something fishy

a great yesterday.

a great mornin.

gud mornin!

(i missed that) :D

Sonnet XLIII

All days are nights to see till I see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee to me.
~William Shakespeare

hanep! shume-shakespeare. haha!

we walk

today was a day made for walking. tiring. hot weather. lots of people. long roads. aching toes. wasted fare. wrong jeep. but in the end, and until now. still smiling. hehe.

we walk.

"People create their own questions because they are afraid to look straight. All you have to do is look straight and see the road, and when you see it, don't sit looking at it - walk." (Ayn Rand)

nice day

just that. :P


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im tired

i really wish this would be over. i wish i could just move on. ive had it with weighing things
over and over. im fed up about this waiting. im sick of these news. im working hard to make all the right moves and maybe, just maybe, i will. im trying to keep and maintain my gameface and im kinda loosing it too.

i dnt know what to do anymore. my head is getting filled with a lot of thinking things everyday and i want to stop it. im worried and im pretty sure to be confused. im floating empty. i want badly to win this war but i ain't sure if im the right soldier.

im really tired.


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i miss everyday

is it time? should i wake up from this sleep and get up? what if im not ready to get up? what if i dnt want to get up? what if im not sure how to pull myself and walk out that hall and start my day?

this is really hard for me, anyone must understand im not prepared for this. im not ready. im not the type of person who just move on from this. im not. i should be mature about this but then again im not. i know what's the right thing to do but i don't wanna do that. not just yet. im hanging. not moving. keeping busy with other things. i know, im being dramatic to even put myself in this situation. my problem is sadness, it kills me. i can't get away from it. i can't barely start to think about the worse things. i miss the times. i miss lunch. i miss dinner. i miss coffee. i miss the laugh. i miss the smile. i miss the fun. i miss everyday. it's only been two days and look at me. im weird.

im not good at goodbye's. if i can skipped it and fast forward myself in another reality, i will. somebody, handle this for me if it has to happen, when it happens. coz i can't. il cry and i can feel it.

so please, please, please.... let it not happen.

the late post

here i am. listening to Franco on my background with the boys playing Counterstrike and DOTA as always. with that, I felt like writing. I haven't made any update til Ondoy happened. anyway, i just had the urged to make a post. I do hope i would make a sense out of it. it's 10:45pm now.

what do i want to talk about now.. hmmm.. this is really a tough job.

last nyt, i thought i would create a post about "parents" and their wave of growing old. but then the moment has passed, i should have scribbled something last night. even a draft will do. the main point was... i think im being more mature than them nowadays and i dunno if that's just me or them. sometimes i dunno what's really harder to be them or to be me. sometimes i feel that as spontaneous we all can be sometimes and hard-headed, so they are, twice worse and will be in the coming years and age. im at that point that im easily irritated about them hovering around and breathing at the back of your neck like you're 5. i know, it's a little bit harsh. i know that it's just concern. believe me, i know the drill. im not being a problem child here, i just think that im looking into this in a different perspective and they just don't get it. not even a little. anyway, im not making a close point here so maybe some other time. :)

yesterday, i just started watching Glee. yes, laugh all you want. i like the show. i like musicals. what i really like about it are the songs and the dances. yes. i imagine myself being a part of something close to that. (and what's the problem in that?) i really wish to enter a workshop soon. nweiz, one good point i've heard... one lesson, one teacher from the series told her student. we can't complicate our life too much for something. we can't do that. we shouldn't do that. life is hard as it is. life is complicated as it is. but what do i always say?! "coz life is never complicated enough!" =) yes. kinda hard-headed, ain't i? but you know. where's the fun in not trying to complicate your life sometimes? of coarse, there are limits and boundaries. we do need to stop at one point or another but dnt fret, that will happen on its own. the heart wants what the heart wants. and like nike says it, just do it! :P


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this was a post that was suppose to be posted last 2/26/10, 10:45PM. haha! i've got nothing better to do now (i logged on the net for the last 5 mins and i dunno what i really wanna do), then i found myself looking for my blog. and here it is.. posting some of my drafts. maybe later, il have the initiative to post some of my overdue pictures. gosh! sometimes, being at home is hard. haha!

after the storm

when the storm cast over and brought forth his wrath and drain himself out.. i wonder, after that relief.. how does he feel?

as he pass by and destroy every weak little thing that cannot put up with his machismo and power. how does he feel?

the many times he flood our ways and homes and our lives non-stop til he's satisfied. how does he feel?

in an instant just like that, it's gone for us. how does he feel?

i hope he's heartless coz that is obvious to me. i used to like him when i was young, like a cool dude that makes school go away but i sure hate him now. he's not easy. he just come,do his sh*t and leave. regardless of tomorrow. i dnt get it. who does that?

"im just doing my job", he may say. honestly, i understand. but man, he could be more sensitive. he's selfish. yah, you heard me.


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over a month

yes. a new entry. finally. i actually had a lot of drafts and phone blog entries but id rather not share them. yah.. they are cheesy and full of drama. some are with no sense. anyways... so watup?

well, i guess a lot has happen over a month.. let me see..

i got older
i visited macau-hk which is very nice and would like to go again
i've gone to El Nido and mingle with mah new circle of friends
i can't save these days
i got to prove i can be sporty and lead a team to 2nd place. yah, im proud of that.
recently, i proved i can wear skirts and be girly... (ahahaha! though i might need to do it every week now due to insistent demand)
i had my friends come in and out from SG (what's with that place anyway??! geez!)
im close to being broke, a little few steps more
i've become a corny looser, sometimes (yah, i know!)
i reached the point that i cannot stay in our house any longer, i will move out asap and im serious
i really miss College
i got really frustrated about someone
i decided to back off and dnt wanna talk about it ever
i got tired
i am a better lier than a pretender
i am saving my VLs
but im running out of SLs and excuses (haha!)
i want to go onshore but not too long
i wanna be everywhere
i wanted to do the list and get to them one after another
i felt i wanted to just get married and be a mother and start that life
no, im not yet ready to be a mother
a girl just wanna have fun

i could go on all day... a lot has happen, over a month. they might not be the best and i dunno if they are good things but i did enjoyed them, im not miserable or sad. it's always about the ride and as i say... life is never complicated enough... ;) cheers!!!!

Why i love Bali?

Let me count the ways. . .

The Beach. Imagine yourself.. fine white sand, cool gentle breeze, a perfect hot sunshine, chilling and relaxing under an umbrella with fresh coconut to drink staring at an ocean filled with picturesque waves sprinkled with good looking people. Kuta Beach, i could not complain.

Don't get scared by the waves, that's the fun part! I am not a surfer but in Bali, I felt I was. I'm nowhere near being a pro, just a stoked surfer wannabe that got challenged by the waves she saw. I spend hours and hours out in the water trying to get a long ride and as exhausting and tiring it is, the experience was incomparable. Plus, I learned a new water sport, bodyboarding! Honestly, I enjoyed this more than surfing. It was addicting! Seeing and riding with the experts inspired me a lot. I actually bought a board on my way home.

A perfect place to get a tan. Sunset was nice, really nice.

The Rafting. If your up for a real challenge, conquer the Telagawaja River White-Water Rafting. It's only the longest river in Bali which will give you 2.5 hrs of pure level 3 unpredictable rapid challenge, adrenalin rush and sore arms the next day. Awesome!

The Party. If we think we know how to party, we can think again! I got the pleasure to watch and learn. The place is called Bounty Discotheque. From the entrance, you can say that the place was a hit. Famous for their fishbowl drinks which are a variety of their own mix of cocktails, juice and beer. I tried Jam Jar, a gin mix and Bomba, a vodka mix. If you don't like the fishbowl you can settle with the tumblers which will give you the kick you're looking for. I got a Wendy Bear, a mix of everything. Here we have SMB, they have Bintang. A bottle will cost you a litter over a dollar.

Foam Nights till sunrise. With the drinks, I bet you can’t differentiate between the soap bubbles and the beer bubbles. So, be prepared but do try it, Bali style.

You may think it's weird to have an intermission number in a disco but they have that. A couple of go go dancers and muscle men will interrupt and perform at the stage all of a sudden.

Expectations here is key, you have to set it way high. Don't be alarm! Expect people from different races. Expect different cultures. Expect a lot of new things. Expect everything and more than everything. Cheers!

The Place. Bali is a sinful place for shopaholics. Shopping places are everywhere and prices are cheap. If you're looking for branded surf shops or dive shops for any gears and accessories or even clothing to match your water sport/activities, you can find it there and this time be able to buy. They are discounted from 50%-80% off, you will be buying from factory outlets so don't worry. Items can be returned and exchanged easily.

They have their version of "Divisoria" just within the streets of the resorts you will be staying. Same buying techniques are to be applied. Always ask 50% less or more items. Show minimal interest when looking. Don't be afraid to walk away, prices go lower when you do that. Cheap and Expensive is also "mahal and mura" in their language.

Resorts are everywhere too. Usual rooms are fit for a group of four(4) persons. Indonesians are nice and helpful people. We just have to understand that they are not so good with their english so try to be patient.

Everyone can be a millionaire in Bali. Their money value is low. 1 Indonesian Ruppiah = approx Php220 or $1 = 10,000 Indonesian Ruppiah. An exchange of $100 will make you an instant millionaire.

Food there is frustrating for pork lovers but best for those who love chicken. They have this famous rice called Nasi Goreng or Nasi Lemak, kinda spicy but taste good. Plain rice is non-existent.

Other places to go are temples, the volcano, rice terraces, the zoo and their batik and wood crafts.

Adventures like bungee jumping, funship cruise, island hopping, diving and others are also possible.

It's recommended to go to Bali for at least five(5) days with people who likes the same adventures as you do and a good trip provider like Travel Factor(wink).

This is why i fell in love with Bali. I'm sure you will too.