Ano kaya?

Minsan andaming tanong
Minsan puro tanong na lang
Walang nasasagot
Hindi mo alam kung ikaw ba sasagot or may ibang sasagot
Hindi mo din alam kelan masasagot
Hinahanap mo naman ung sagot pero ayaw ipakita syo 
Itanong mo na lang sa hangin levels
Ibulong mo sa pader feels
Sana alam mong nakikinig ung pader
Sana icheer ka nman ni universe
Iiisipin mo na may lesson to be learn dito... somewhere
Pero shempre hindi mo pa alam
Hindi natin alam kung malalaman mo nga
Hmmm.. Patience?
Trust?
Buti pa ung mystery rooms may time limit or pwede ka humingi ng clue
Dito wala
May forever
Bukas gigising ako..
Andito pa rin..
Nag-iisip..
Ano kaya?

Papa

Hi Papa,

I know I don't talk to you as much. I know. I'm sorry.
And i always say this,  I know you know that I am very independent sometimes.
It's not that I don't need you.
It's just that you can help someone else. I know they need you more.
I'll be okay.
Plus, i always have trusted your plans.
And I'm just waiting here to discover them and learn from them.
Live it.
I was taught not to question them too and I don't. Really.
Because that's what trust is.
So, i just wanted to you to know that.
(maybe you already know)
That i still do.
Just in case, there can be times that it may say otherwise.
I'm just here.

Always, thanks for everything.
Reg

#bfgoals

i know its 2am and why am i writing about bf goals?!?

well.. im totally crushing on Ansel Elgort. (smiley with heart eyes)

yeah. he's added on the list! 

what can i say? he's confident. he talks nice with sense. he's very very talented. he sings, he can dance, he can act. he creates music. he's smart. he's funny. he's charming and very sweet. 

i mean... im sorry Ansel that i thought different of you before, until that Rip off with Jamie and James. That did it! Nailed it! Easy like Sunday Morning... 

checked wikipedia and google and instagram and youtube and i just became more impressed by you. (smiley with hearts x 3)

so, you made my prestige cut! amongst other well deserved guys for me (ehem) like your friend Dylan O'brien, of course Ryan Tedder, Robert Downey Jr., Joseph Gordon Levitt, Drew Arellano, Atom Araullo and many others. (haha, some are not showbiz)

brain and talent just gets me and definitely how one handle himself. 

#type #goodjob #sweetdreams

Kita kita

Sabi ko na syo Regina
Yang mga ganyang pelikula, title pa lang
Alam mo na eh
Kulit ka lang.

Iyak na naman.
Tama na yan.

Punasan mo, punasan mo.
Maghugas ka na lng ng pinggan.

Daming kalat oh.

Ok 30 mins.

Tapos, awat na.

unreal

I dreamed of you again
Of us, sir.
I don't know why and i don't know how.
Maybe there is a science to it.
But we were so happy.
Really happy.

It's nice seeing you again.
There were those silent moments that i was just staring at you
Looking at you
Smiling.

It is unreal to see you like that
To be that person with me.
But I enjoyed it.
Maybe i knew that it was a fleeting moment.
Maybe i knew it was a dream.

the code

nope. no. this is not one of those geek things. :) but you may already know that.
why else would she write? right?

i re-watched Fate of the Furious today with Mimi. (she haven't watched it)
if you're a fan, you know that Dom lives by a code.

I just realize that I've been living by the same code.
You may say, "and so is everyone else"
I say, "well good for us"
I can't speak for anyone else but i really take this Family seriously.
if i had to rank...
everything else is secondary.
or maybe coffee is 2nd then everything else comes next (haha)

my favorite family is my sister.
i was kinda forced into it (maybe) because i only got one sibling but the role really stocked in me
ever since our world began
can't remember a time i regret being "ate"
i know our age difference is just a year and sometimes she is more mature than me
i know i only want what's best for her in any case, any time, any where
i always think that maybe i have this mother's instinct when it comes to her
and i hate to say it but most of the time i know and feel its true
never have i turn my back on her, not once or  when "push comes to shove" i always stay on her side and cover for her
maybe il get mad at her, over react and start a fight with her privately in our own time
she thinks im just attacking her all the time
but that is to understand her and let out all my feelings too
i always tell her these:
it hurts a lot when she's the first person i trust and she does not trust me
it hurts when she knows i will never doubt her but im the first person she doubts
i hate the lies
she thinks i don't know them
because i can't do anything
i have to play the part
i need to be understanding and patient and let her make her decisions which i can only hope to be right, try to still trust her make the better choices

it deeply pains me everyday when i look at her but then again...
"You don't turn your back on family"

do you dance now

im at work, obviously not doing work
doing everything else that comes to mind
listening to Mr. Derulo, Kiss the Sky.
on repeat
if you haven't heard it, where were you? this is not a new song
currently, my favorite get me going / pick me up song
there are just those days that you need the right song to get through your days
this is my jam

Cause I believe we can fly now
Spread your wings and kiss the sky
Yeah, I believe we can fly now
Spread your wings, we're miles high
So we can kiss the sky
Oh kiss the sky

Do your dance, do your dance now

you don't know me

• You give your hand to me
  And then you say hello
  And I can hardly speak
  My heart is beating so
  And anyone can tell
  You think you know me well
  But you don't know me (no you don't know me)
  
  No you don't know the one
  Who dreams of you at night
  And longs to kiss your lips
  Longs to hold you tight
  Oh I am just a friend
  That's all I've ever been
  Cause you don't know me (no you don't know me)
  
  I never knew the art of making love
  No my heart aches with love for you
  Afraid and shy I let my chance go by
  The chance that you might love me too (love me too)
  
  You give your hand to me
  And then you say goodbye
  I watch you walk away beside the lucky guy
  Oh you will never know
  The one who loves you so
  Well you don't know me
  
  I never knew the art of making love
  No my heart aches with love for you
  Afraid and shy I let my chance go by
  The chance that you might love me too (love me too)
  
  You give your hand to me
  And then you say goodbye
  I watch you walk away beside the lucky guy
  Oh you will never know
  The one who loves you so
  Well you don't know me
  You don't know me
  Oh you don't know me

what change?

nothing actually.

still the same.

still here.

still me.

just older, i guess.

more tita.

maybe.

nothing exciting.

nothing interesting.

nothing new.

just the same old me.

but i wished i could tell you different.

im drunk, i love you

maganda! magaling! makatotohanan!

siguro madaming Carson sa atin, madaming makakarelate

and siguro meron din mga Dio, bka nga bestfriend mo din

madaming feelings tlga na nakatago sa friendship. masaya na kasama mo lagi ung taong mahal mo pero mahirap din kung magkaiba kayo ng definition nun.

best lines para sakin:

Dio: "ang hirap tlga hindian ung taong minahal mo ng sobra. alam mo un. ung walang wala ka na, pero pag nandyan sya kahit may onting natitira syo.. hindi mo magawa eh. di mo mahindian."

this is not on me

there are days that you just can look at yourself and tell yourself
look at you...
you stand here alone
you have given yourself more than you could
you have given others more than you could
but still..
here you are
you stand alone
after all these years
why is this universe so mean to you?
why can this universe make you happy?
for how long will you take this?
but i guess it is really not up to you
it's not your fault
this is not on you

a series of unfortunate events

last night and this morning, i confirmed something i don't understand.

how it happened? how it began?

but honestly i don't care how

i just wanted to know why?!?

why?!? 

why do people hurt the ones they love?

why of all the people that you know

those the ones closest to you will be the one to do the major lies

or betray you

why do they do that?

i think the reason is easier for lovers, they aren't happy anymore. it is hard, i know that. but i'll get that and i'll take that reason.

but what if it's family?

what could possibly be a valid reason that earned their right to ignore your

significance?
that you needed them

maybe they thought you won't mind, right?
that whatever happens you'll forgive

then when you correct them, they'll just tell you, you're being righteous

then if you speak your heart, they'll just tell you... you're full of drama

well... nevermind how you feel

everybody changes sh*t!!! 

whatever it is, you don't do that to family.

and what if it's one of your best friends?

now, you need to question that friendship and review yourself.. 

all the things you shared and did

together

why would someone not consider all that?

i need to find the whys...

i need to understand.

the lucky ones

some people have to choose between choice A or B

lucky are those who have this privilege

some people find this hard

some people just give up

some people just wanted to have the chance to choose 

some people just wanted to have someone to bring them coffee when they want to

infinite crisis

lately when i wake up

get out of bed

take my breakfast 

nothing really comes to mind

what to do today

where to go

who to be

like i don't want to be me

i use to have a reason

all people have a why

but i think im missing mine

ultimate bucket list

if tomorrow even by a miracle i become a mother.
i will be really happy. happiest maybe.
i know its crazy but i always have that feeling in me.
so, i don't get why some chooses not to be one.
sometimes for some people, not ever. how can they even say that?
i will never understand
i have this inner confidence that i can do it
you may not believe me but you're not me
its like a voice telling me that i can
i do feel that i will be good at it
i don't even think that it will be hard
even i know it is
im not scared
but im excited for everyday
i also know that it is life changing
but that is a change that i'll be more than happy to go through
more than once, for sure
it will be my ultimate bucket list

ok, i know its cheesy.. but twins would be best. haha.

of coarse.. a husband and a wedding would also be nice.

must be love on the brain

I came to know this song pretty late in the game, heard in from the radio today.
Such a beautiful song, full of emotions.
Speaks to your feelings. Best for those unexplainable ones.
Love is supposedly just what your heart wants but sometimes its more than that...
must be Love on the Brain
To the one that got away... sir, this is for you (haha)

Love on the Brain

And you got me like oh
What you want from me?
What you want from me?
And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high
Baby you got me like oh, mm
You love when I fall apart (fall apart)
So you can put me together
And throw me against the wall

Baby you got me like ah, woo, ah
Don't you stop loving me (loving me)
Don't quit loving me (loving me)
Just start loving me (loving me), babe

Oh, and babe I'm fist fighting with fire
Just to get close to you
Can we burn something babe?
And I run for miles just to get a taste
Must be love on the brain
That's got me feeling this way
It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain, yeah
And it keeps cursing my name (cursing my name)
No matter what I do
I'm no good without you
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain

Then you keep loving me
Just love me, yeah
Just love me
All you need to do is love me yeah
Got me like ah-ah-ah-ow
I'm tired of being played like a violin
What do I gotta do to get in your motherfuckin' heart?

Baby like ah, woo, ah
Don't you stop loving me (loving me)
Don't quit loving me (loving me)
Just start loving me (loving me), babe

Oh, and babe I'm fist fighting with fire
Just to get close to you
Can we burn something babe?
And I run for miles just to get a taste
Must be love on the brain
That's got me feeling this way
It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain
And it keeps cursing my name (cursing my name)
No matter what I do
I'm no good without you
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain