But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in
And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
*til we meet again on D-day.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
from john mayer
Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind
To tell you that I can't keep lovin' you, can't keep lovin' you
Oh, with half of my heart
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Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind
To tell you that I can't keep lovin' you, can't keep lovin' you
Oh, with half of my heart
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Saturday, August 07, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Sonnet XLIII
All days are nights to see till I see thee,
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee to me.
~William Shakespeare
And nights bright days when dreams do show thee to me.
~William Shakespeare
hanep! shume-shakespeare. haha!
Friday, June 25, 2010
we walk
today was a day made for walking. tiring. hot weather. lots of people. long roads. aching toes. wasted fare. wrong jeep. but in the end, and until now. still smiling. hehe.
we walk.
"People create their own questions because they are afraid to look straight. All you have to do is look straight and see the road, and when you see it, don't sit looking at it - walk." (Ayn Rand)
we walk.
"People create their own questions because they are afraid to look straight. All you have to do is look straight and see the road, and when you see it, don't sit looking at it - walk." (Ayn Rand)
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
im tired
i really wish this would be over. i wish i could just move on. ive had it with weighing things
over and over. im fed up about this waiting. im sick of these news. im working hard to make all the right moves and maybe, just maybe, i will. im trying to keep and maintain my gameface and im kinda loosing it too.
i dnt know what to do anymore. my head is getting filled with a lot of thinking things everyday and i want to stop it. im worried and im pretty sure to be confused. im floating empty. i want badly to win this war but i ain't sure if im the right soldier.
im really tired.
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over and over. im fed up about this waiting. im sick of these news. im working hard to make all the right moves and maybe, just maybe, i will. im trying to keep and maintain my gameface and im kinda loosing it too.
i dnt know what to do anymore. my head is getting filled with a lot of thinking things everyday and i want to stop it. im worried and im pretty sure to be confused. im floating empty. i want badly to win this war but i ain't sure if im the right soldier.
im really tired.
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010
i miss everyday
is it time? should i wake up from this sleep and get up? what if im not ready to get up? what if i dnt want to get up? what if im not sure how to pull myself and walk out that hall and start my day?
this is really hard for me, anyone must understand im not prepared for this. im not ready. im not the type of person who just move on from this. im not. i should be mature about this but then again im not. i know what's the right thing to do but i don't wanna do that. not just yet. im hanging. not moving. keeping busy with other things. i know, im being dramatic to even put myself in this situation. my problem is sadness, it kills me. i can't get away from it. i can't barely start to think about the worse things. i miss the times. i miss lunch. i miss dinner. i miss coffee. i miss the laugh. i miss the smile. i miss the fun. i miss everyday. it's only been two days and look at me. im weird.
im not good at goodbye's. if i can skipped it and fast forward myself in another reality, i will. somebody, handle this for me if it has to happen, when it happens. coz i can't. il cry and i can feel it.
so please, please, please.... let it not happen.
this is really hard for me, anyone must understand im not prepared for this. im not ready. im not the type of person who just move on from this. im not. i should be mature about this but then again im not. i know what's the right thing to do but i don't wanna do that. not just yet. im hanging. not moving. keeping busy with other things. i know, im being dramatic to even put myself in this situation. my problem is sadness, it kills me. i can't get away from it. i can't barely start to think about the worse things. i miss the times. i miss lunch. i miss dinner. i miss coffee. i miss the laugh. i miss the smile. i miss the fun. i miss everyday. it's only been two days and look at me. im weird.
im not good at goodbye's. if i can skipped it and fast forward myself in another reality, i will. somebody, handle this for me if it has to happen, when it happens. coz i can't. il cry and i can feel it.
so please, please, please.... let it not happen.
Friday, February 26, 2010
the late post
here i am. listening to Franco on my background with the boys playing Counterstrike and DOTA as always. with that, I felt like writing. I haven't made any update til Ondoy happened. anyway, i just had the urged to make a post. I do hope i would make a sense out of it. it's 10:45pm now.
what do i want to talk about now.. hmmm.. this is really a tough job.
last nyt, i thought i would create a post about "parents" and their wave of growing old. but then the moment has passed, i should have scribbled something last night. even a draft will do. the main point was... i think im being more mature than them nowadays and i dunno if that's just me or them. sometimes i dunno what's really harder to be them or to be me. sometimes i feel that as spontaneous we all can be sometimes and hard-headed, so they are, twice worse and will be in the coming years and age. im at that point that im easily irritated about them hovering around and breathing at the back of your neck like you're 5. i know, it's a little bit harsh. i know that it's just concern. believe me, i know the drill. im not being a problem child here, i just think that im looking into this in a different perspective and they just don't get it. not even a little. anyway, im not making a close point here so maybe some other time. :)
yesterday, i just started watching Glee. yes, laugh all you want. i like the show. i like musicals. what i really like about it are the songs and the dances. yes. i imagine myself being a part of something close to that. (and what's the problem in that?) i really wish to enter a workshop soon. nweiz, one good point i've heard... one lesson, one teacher from the series told her student. we can't complicate our life too much for something. we can't do that. we shouldn't do that. life is hard as it is. life is complicated as it is. but what do i always say?! "coz life is never complicated enough!" =) yes. kinda hard-headed, ain't i? but you know. where's the fun in not trying to complicate your life sometimes? of coarse, there are limits and boundaries. we do need to stop at one point or another but dnt fret, that will happen on its own. the heart wants what the heart wants. and like nike says it, just do it! :P
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this was a post that was suppose to be posted last 2/26/10, 10:45PM. haha! i've got nothing better to do now (i logged on the net for the last 5 mins and i dunno what i really wanna do), then i found myself looking for my blog. and here it is.. posting some of my drafts. maybe later, il have the initiative to post some of my overdue pictures. gosh! sometimes, being at home is hard. haha!
what do i want to talk about now.. hmmm.. this is really a tough job.
last nyt, i thought i would create a post about "parents" and their wave of growing old. but then the moment has passed, i should have scribbled something last night. even a draft will do. the main point was... i think im being more mature than them nowadays and i dunno if that's just me or them. sometimes i dunno what's really harder to be them or to be me. sometimes i feel that as spontaneous we all can be sometimes and hard-headed, so they are, twice worse and will be in the coming years and age. im at that point that im easily irritated about them hovering around and breathing at the back of your neck like you're 5. i know, it's a little bit harsh. i know that it's just concern. believe me, i know the drill. im not being a problem child here, i just think that im looking into this in a different perspective and they just don't get it. not even a little. anyway, im not making a close point here so maybe some other time. :)
yesterday, i just started watching Glee. yes, laugh all you want. i like the show. i like musicals. what i really like about it are the songs and the dances. yes. i imagine myself being a part of something close to that. (and what's the problem in that?) i really wish to enter a workshop soon. nweiz, one good point i've heard... one lesson, one teacher from the series told her student. we can't complicate our life too much for something. we can't do that. we shouldn't do that. life is hard as it is. life is complicated as it is. but what do i always say?! "coz life is never complicated enough!" =) yes. kinda hard-headed, ain't i? but you know. where's the fun in not trying to complicate your life sometimes? of coarse, there are limits and boundaries. we do need to stop at one point or another but dnt fret, that will happen on its own. the heart wants what the heart wants. and like nike says it, just do it! :P
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this was a post that was suppose to be posted last 2/26/10, 10:45PM. haha! i've got nothing better to do now (i logged on the net for the last 5 mins and i dunno what i really wanna do), then i found myself looking for my blog. and here it is.. posting some of my drafts. maybe later, il have the initiative to post some of my overdue pictures. gosh! sometimes, being at home is hard. haha!