huwaaat?!

mornin...

facts:
its 23 minutes pass 12. wednesday na... its 3 days before saturday including today. what's saturday? i have to leave by saturday more or less... to where? to a far away place called Chicago. when did i got the news? monday afternoon.. so what happened? HR emailed an urgent meeting at the resource room and they decided that we leave saturday.. haha! Client's email expects us this july 21. what we'll do there? project. how long? mga 4mos at least.

violent reactions:
prang kanto lng a.. prang ngkayayaan lng e... prang isang linggong getaway lng.. sh*t! im not prepared...... in every aspect you can think of. everything. pucha! ewan ko. i was speechless and overwhelmed the whole time HR was talking. di ata tinatanggap nung brain ko ung naririnig ng tenga ko.. di ko ma-compile e.. ayaw tlga. seconds after i tried repeating what just happened and kept telling myself im going away. pro wala pa rin.... then my head started hurting as in! sobra! migraine! aaaaaah! gs2 kong sumigaw! kinailangan ko ng kausap... look at the time, it was 4pm.. i thought of shen, sakto break nya.. sent her ym and ask what to do? sabi nya: "eh di ok!" hehhee.... not was i expecting. so move on to next person and same reaction. damn! ganun lng ba tlga kadali umalis? i can't really explain how confuse i was and how irritated and bothered i am yesterday..... i felt like my head was thinking too much and i can't stop it. im not prepared to do this... and that's all that was in my head..... ugh..... i needed a break... i asked my new friends to get some air sa 9th na nauwi sa isang yayaan sa movie. yes! just what i needed.

non-violent reactions:
i get a hold of myself after the movie. we watched Mamma Mia. grabe! ok na ko... hehehhee.... on my way home, on the bus i tried to think clearly, of the pros and cons. there is really no problem to go away... wag lng sana this saturday... it's too soon... i wanted to celebrate my birthday here first.. lapit na un e... di ba pwede intayin? pano na ung mga plano? tsk tsk... ung mga movie dates ko... pano na un? ang dami pa nman ganda palabas... (malaking factor tlga e noh?) i didn't get the chance to go out with my antico berks last fri, e di sna nakasama na lng pla ko.. wala nman kmi ginawa ng family.. e di sna meron na lng... pucha na yan! ay non-violent nga pla to.. sorrii... erase. nweiz, its a nyc oppurtunity.... i have to admit that.... i can save... i can see chicago. sarap d b? i can get a break from studies, kung kelan nman sineseryoso ko na.. ma-momove pa tuloy.. sana hinde kc this weekend e...

present reactions:
we are currently waiting for the client's confirmation on "the list" to push ung saturday and it's killing me.. prang bitay sa deathrow... ang tagal. di ako mapakali.. di ako mapanatag.. haha! ayoko ng gan2...

my new friends were there... they supported us in accepting reality by making the best out of the days left that we are together.. hehe... technically, a day together na lng.. 2 days including ung yesterday. di na kc kumpleto by thu-fri kc sm1 has to go to subic.. hehe. bati tyo. di pa kmi aabot sa dark knight movie nyt ng monday.. aaww mas sad. sayang ticket. haays... we are planning something today pra huling hirit.. i just dunno where we'll go..... dun naman kmi magaling e.. biglaan.

so there, i hate this waiting... pano if friday na.. i dnt really know what to do.. 4mos at least or kht less pa, lalo na if more(wag nman) is long enuf for me to miz everyone.. hinde ako magaling sa gan2 mga bagay.. i get lonely and sad... i know ang big deal ko pro ganun e... kaya mgbuild na daw ng memories(ang lalem! ang drama!) and try to just deal with it sabi nila... deal with it, reg. haha!

be spontaneous. so spontaneous dapat magawa ko lht... looking forward to a busy yet super fun rest of the week....

:D