are THEY made?

you believe in fairy tales? my mind has been clouded by THEY for the past weeks.. not bitter about it, not unhappy bout it.. just curious of the question. damn! sometimes when i get into drama, i get carried away...very well, movin on..
i have been asking myself this question: are they made? my mind has been battling this question long enough i can't even remember when it started. because, i want to know... if they are, how? how are they made? can i order? can i ask? Last Sunday, the priest told us, we did not need to bother God to ask for things he should not be answering... but i always did that.. i always ask... though i also say sorry... i just wnna know.. i can't help myself to know.... coz i want THEY. can i make it to THEY. what is THEY? (later.... Ü) a formula maybe, is there? just add water? i dnt know if everything in this world is by choice or by chance... is it fate or destiny? and are we just fulfilling that? if that's the case then the answer to my question is no. you can't change it? is it a phase we all we'll have? i wanna hear me say: its inevitable... --- i dnt really know.

if everything is by choice then the answer is yes. maybe it really is. movies, korean-novelas, soaps, plays, books, others.. why do we always know how it ends? the main end.. 80? 90%? it ends in THEY. over and over.. we know it. why? and how it ends that way? the script; the writer; the director; the people voted.. we want it.... we made it... or He made it for us.. THEY are made... but are they really? isn't that those are created based on reality? ok maybe not really... not 101% i should know i write too.. i write about a lot of things, about me or not me. a feelin. a thought. anything from real..

you watch a series.. you see yourself in one of the characters --- because you like it so much,
you try to put yourself in one.. (could be) --- because you it really is you in one ways or another. i know we always like to read and write about things we often relate to, sing in songs declared to be our personal anthems and give advices to our friends coz we did it a few times... hey! been there, done that right? nweiz, but unlike what you saw from that screen and far from what you've read you have different endings.... and the means doesn't justified the end.... then a sad reality. reality, checked! like black girls say it, "damn girl! wake up! of course! its a movie... you're not cinderella, girl" "you feelin me, girl? you understand?" (hahaha! ok stop!) like fairy tales that were told to us when we were kids, they all ended with that line.. "happily ever after" they always do that, don't they? maybe its for kids. just for kids. but y not? everyone deserves it.

im watching this series that i really can relate to... seriously. i tried to made a research on the ending and like what i thought it ended the same way... yeh,we had different endings. we made diff choices in between so we made diff endings. now im telling myself, i could've change it. could. and i could tell my grand daughters that that was my story but no.. regret is the ending i chose then. in our relationships, whatever it maybe... we hope for it (THEY). don't we? when things get bad, we get scared. we worry. we stop. we like to feel it.. we like to know. i like to know... to look forward. to get excited. to be thrilled. its everywhere. its around us.. we see it everyday. we celebrate it everytime..

fairy tales or not... for me,we write our own story. i want one.. im gonna try hard everyday to make one.. someday ul hear about it... we write our own ending. happy endings are made. ask yourself, are they?

"The surest way to be miserable is to have the leisure to wonder whether or not you are happy" -- George Bernard Shaw