is it time? should i wake up from this sleep and get up? what if im not ready to get up? what if i dnt want to get up? what if im not sure how to pull myself and walk out that hall and start my day?
this is really hard for me, anyone must understand im not prepared for this. im not ready. im not the type of person who just move on from this. im not. i should be mature about this but then again im not. i know what's the right thing to do but i don't wanna do that. not just yet. im hanging. not moving. keeping busy with other things. i know, im being dramatic to even put myself in this situation. my problem is sadness, it kills me. i can't get away from it. i can't barely start to think about the worse things. i miss the times. i miss lunch. i miss dinner. i miss coffee. i miss the laugh. i miss the smile. i miss the fun. i miss everyday. it's only been two days and look at me. im weird.
im not good at goodbye's. if i can skipped it and fast forward myself in another reality, i will. somebody, handle this for me if it has to happen, when it happens. coz i can't. il cry and i can feel it.
so please, please, please.... let it not happen.
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