lonely day

people get weird around you whenever you post something sad and emo.
(a short commercial)
phone is ringing, hmm.. don't wanna answer. sorry.
(and we're back)
your friends will ask you, are you ok? what's happening?
funny.
but sincerely appreciate it.
sorry but im not commenting on this issue. haha.
im a very private person. depending on the topic.
thanks guys, il be fine.
hugs and kisses.
we have our off days and today, i got mine.
i knew it when i got up.
this is going to be a tough day. i say.
hopefully, not until tomorrow.
there's a lot of work, so it's fairly easy to be busy and get myself distracted.
yet seriously hard to stay focus.
and get over it.
of coarse, im still human.
i rest. i stop. i pause. i even took a nap.
try to have my silent moments and try not to burst into tears all by myself (bcoz it's just weird)
but im not building a wall to stop myself from crying.
it's my party and il cry if i want to. cry, if i want to.
because i do believe that tears ran dry.
i just have to wait, like waiting for a bus to get home.
yah, that's the game plan.
come sunrise, it's june.

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"Everybody knows that something's wrong
But nobody knows what's going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shaping up to be a lonely day

I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was gonna be a lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely day"

secret

everyone has a secret or secrets.
why do we keep 'em is also a secret.
from who.. is again, a secret.

i have secrets.
some, i don't know why im still keeping.
some, i don't know why i did.
some, i know that will forever be kept.
some, i wanted to be known.

you have secrets.
some, i don't know why you're hiding.
some, i don't know why you did.
some, i know that i won't know.
some, i secretly managed to know.

then i wish i don't know. i don't wanna know.
secrets were made so that there are things not within our knowledge.
better try not to ask and question why?
and don't try to be curious.

stop!

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Pakilala mo nman ako.

Kamukha mo si Papa P, Papa P (Ding Dong)
P Papa P, Papa P
P Papa P, Papa P (Dingdong)

(ang korni ko! shet!)

sabi nga ni Ben Diesel:

"Mga hinde tao, kasi bagay." -- (ktv + poker)

nakatali

watchatink?

1:43AM

Baby I’m Yours, Arctic Monkeys.

I’ll be yours until the sun no longer shines
Yours until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time

sabi nga ni mr. ramon bautista:
so what kung binibigyan ko ng ibig sabihin yung mga maliliit na bagay tulad nyan hihi

good to know

i like that you write on notebooks.

i picture you smiling as you write your thoughts down.

or maybe just grinning or with a serious face,

with brows down and your left hand covering your mouth,

leaning maybe on the left-side of your chair and staring at the computer.

i like hearing about your dreams, your plans, and maybe your 5 year plans. (that was a surprise!)

i like that sometimes even it's too late you still have the energy to talk about them.

i would want to see you fulfill them one by one. step by step. (maybe, with me)

i like it when i think no one can stop you from the chain of idea you're currently thinking about.

not even when i open up a new topic.

i like how you can explore every detail in a concept that i thought was simple.

or maybe you saw something significant to something that didn't matter to me.

i like it most when i don't get you.

because you have no choice but to explain. (then i learn from you)

i like encouraging your dreams because even if sometimes they are weird,

classic and funny, at least you tried.

i like that sometimes i feel that you want to change the world with your ideas

and make the big difference --- what a mind job!

i like that you fail to maintain a non-geeky conversation all-the-time.

i like that you entertain my endless, sometimes pointless questions and my long story explanations. (im really sorry)

i like the way i know you, and i can write here a lot more.

yet they may say little about the typical things and a lot of bits and pieces of everything else

from stories you told or a conversation we had or an observation i made...

it's good to know that i know.

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sa panahon ngayon uso na ang larong sweet sweetan.

ang unang ma-inlove.

TALO...

i avoided friday because im still lost with some answers and questions. in return i got my summer. took my alone time and think about the last phone conversation. then today, i saw a picture. sometimes, even i know it's wrong. i don't wanna be me. i wanted to be someone else. that might sound deep and serious but no. i just want to know what it's like to be her. it's bad to compare but i think it's normal that i do. it's history vs. chemistry. maybe age. maybe religion. and friends, family. familiarity. importantly, a relationship. still i like to believe that i will win this maybe by a miracle who knows? i know even before i started that i never should have tried playing this game.. but, that didn't work.

(ang tigas lang ng ulo ko, nababaliw na ko)