what do we do

G: so.. what do we do now that we've done the things we spent our entire life doing?
B: i guess, we do the next thing we'll spend our entire lifetime.

it is the ultimate question, isn't it?
what do we do?
what is the next thing?
because we gotta believe there's gotta be.

we gotta believe. just like the song. haha.
onward and upward.

gun fight

i don't know what i'm doing
i'm staring at this screen for a long time now
i'm trying to pour my thoughts so i can get over it
throw some feelings.. para maubos
yesterday, i didn't do anything
and the days before that
and i'm feeling.. also today and the next days
not that i don't have anything to do
i just don't get the sense that i need to
why? why bother?
i did make time for Mr. O'brien
he makes me happy since ever
i'm not liking my teammates these days
i want this project over
i'm starting a new one soon
that would require discipline and a constant routine
i know it's helpful for me
but...
really...
why? why do this again?
i'm tired playing the part
i feel that i've worked hard enough to change it or not change it a few times
but it feels like it wasn't up to me or it was never up to me
looking back, don't i deserve a little saving and happiness, something new?
i'm not sure how to explain that further
so dear somebody, tell me what to do.
i'm in gun fight and i'm all out.

donna vs paula

donna is someone he calls when he needs someone
someone he makes interesting conversation with
someone who inspires him he can make it
someone who know puts him first, no matter what

paula is someone who seems right for him
she loves him, he looks like he loves her
she's good with his family, good with his friends
she's loving and dedicated

so.. 
i don't know who will win.
i don't know who i'd rather wanna be in.

but..
i know who i was in.
i know who already won.