"obsessing"

here i am "obssesing" with an idea
a selfish idea for me
i look at myself and ask why
can't stop that grin on my face
i know the words
but i can't seem to push myself to say it
i feel this because it's wrong
i know it is
but who am i to judge myself?
who am i to stop myself?
if i do, i don't know what would that really mean
to me, it's hurt. it's loneliness. it's sad.
words, just words that as it is starts the real meaning in your head.
what more if i feel it?
do i want that?
do i deserve that?
i dreamed to be happy
and maybe this is a long painful shot to make it come true
or in the end, it really won't
who knows?
the heart wants what the heart wants
(until it hearts another)



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