can u blame me?

i just did something stupid today.. i was really not myself and i hate it! hate it!

i lost my proxy card.
i left my watch. i really hate it when i forget my watch. i feel lacking.
something's wrong with me today.
a bit paranoid too.
of the question that im debating to question. (whaat?!)
it's that kinda day where im tryin to not be bothered...
of the many things that plays inside this twisted brain. (geez!)
i have this fear.
imagining it makes me numb.
to whoever is in charge i ask, please spare me.
i am too weak. i can't do this again. i just can't. (deep pare!)
i feel really lazy.
im suppose to be bibo but i wasn't and i didn't even think twice about it. go on, tell me whatever you want....
the type of day when i just felt like singing something from Boyzone. (hey, im a BSB fan!)

the moment compelled me to watch a love story called Tristan and Isolde (hahaha! what a great idea!!! am i genius or what?!)
someone told me.. the tagline was: before Romeo and Juliet there was Tristan and Isolde.....
(so are we watching this or not?!!)

and so i started.... really excited.
took a while before the potential love story begin.... i was too anxious to know how would it start.
then they're story began.... it was played out nice. not too dramatic or overly shallow. the scenes was just right.
the shocking twist.... it got me. darn!!! i can't believe it. it was torture!!!!!!!
the ending.... i wouldn't give it away. as much as my heart wants to share and pour out every emotion i had. (go! download and watch.)

"Something more than duty and death!
Why are we capable of feelings if not to have them?
Why long for things if they are not meant to be ours?
Well don't listen to me.
You're so sure of things.
You're certainty, it's like armour.
I wish I had that."

hellboy II

i just watched the movie with my family at home. i never knew Abe could be so cheezy but it was cute and funny. we all know Red was cheezy the last time. i like the thought that they were even drinking beers while singing it. really got drunk too. i like this song... this also goes to my top faves.

c'mon everybody now...... hahahaha!

Chorus

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you


o shit! i got a zit. ugh. >.<

mukang guilty again

tell me, can you just forget a particular person from your class? embarrassingly, i just did. it's just 4 years ago. i can't seem to forgive myself for forgetting. we were even close during my first year in high school and i did this horrible thing. im really sorry. i can't even say anything more than that. in my lamest defense, i was busy with org. busy with thesis, i guess. busy with my own group or i was always missing when original A's(kmi) bonds with original B's(sila) due to my other activities in life. we had different barkadas. but i should've still remembered. i know we were in the same batch and took the same course. i was just 100% convinced that we didn't had the chance to be classmates. and my last memory was really frm 12yrs ago. hahahaha! soz tlga! i almost ask earth to swallow me. of all my classmates i chose to have this selective memory gap on her. i mean seriously, mukang guilty tlga. zero(0) memory?!! not one conversation that i can think of. gosh! how could i? i swear, i didn't do this on purpose. in the end, when i already ran out of logical reasons.. i wanted to think that there is a bigger explanation why but il rather keep that to myself. hehe. magaling! magaling! magaling nman kc reg e.... you're so forgetful. (i did remember one instance that we were really classmates before we part ways, so medyo bumawi ako.... ok na un)

strike 3! im out. coach, should i face the wall? hehe. il be more careful next game. oo na! talo na ko... tama na...

on the lighter side of things, its really a fun experience. embarrassing but fun. humiliating but still fun. ang galing tlga e. =p