another classic

and it all went down to another classic.

a 1950's song by the Fleetwoods - Come Softly to Me

i miss you, sir.

sorry sir

wala ako sir.
wala rin tlga ako kanina.
at wala rin ako ngaun.
or mamaya.
minsan na lang tayo mag-uusap.
at baka hinde na tayo magkita.
isipin mo na lang na busy ako sir.
sana makapag-explain ako sayo.
sana mabigay ko pa ung regalo mo. (antagal na kasi nun)
ipapabigay ko na lang kung sakali.
pero sana makapag paalam ako ng maayos.

it just dawned on me

i was watching a singing contest, i'm actually seeing it for the second time.

and it just dawned on me that i really like the song

the lyrics is talking to the guilty me

the girl singing is also beautiful

anyway, it just dawned on me

saturation-exhaustion-hurt-helpless

words that makes us ask again what are we doing?

then it just dawned on me

what am i doing?

what do i want to do about it?

and what i can do about it?

so it just dawned on me

i don't have a solid answer

do i get a second opinion on this?

ask the "experts" maybe? but i actually have done this one.

and i am trying to follow his advice

i just don't know how to start

it just dawned on me that i really don't want to do it

but i have to do it

i know i maybe wrong about this

so universe, if you're planning to stop me

you know you can

exciting day

it's today.

we can never can tell what will happen.

i'm wearing red.

bringing the gift.

wrote a few lines and doodled something at the back page.

cracking his own joke later for my msg.

because i just wanted a good laugh.

and a different way of greeting.

without feeling guilty.

finishing the song, ligaya.

would like to dedicate strange magic by elo

i tweeted it.

found a lego beatles birthday song.

sir, will be busy today.

fight!

Sabi nga ng isang upcoming movie:
"Love is a battlefield. Everyone fights. No one surrenders."

Then shempre may kadugtong pa yan na hinde na related sa topic ko.

Pero nakuha na nya ung gist.

Less complicated lang kasi walang may kasal.

Tinanong ko sa kaibigan ko kung may karapatan ba ang mga "other party"

Ung tipong alam nman nila pero sumige pa rin.

Sabi nila wala. (as if hinde ko naisip na isasagot nila un?)

Gaya ng prediction ko sa pelikulang ito.

Pustahan, pipiliin nya ung tama. Ung dapat gawin. Ung mas magandang example sa mga bata. Ung hinde magagalit ang simbahan or kung sino mang mas nakakatanda.

Kasi yun siguro ang dapat nating makita.

Kasi yun ang aral na dapat nating matutunan.

Di ko naman masisi ang gusto nila dahil ganito tayo lumaki.

Hinde ko rin nman pwede sabihin na mali.

Pero para sa'kn.

Sana kung ganun lang din naman ang punto ng pelikula.

Bakit pa natin ginawa? Eh matagal na natin alam yun.

Gusto kong isipin na may mas malaking gusto sabihin ang mga ganyang palabas.

Gusto kong isipin na kaya nating ipakita yun at intindihin.

Gusto kong isipin na may karapatan ang mga "other party".

Karapatan para lumaban pero hinde manira.

Karapatan para maipakita niya ang nararamdaman niya ng walang kapalit.

Karapatan para piliin din kahit hinde sya piliin.

Sabihin na nating mali kasi hinde nman tlga sya tama.

Sa akin hindi nman nya kasalanan yun.

Ayoko man sabihin, pero nagmahal lang siya.

Oo, bordering sya sa pagiging martir.

Minsan iisipin mong kalokohan na yan!

Sa dinadami ng isda sa dagat, bakit nga ba hindi ka pumili ng iba?

Bakit ba hinde ka nakinig nung sinabi sayo na.. Not available po un.

"Because we don't choose the people we love."

Madalas ko ito naririnig. Again, sa mga pelikula.

Hindi nga nman natin sila pinili.

Kasi kung oo, walang challenge.

May mga taong dadating sa buhay natin ng ganun na lng.

May mga bagay na hinde natin kaya pigilan.

May mga bagay na nangyayari na hinde naman natin alam kung bakit.

May mga mararamdaman tayo na hinde naman natin dapat maramdaman.

Tapos mananadya yung tadhana.

At wala na tayong magawa.

Kaya sa ganitong labanan.

Ano pa nga ba kundi...

Fight!

Mahirap makipagtalo sa puso kasi wala naman yang bibig.

practice

it's tomorrow.

sup? sup?

so, what now? game! haha.

i really don't know how to do this.

but i can do this!

maybe i can be spontaneous after a certain comment

or try it with a joke? they say they are half meant, right?

hmmm. how about a song?

no, i can't sing that.

and i can't dance it either.

how about i quote someone.

or give a line from a movie?

find something really nice on youtube?

write a letter?

type a letter?

what if i make it a picture?

waaaaah.

this is madness.

anyway, hope to see you tomorrow.

i have something to give

and a speech to tell, sir. tay.

Huwag Na Lang Kaya

Ano sa tingin mo?

Ano ba ang definition ng sumuko?

Magkaiba ba sila ng duwag?

Hinde ba pag tanggap ang tawag sa pagsuko?

Tingin ko good job ang marunong tumanggap.

Magaling ang marunong umamin na duwag sila.

Mahusay ang marunong tumigil.

Matapang ang mga taong kayang sabihin na talo sila.

Pero anong nga ba ang tawag sa talo na lumalaban pa?

Para lang ba tong boxing?

Hahangaan ko din ba sila?

Idol ko ata kasi sila.

Sasabihan mo ba ko ng tanga!

Bakit hinde mo na lang ako pigilan at ng matapos na.

Magpapapigil naman ako.

Or kung itigil ko na lang to?

Ok bang regalo un?

Ilang araw na lang. . .

something in the universe

we have all crazy request in life

and we're never satisfied

too hard to please

during Christmas we write a letter to "Santa"

and wish for other stuff

on our birthdays, a wish list

when going away or coming back

again, we would want something

plus the special occasions and holidays

and our personal holidays, haha!

sometimes it's really kinda selfish

but i guess that's tolerable at times

if i would really ask myself

and want one thing

i wish that there's always

something in the universe

that would make me happy
before i go to sleep

and excited about the morning after.

(if that's not too much to ask, mr. or ms. universe)

i do pray

i don't pray that often

but i pray when i have something really big or hard to say

actually when im about to cry or already crying

nwei, i actually don't pray for myself

it's not an advocacy or a promise i made

i just always feel that some people needed it more

and im just being to dramatic

for thinking i have problems

i feel im such a girl

when i was a kid, i usually start my thank you's then ask

now, it's mostly thank you's

then at rare times

i ask

for the things i can't control

for the things i can't change

for the things i get myself into

for the things that hurt really bad

for the crying mostly

and for a new start

because some days we become helpless and it's ok.

so, a little help pls.

it's not true

it's not true that the road less traveled is taken because we don't know where it leads.
we pick that road because we wanted to try the adventure.

it's not true to just tell someone "it's not what you want to be, but it's what you will become"
because on some cases people need to change themselves on their own.

it's not true to believe in do not cross the bridge until you get there
even the chicken cross the road.

it's not true that falling will kill you
but getting up might.

it's not true that fear is because of things that never started
the fear is about the days after that.

it's not true when they said if you love someone you have to say it out loud
it's complicated than that.

it's not true that you don't have to get drunk if you're broken hearted
but by default you feel that you need to and you should at least once.

it's not true that waiting is painful because of the time
it's because you know you don't want to do anything else.

it's not true when it seems that you're cold, you're a coward who doesn't care
sometimes you just care too much to not complicate the situation.

there's a lot of true and not true in this lifetime so let's go and find them.

inspirations

we can draw a lot of inspirations from all sorts and walks of life.

i often get mine by looking at people

from a glass window

on a busy street

in a bus

at a theme park

of coarse, i don't know them and they don't know me

but somehow other people makes you smile

others makes you laugh

strangers make you think

and wonder

about this universe we share

help you understand the many questions of life

that becomes addicting to get to know

i like seeing people being confident

i like seeing people loving the simple things

i like seeing people dream and sharing it

i like seeing people excited about going to work

i like seeing people happy

we should all be happy.