a series of unfortunate events

last night and this morning, i confirmed something i don't understand.

how it happened? how it began?

but honestly i don't care how

i just wanted to know why?!?

why?!? 

why do people hurt the ones they love?

why of all the people that you know

those the ones closest to you will be the one to do the major lies

or betray you

why do they do that?

i think the reason is easier for lovers, they aren't happy anymore. it is hard, i know that. but i'll get that and i'll take that reason.

but what if it's family?

what could possibly be a valid reason that earned their right to ignore your

significance?
that you needed them

maybe they thought you won't mind, right?
that whatever happens you'll forgive

then when you correct them, they'll just tell you, you're being righteous

then if you speak your heart, they'll just tell you... you're full of drama

well... nevermind how you feel

everybody changes sh*t!!! 

whatever it is, you don't do that to family.

and what if it's one of your best friends?

now, you need to question that friendship and review yourself.. 

all the things you shared and did

together

why would someone not consider all that?

i need to find the whys...

i need to understand.

the lucky ones

some people have to choose between choice A or B

lucky are those who have this privilege

some people find this hard

some people just give up

some people just wanted to have the chance to choose 

some people just wanted to have someone to bring them coffee when they want to

infinite crisis

lately when i wake up

get out of bed

take my breakfast 

nothing really comes to mind

what to do today

where to go

who to be

like i don't want to be me

i use to have a reason

all people have a why

but i think im missing mine

ultimate bucket list

if tomorrow even by a miracle i become a mother.
i will be really happy. happiest maybe.
i know its crazy but i always have that feeling in me.
so, i don't get why some chooses not to be one.
sometimes for some people, not ever. how can they even say that?
i will never understand
i have this inner confidence that i can do it
you may not believe me but you're not me
its like a voice telling me that i can
i do feel that i will be good at it
i don't even think that it will be hard
even i know it is
im not scared
but im excited for everyday
i also know that it is life changing
but that is a change that i'll be more than happy to go through
more than once, for sure
it will be my ultimate bucket list

ok, i know its cheesy.. but twins would be best. haha.

of coarse.. a husband and a wedding would also be nice.

must be love on the brain

I came to know this song pretty late in the game, heard in from the radio today.
Such a beautiful song, full of emotions.
Speaks to your feelings. Best for those unexplainable ones.
Love is supposedly just what your heart wants but sometimes its more than that...
must be Love on the Brain
To the one that got away... sir, this is for you (haha)

Love on the Brain

And you got me like oh
What you want from me?
What you want from me?
And I tried to buy your pretty heart, but the price too high
Baby you got me like oh, mm
You love when I fall apart (fall apart)
So you can put me together
And throw me against the wall

Baby you got me like ah, woo, ah
Don't you stop loving me (loving me)
Don't quit loving me (loving me)
Just start loving me (loving me), babe

Oh, and babe I'm fist fighting with fire
Just to get close to you
Can we burn something babe?
And I run for miles just to get a taste
Must be love on the brain
That's got me feeling this way
It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain, yeah
And it keeps cursing my name (cursing my name)
No matter what I do
I'm no good without you
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain

Then you keep loving me
Just love me, yeah
Just love me
All you need to do is love me yeah
Got me like ah-ah-ah-ow
I'm tired of being played like a violin
What do I gotta do to get in your motherfuckin' heart?

Baby like ah, woo, ah
Don't you stop loving me (loving me)
Don't quit loving me (loving me)
Just start loving me (loving me), babe

Oh, and babe I'm fist fighting with fire
Just to get close to you
Can we burn something babe?
And I run for miles just to get a taste
Must be love on the brain
That's got me feeling this way
It beats me black and blue but it fucks me so good
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain
And it keeps cursing my name (cursing my name)
No matter what I do
I'm no good without you
And I can't get enough
Must be love on the brain