ditto

u dnt know me... i dnt actually really know you... i know ur story... i know its really none of my bussiness and its even weird to write about it... but i wanted too... its pretty obvious ur struggling with the situation, i can almost read what's on ur mind. ur sad about it, mad about it. i know... sure i know... not exactly been there, but i've been where u are now. it does sucks isn't it? to feel like and pretend like as if there's nothing there, just like that. could hold it up but not really. u know what i mean? like the quote from the previous post and just how much u hide it, it shows... Ö

i saw you so happy maybe thinkin that's the only chance for somethin real... u did had it. we saw the smiles. u conveyed the feeling so well. that was right! we were happy for you and it was all that too with her. you risk it all and this is what u get. sometimes, ul really hate fate for it huh? (y? y me?) or you could just hate her... haha! she said, she gave you a lot of respect for everything. she assured that she'll be there... sad, she even cried that. Ö

everything right now is really hard for you coz all you were left to do is to the right thing. yes, the right thing. (damn!) not ur choice but what can u do? ur not saying much but we can see every silenced reaction. keepin urself busy. that really works! wish we meet someday. wish we could talk bout that or you have somebody else to let it out sometimes, or NOT! it even sticks to you more as you think about it. yah, i hate her now... if i was just her.... id be a happy girl. Ü