the first time

im not really trying to be a writer

pag ba madalas magsulat, writer na?

but i was watching this series and they have this writing class ( i wish we had that in school)

the assignment was to write creatively about your "firsts". 
write about the fantasy.

fiction or non. it is up to you.

so here goes.

it was that night we stayed in the car
you started to touch my head

then my shoulders
looking at me

while i was driving

i wanted to take your hand and if it's ok, hold it

we parked at a gas station

tried to sleep

we moved closer and closer as we were talking

until i let you lean on me

while we look at our pictures
played some music

you were telling me stories

stories about you
i can never forget every word

and then you got cold so i pushed myself towards you

layed my head on your chest

took my arms and wrap them around you

touching your back with my fingers

slowly..

everything was getting comfortable
came a few seconds that we stared at each other
i can't tell what you're thinking
i honestly can't explain mine
but i know i became sure of that one thing

i've been asking myself.

and if i have to try to summarise the feeling..

that moment felt real

and permanent.