ok, let's get this over with.
i really think Sir and i had that thing. that special thing where you say it's nothing but you can't explain it. so it's not nothing. and it's not ordinary.
of coarse, i cannot guarantee his side
on this but all the things we shared says
otherwise. it felt otherwise. at the very least for me.
but then nothing concrete really happen. he disappeared. i was left.
i can remember our momments. our conversations. momments that i feel strongly about that deserves a continuation of some sorts. i had a list of things i wanted us to do together. yeah, in a middle of the complicated situation i want to put him in, my only concern was a list. also, i made him a mixed tape. i really think he would like it.
the list. the tape. he never got to see it. he never got to hear it. i always tend to think i didn't give him enough reason to choose in my favor. but then again, maybe he just really didn't want to.
so, that's that.
