series finale

get a nice good look

take all the mental picture you can

reminisce old times

relive every memory

remember the bad ones

treasure the good ones

reread those messages

replay them all

make those last seconds count

go crazy!

i can't sleep

i really can't.

there's a lot of things going inside my head.

and i can't turn them off.

i should be tired.

guess, my body is.. but my mind isn't.

i'm ranning out of things to watch.

the music is not working.

i tried reading but i kept reading and reading. that usually works.

i have to sleep.

i need to get up in 4 hours.

or i might fall asleep on the bike.

that's embarrasing.

pls. pls. let me sleep.

new game

back on the floor again

back on the hunt

need to bring back the game face

need to pick a team and be chosen

only way to get back in the league

fight! fight! fight!

right next to me

'Cause I'll be there one day,

And you will be right next to me.

I'll be there one day,

And you will be right next to me.

I swear to the world,

You'll always be my girl.

Just say you'll be,

Right next to me

(Classic 80s. Haha.)

moments of sadness

it could be my migraine
or it could be the meds that i took to get rid of my migraine
but i just feel sad today
i woke up trying to get everything normal
started with the routines
papers
went through my tasks
made some calls
answered some calls
cancelled a meeting
planned the rest of the day
to keep myself busy
i was already out the door and trying to get it locked
getting mixed up with the keys again
when i started crying
i tried to shake it off
but it's still there
tears still fall down sometimes even when you look up

regular joe

i actually can't say he's regular
he is pretty much everything
he acts, he sings, he dance, he writes, he directs
he's funny, he's serious, he's weird
he's creative, he's smart, he's talkative
he's lean, he's cute, he's sharp, he's cool
he's an artist, he's very talented

he shares, he inspires
he's the boss.

tell me, what's regular about that?
i love regular joe.

crazy town

i have said this before. i don't like my friends to self-destruct infront of me.

it's just not fair.

friends are family.

and we don't give up on family even when they do.

it's either that or we're not a family anymore. 

so better take that bus out of crazy town. fast. 

betty go belmonte

sino kaya si betty go belmonte?

ito, pwede ko to tanungin.

itatanong ko nga to sa kanya. 

dapat may sagot sya. 

minsan may mga taong hindi mo matiis. 

kainis! 

question and answer portion

ang alam ko dati ako yung madaming tanong eh

pero lately prang mas madami ng syang tanong kesa skn

sagot naman ako ng sagot (haay regina, hirap hindi sagutin noh)

ayoko naman na masyadong mgtanong prang dati

kc hindi ko kailangan malaman, ok? ok!

kalma lang.

kapit bisig! 

story of us

We're 

as 

good 

as 

it 

gets.

Aren't we?

not this time

i think i've heard enough of what people say

before that, i've also heard enough of what i would say to myself

we already know what I would normally do

so, im not doing it.

not this time.

change is the only constant thing is this world.

fortune teller

bakit kahit gaano ko katagal tignan ung palad ko wala naman akong nakikita?

yung mga card prang pare-parehas lang naman.

may alternate universe kaya sila na nakikita pag tinitignan nila ung customer nila?

amazing din ano! 

mahirap kaya magisip at magbigay ng kapalaran?

cguro mahirap din.

prang nagiisip ka ng isasagot mo sa tanong ni boss tungkol sa estimates. (haha)

bawal daw magalit ang mga manghuhula. 

bat kaya?

ilan kaya ang may gusto na malaman ang kapalaran nila?

ilan dun ang suki na ngayon?

ilan kaya nagalit kay manang?

may lalake bang manghuhula? anong tawag sa knya?

bat ba kc hindi ko naitanong ang mga tanong na yan nung pwede ako mgtanong.

pero bsta manang, aasahan ko yan. 

minsan nakakapikon ka na

kung lumaki ka na dumadating ang lahat ng bagay syo eh maswerte ka,

yun lang.

maswerte ka lang.

kung lumaki ka na hindi nahihirapan sa trabaho at hindi sanay maging empleyado,

eh cguro maswerte ka pa rin

yun nga lang..

maswerte ka lang ulit.

kapag nabinigyan ka ng role at responsibilidad

at sinabi mo na ayaw mo gawin kc maeffort.

and sinabi mo na ayaw mo gawin kc wala sa constitution mo.

at sa huli, ang tanging gusto mo lang naman sabihin ay hindi mo na kailangan gawin, hindi mo na kailangan ng pera at hindi mo kailangan magtrabaho pa.

well, fine! sobrang swerte mo na!

blessed ka na kung blessed.

pero sana sa susunod wag mo na ulitin yang dahilan na yan baka di ka na swertehin pa. 

missing parts

when we see a whole. 

we try our best to fill-it-up. 

to cover. to patch.

whatever it takes,

to be good as new. 

that's what we always do.

so that sooner or later,

we begin to see that..

there are no missing parts.

step 4

masaya tlga tong palabas na to

kung parehas nga lng sya sa totoong buhay

mas masaya yun. :)

ok lang ba kung tuyo ang ulam ko..

kung gusto mo kumain, lumapit lng sa akin

kain lang ng kain kahit wala ng money...

haha.

more knowledge

We are what we are because we have been what we have been, and what is needed for solving the problems of human life and motives is not moral estimates but more knowledge.

-- Sigmund Fred

of course not

managing my own expectations is already a life-long learning for me
i will never be good at it

what more for others
but i've trained to expect little from some people
to manage frustrations

i take it that whatever decision they make

i trust that they've thought about

that they are the best decision for them

made them happy
so, am i expecting anything else?
of course not.

surprise me.

cruel intention

i just heard the saddest love story that i ever heard
i wouldn't wish it for anyone not even to the worst person i will ever meet
(which i think, would be the villain in this story)
that is solid heartless
i can't tell anymore where could be the love on that love story
it's unbelievable to accept that there is such person
normally capable of something so selfish and mean

beyond comprehension
how can anyone live like that and carry on everyday
totall unexcused.

i can never imagine what it would be like to be in that situation
im not sure how much hate is needed to get pass that
but it has to be more than a lot.

may kasabihan po tyo na..

ang taong di marunong lumingon sa kanyang pinanggalingan,

ay naliligaw.

ang taong nagigipit,

ay kawawa naman.

kung ano ang tinanim,

sana lumaki. 

kung may sinuksok,

sana hindi iba ang dumukot.

pagkahaba-haba man ng prosisyun,

di pa rin tayo mauubusan nyan.

pag makitid ang kumot,

gawin mo na lang face towel. 

b.i.

hindi naman sa nangungunsinti
hindi naman sa nagppromote ng mali
hindi nman cguro masama kung ibibigay ko ang option na yun
masama ba kung gusto ko lang nman na may magawa silang ganun
pag natapos yun. eh di tapos na.
sa tingin ko nman malaki na kami para magdecide
oo. hindi nman sya requirement sa buhay
pero hindi naman tlga lahat ng ginagawa lang natin ay yung requirement sa buhay
hindi naman tayo kabisote
and tingin ko, sa mga options na yun
dun tayo mas may natutunan.

best influence.
(kala mo lang bad pero best)