unofficial

im titling this post as summary and then said wait.. kinda cliche mind not be catchy... run wordweb and typed "summary", under similar i have concise and unofficial... hmmm... u know what word won... is it better? anyway...

its a hot weekend, im havin (if ur not feeling it) i feel like my body is always in heat... (now, dnt think of anything else) nweiz, u know i hate heat... too much heat.... like i said before.. bad things happen when i feel too much heat. (and i dnt wna discuss that right now)

i didn't clean the house this time, unlike the last two. too warm to do anything complicated. saturday, i bid a few or maybe a number of people gud morning... my exact messaage was... "Mornin! have a b-e-a-utiful saturday!" Ü am i sweet or what?! haha! i just had a nyc slyp... and wanted to greet friends... somebody replied... "mas maganda ka pa sa mornin"... huwaw! un lng nasabi ko.. di mapagilang damdamin.... but thanks! had me smilin'... Ü

since im still fond of the dsl line, im now addicted to torrents... album per album lng ang download... aliw! any requests? here are my finished ones:
1. bossa samba - hotdog remakes
2. bossa nova - sophie
3. bossa n rosses - sixth finger
4. konvicted - akon
5. 20 y o - janet jackson
6. street love - lloyd
7. in my own words - neyo
8. the evolution of robin - robin thicke
9. late night special - pretty ricky
10. 21 - omarion
11. once again - john legend (currrent favorite)
12. the best of brandy - brandy
13. between friends - tamia

any suggestions? Ü

sunday. woke up becoz of the continuing heat..... watch asap, read bob ong's book: a b n k k b s n p l a k... search for free hosting sites for the biz... cooked food.. (luncheon meat and cornbeef) yeh, pang-breakfast na nman.. bat ba?!! as i was reading... i read about FLAMES, so got curious and tried it... tried it for 2 names, haha! ayos! one resulted to Love then the other is Marriage. huwaw! then i read astrology... browse over our signs... just one, (i dnt know the other) incompatible. tells me that we were worse match. unbelievable? believe it! haha! he's the guy from 102 post --- i think they are general facts.. so, im gna follow the stars... this will help!
nweiz, Aries are my best match.. hmmm... and i dnt know anyone from this sign... Ü

afternoon, still in heat.. since we have no cable up until now, i settled myself in watching "Don't Give Up On Us" by Piolo Pascual and Judy Ann Santos. yep, this is the movie with the famous line, "kung mgkakasala ka ngaun, pwede ka bang mgkasala with me..." hahaha! whirlwind romance story.... gwapo ni papa P!

i already finished Mystery Case Files: Ravenhearst! yahuj! next: huntsville titanic.
wala na kong mgawa ngaun, eto ngbblog... mmya wala na rin ako ulit ggwin.. Ü after ko pindutin ang "publish" button, tignan ang blog... wala na.. wala.

on a green morning

i saw this mv and heard this song.. i didn't cry... maybe someday when there is perfect timing.. what's a green morning anyways? but sounds perfect... even i didn't understand.. i knew it will give meaning.

konna ni tsumetai tobari no fukaku de
anata wa hitori de nemutteru
inori no utagoe sabishii nohara wo
chiisana hikari ga terashiteta

In the cold depths behind the curtain,

You sleep alone.

The melodious voices of prayer,

Shines a tiny light onto the lonely fields.

anata no yume wo miteta

kodomo no youni waratteta

natsukashiku mada tooku

sore wa mirai no yakusoku

I had a dream of you,

You were laughing like a child.

Familiar yet distant,

That is the future's promise.

itsuka midori no asa ni

itsuka tadoritsukeru to

fuyugareta kono sora wo

shinjiteiru kara

Fields of hope

Someday on a green morning,

Someday I will get there,

Because I believe In this desolate winter sky.

Fields of hope

umarete kita hi ni dakishimete kureta

yasashii ano te wo sagashiteru

inori no utagoe hitotsu kiete mata hajimaru

tayorinaku setsunaku tsudzuku

I'm searching for those gentle hands,

That embraced me the day I was born.

A single voice of prayer disappears,

And I start again, continuing tryingly by myself.

itsuka midori no asa e

subete no yoru wo koete

sore wa tada hitorizu

tsumitsukete yuku basho dakara

Someday moving towards a green morning,

I will overcome the nights,

Because that is a place

That I have to find alone.

ima ga tada kono mune de

anata wo atatameta

inatsukashiku mada tooi

yasuragi no tame ni

Fields of hope

For now, I just want to

Warm you with my chest.

Familiar yet distant,

The tranquility we strive for.

Fields of hope

natsukashiku mada tooi

yakusoku no nohara

Fields of hope

Fields of hope

Familiar yet distant,

The promised fields.

Fields of hope

Fields of hope

-- Fields of Hope, Rie Tanaka

102

well, how about that? i didn't even realize that i reached my 102 post... today. been waiting on 100.. and yet i missed it. haha!

so, this post shouldn't be drama ryt? this shouldn't be anything too cheezy.. so,let's try controversial... haha!

remember this post:
now, here's a sercret il share the world.. i had a dream.. a weird dream.. u know the F.R.I.E.N.D.S episode where Rachel dreamt of doing it with Chandler... yeh... like that! (geez, this is embarassing.. world, eat me!) i just want to get it over with my head.. so this might help... nweiz, so.. like that episode.. in a room.. i mean.. waa... a! e! i! no way that could happen.. i didn't started it but i didn't stop it.. (waaah! mean! bad!) nothing against the guy.. he's a nyc guy... but!! but..... but... speechless. shock. overwhelmed. okay so, the dream sequence ended! but continued...we go out... we were havin fun, i was really happy and smilin.. grabe hanggang panaginip bungisngis! nkkhiya naman ako.. we were sweet... and were doin' ok..... how did that happen? anong year kaya dun sa dream?! after sometime i woke up and i still can't help thinkin that i had that dream... is it me?! they say dreams are your subconscious catching up on you... its in my subconscious?!! demm! there's a lot that of other things i want to be in there but y is that there?! im still tryin to go figure... maybe in a few days il know... wink*

well, i have been having dreams again lately... kinda repetitive actually... nothing new for the last days.... imagin bein stuck on an island... yep.. like castaways.. this time, its the two of us. so, if ever a question came to me: who do you imagine urself with if to be stuck on an island? --- i know now! (sigh! those eyes... makes me quiet and then those wannabe antics makes me smile.... dem! im nuts! i dnt know what im saying... im insane! rege,snap out of it!) i dunno if these dreams are still funny and happy or sad and bothering as it prolongs... frnds dnt do this to each other... im a very bad person... i should worry coz that's what i do best and i am gettin worried... i keep myself busy with something else to get it out of my head... remember, i did a poem... or something... (haha!) i asked God to divert me... looks like its not working and im failing to help myself either... dem! im a confused person.

seriously... i want to stop thinkin about it... im feelin what's happenin is not a good idea and most of the time im right about these things... coz i know me. i dnt share much of that side of me.. a few people may figure this out.. but hey, tao lng! i know.. here we go again, ryt? na naman? oo na! oo na! lam ko. lilipas din to'. matatapos din. mgsasawa din. say it with me: "its just a phase" wink* ---- just smile and walk away, yes.. that's what il do. aja!

eto kanta tyo: since island castaways ang theme..

She calls out to the man on the street
"Sir, can you help me?"
It's cold and I've no where to sleep
Is there somewhere you can tell me?
He walks on, doesn't look back
He pretends he can't hear her
starts to whistle as he crosses the street
Seems embarrassed to be there
Oh, think twice, cause it's another day for you
And me in paradise
Oh, think twice, cause it's another day for you
You and me in paradise
She calls out to the man on the street
He can see she's been crying (yeah)
She's got blisters on the soles of her feet
She can't walk but she's trying
Oh, think twice, cause it's another day for you
And me in paradise
Oh, think twice, cause it's another day for you
You and me in paradise (you and me in paradise , just think about it)
Oh Lord, is there nothing more anybody can do
Oh Lord, there must be something you can say
You can tell from the lines on her face
You can see that she's been there
she's Probably been moved on from every place
Cause she didn't fit in there
Oh, think twice, 'cause it's just another day for
and me in paradise
Oh, think twice, 'cause It's just another day for you,
You and me in paradise (yeah)
Just think about it , tyink about it
It's just another day for you and me, Paradise
It's just another day for you and me, Paradise
It's just another day for you and me, Paradise (just think about it)

-- Another Day in Paradise, Brandy


nga pla... congratulations to me. certified blogger approved. =)

are THEY made?

you believe in fairy tales? my mind has been clouded by THEY for the past weeks.. not bitter about it, not unhappy bout it.. just curious of the question. damn! sometimes when i get into drama, i get carried away...very well, movin on..
i have been asking myself this question: are they made? my mind has been battling this question long enough i can't even remember when it started. because, i want to know... if they are, how? how are they made? can i order? can i ask? Last Sunday, the priest told us, we did not need to bother God to ask for things he should not be answering... but i always did that.. i always ask... though i also say sorry... i just wnna know.. i can't help myself to know.... coz i want THEY. can i make it to THEY. what is THEY? (later.... Ü) a formula maybe, is there? just add water? i dnt know if everything in this world is by choice or by chance... is it fate or destiny? and are we just fulfilling that? if that's the case then the answer to my question is no. you can't change it? is it a phase we all we'll have? i wanna hear me say: its inevitable... --- i dnt really know.

if everything is by choice then the answer is yes. maybe it really is. movies, korean-novelas, soaps, plays, books, others.. why do we always know how it ends? the main end.. 80? 90%? it ends in THEY. over and over.. we know it. why? and how it ends that way? the script; the writer; the director; the people voted.. we want it.... we made it... or He made it for us.. THEY are made... but are they really? isn't that those are created based on reality? ok maybe not really... not 101% i should know i write too.. i write about a lot of things, about me or not me. a feelin. a thought. anything from real..

you watch a series.. you see yourself in one of the characters --- because you like it so much,
you try to put yourself in one.. (could be) --- because you it really is you in one ways or another. i know we always like to read and write about things we often relate to, sing in songs declared to be our personal anthems and give advices to our friends coz we did it a few times... hey! been there, done that right? nweiz, but unlike what you saw from that screen and far from what you've read you have different endings.... and the means doesn't justified the end.... then a sad reality. reality, checked! like black girls say it, "damn girl! wake up! of course! its a movie... you're not cinderella, girl" "you feelin me, girl? you understand?" (hahaha! ok stop!) like fairy tales that were told to us when we were kids, they all ended with that line.. "happily ever after" they always do that, don't they? maybe its for kids. just for kids. but y not? everyone deserves it.

im watching this series that i really can relate to... seriously. i tried to made a research on the ending and like what i thought it ended the same way... yeh,we had different endings. we made diff choices in between so we made diff endings. now im telling myself, i could've change it. could. and i could tell my grand daughters that that was my story but no.. regret is the ending i chose then. in our relationships, whatever it maybe... we hope for it (THEY). don't we? when things get bad, we get scared. we worry. we stop. we like to feel it.. we like to know. i like to know... to look forward. to get excited. to be thrilled. its everywhere. its around us.. we see it everyday. we celebrate it everytime..

fairy tales or not... for me,we write our own story. i want one.. im gonna try hard everyday to make one.. someday ul hear about it... we write our own ending. happy endings are made. ask yourself, are they?

"The surest way to be miserable is to have the leisure to wonder whether or not you are happy" -- George Bernard Shaw

what would make me leave the philippines?

1. when i see my family not able to fulfill their dreams
2. when i see my sister settling out alone in another country to save
3. when i see my father with an empty pocket
4. when i see my mommy use her personal savings for food
5. when i won't be able to shoulder enough the responsibilities i have

ang drama noh... well... tough times. i dnt really wanna go, in fact i dnt want my sister to go... i dnt like the reason that she's there.. whenever i think of it, it makes me cry... my tito, told us y we did let her? if before i dunno the answers, i know now..

ey, does anyone have that original email article, the one that a "chinese" guy wrote.. hehe.. just wna read.. he's right!

sniff sniff

sa bahay... no bebii no...

sa kotse.. wag na lng bebii...

si pachengcheng, cute!

kiss bebii.. wag iwan ate...

ang sad.. somebody hug me. bebii nooo! haaay....

lag

knina, pauwi ako... sa bus naisip ko... bat nga ba ngkkamali ang tao? bago man o parehas na bagay... ngkakamali pa rin? eto ang ilang SAGOT PINOY (labong sagot) na pumasok sa isip ko:

a. dahil isa pa! isa pa!
b. its lovelier the second time around
c. try and try until you succeed
d. ksi lht ng masama ay masarap
e. ..sa uulitin!
f. time is gold
g. the more the merrier
h. if u can't beat them, join them...
i. be one of us
j. tara let's tara! tara! tara let's!

bat ko naisip? di ko rin alam... Ü

syempre ito ay isa sa mga post na hinde ko na naman na-post.. hehe... drafts pa ito last tuesday.. mgttuesday na ulit... hehehe...

di ko na natapos dahil nawalan na ko net... pinaka-cut ko na ang unlimited ko pra mgswitch to dsl... Bayantel skyDSL phone plus package only Php 1,200.00. Nweiz, bat ba ako ngexplain?