimes the when

all great efforts is worth the wait

we're ok.

bagong kanta

or at least bagong kilala kong kanta
isa lang ang naisip ko.


Nagbibilang ng sandali
Pintig ng puso ko'y bumibilis
Alam kong nadarama mo rin

Magkikita tayong muli
Parang batang kinikilig
Di mapakali at nasasabik
Mahawakan kang muli

Mundo'y ating iwanan
Kung maaari lang sana
Dito na lang tayo
Sa ating tagpuan

truth is

not all things that need to be said
need to be heard

if i know, it would make a difference
i would

but say it anyway.

2 steps forward 1 step backward

that's the steps of the dance
better not forget that.

the finisher

An ever after now begins..
I like weddings. It's a happy event.
Exciting. Good times. And actually humbling.

I had doubts that she will make it.
I didn't think that she can write a decent vow.
But i'm happy that she did.

Like i said
She did a good job.
Cheers to the finisher!!!

coming of age

one of the best phases in life
like a do over
of coarse,
this is something of getting used to
more practices for me
plus tons of training
due to lack of female friends
and female friends who can teach me
and my own personal preference
i'm a late bloomer in the field
well, it's all part of growing up
in fairness, i think i've done a pretty good job. #likeachix


cheers to 6 years of adventures! ;)

growing up

I’m growing up, getting down
Putting my both feet on the ground
With all my friends behind me
How can I go wrong this time?
I’m growing up, getting down
Think of reality came around
Not just waiting for the daybreak
Expecting the sun to shine
It doesn’t shine all the time

last na to

dear friend,

ito totoo na! haha.
wala ng makulit.

alam ko, dapat nagawa ko na to dati pa pero hindi eh.
kaya sorry na.

so.. in advance
happy valentines!
happy birthday!
happy halloween!
merry christmas!
happy new year!
tsaka
congratulations!

ayan! nasabi ko na lahat ng greeting.
then repeat from the top baka malimutan mo.

thank you! thank you! thank you!
ok ka naman d ba Sir?
yakang-yaka mo yan Sir.
ikaw pa!

;)

rosas

sa pagsasalita pa lang
tuwang-tuwa na ko kay Mang Reynaldo de Guzman
mapapa-smile ka nya agad
nagbebenta sya ng rosas
dun sya masaya
kinwento nya pano sya nagsimula
pano nya nakilala ang misis nyang si anabelle
at pano sya sinagot
kinuwento nya pano nya binuhay ang pamilya nya sa pangiti-ngiti
at pag-alok ng mga bulaklak sa kalye
pano nya unti-unting binuo ang bahay nila
maliit man, nareremedyuhan din
napag-aral nya yung mga anak nya
at nagawa nyang mapagtapos
pinakita nya na simple man ang buhay nakakaraos din
importanteng mahal mo yung trabaho mo
at maabilidad
at laging may pangarap

actually, ilang beses ko na napanuod ang storya ni Mang Rey.

masaya syang ulit-ulitin.

let's do this 2013

Starships were meant to fly
Hands up and touch the sky
Can’t stop ‘cause we’re so high
Let’s do this one more time

Starships were meant to fly
Hands up and touch the sky
Let’s do this one last time
Can't stop


Asta La Vista 2012