New York State of Mind

It was so easy livin' day by day
Out of touch with the rhythm and blues
But now I need a little give and take
The New York Times, the Daily News.


It comes down to reality, and its fine with me cause I've let it slide.
I don't care if it's Chinatown or on Riverside.
I don't have any reasons.
I left them all behind.
I'm in a New York state of mind.

lucky

some people you'll meet...

will caught you by surprise,

with their character

or their humour

or their thinking

or their unexpected talent

or all of the above.

feel lucky.

laughing ladies

oo, merong ganun

kanina nakilala ko sila

sa sasakyan pauwi

4 silang naging magkakilala dahil sa sakayan pauwi

bilang dayo ako, hindi naman sila ngpaawat ipakilala ang mga sarili nila

yung antok ko nawalang lahat

laugh trip si nanay

pwede siyang komedyante sa next life nya

ang galing ng mga ideas nila at kumentaryo

nakakatuwang pakinggan

hindi ko naisip lahat yun

may time na antagal-tagal kong tumatawa sa kwento nya

nahirapan akong pigilan

naiimagine ko kc lahat ng sinasabi nya

hindi naman pwedeng hindi ko marinig

siguro asa late 50s

nagbibilang na ng apo

33 yrs na sa trabaho

kaya ganun na lang sila magbiruan tungkol sa buhay

basta sana pag tanda ko,

ganun din ako. 

19

nuon

bata ka pa

wag mo muna iisipin yan

ngayon

matanda ka na

isipin mo na yan

nako, wag po kayong mag-alala.
19 na po ako.

alexander

si tito alex
naghahatid siya ng mga bata sa school
gamit yung tamarraw
na kahit mainit, maingay at matagtag
gusto naming sinasakyan
kasi siguro masaya yung feeling na malaki yung sasakyan
madami siyang jokes na madalas corny
pero nakakatawa sya mag-execute
ayoko dati ung bigote at balbas niya
kasi nakaka-kiliti
pero tuwang-tuwa naman sya na hanggang tumanda kami kini-kiss ko sya
madalas niya ko niloloko tungkol sa cellphone
sa trabaho
sa figure
mga all time hirit na walang kupas.

the possible project

ding!

not originally the first project i have in mind

but..

that one needs perfect timing and patience so.. 

i will wait.

in the meantime, this idea will be fun.

better get started on planning

i have 6 months

ulit ulit

ang totoo

minsan na lang tayo nakakarinig ng bagong kwento

madalas narinig na natin

paulit-ulit lang

iba iba lang ang characters

iba ang setting

iba ang musical scoring

pero alam na natin yan

kasi siguro 

kailangan talaga ulit-ulit

para magtanda tayo. 

three things

believe in better.

in the end, 

only three things matter:

how much you loved

how gently you lived

and,

how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.

right.

pulitika

siguro mahirap talaga pra satin na baguhin ang impression sa topic na yan

or baka nga impossible pa

ang pulitiko mangangampanya

ang botante nangangampanya rin

ang botante namimili ng kandidato

ang pulitiko namimili din ng botante

in the end, onti lang ang nakakapagisip kung pra saan tlga ang pagtakbo sa posisyon at pag boto

maraming hindi maka-gets 

madalas concern lang sa pangalan ng nakaupo

kahit naiintindihan ko naman sila

namamalian pa rin ako

pero sana, balang araw

ma-gets din ng karamihan. :)

words of wisdom

minsan mahirap yung
masyado kasing masaya
kasi nakakasanay
malay mo, ikaw masurprise kasi
wala na ulit
di ba sabi nila
kung aakyat ka nga lang naman
pero malalaglag din
eh mabuting sa lupa'y mamulot na lamang
at least matatapilok ka lang
di ba gasgas lang
eh pag umakyat ka tapos nalaglag
bali pati buto

yan! yan! yan nga ang sinasabi ko.

galing mo tlga. 

bitter

eh ano naman?
wala nman sigurong masama dun.
1pt for the honesty.
it's a normal feeling.
like all other feelings.
and it will pass.
okay?

corned beef

pwedeng agahan

pwedeng tanghalian

pwedeng meryenda

at shempre

pwedeng hapunan

simple 

madaling lutuin

ang paboritong kainin

taon-taon.

anong paborito ng nanay mo?

signature campaign

ang anay ba ay gamu-gamo rin?

grabe andami!!! 

ilang anay na lang kaya ang kailangang pumirma bago gumuho tong bahay namin?

siguro onti na lang.

haay. 

umulan

dahil wala akong payong

tumambay akong opisina

dahil tumambay ako

hindi ako nakauwi agad

dahil hindi ako nakauwi agad

at umuulan pa rin

trapik at blockbuster ang sakayan ng bus

dahil trapik at blockbuster

hindi ako makasakay agad

dahil hindi ako makasakay

may 2 option lng ako na maglakad or mag jeep

dahil wala akong payong

nagjeep ako

dahil nagjeep ako

malayo layo ang lakarin pra sa sakayan

dahil malayo na ang nilakad ko

sumakay na ko sa unang bus na nakita ko

dahil hindi na ko namili

di ko napansin na magpupuno pa ung bus

dahil hindi umalis agad ung bus

nakakita ako ng babae na naglalako ng mani at umaakyat sa bus, girl power ate!

dahil may binili akong takeout 

hindi ako bumili sa kanya

dahil umulan

at wala akong payong

hindi ako nakauwi agad.

small roles

"There are no small parts, only small actors."

Well, im not really acting. I can wish. Haha.
Anyway, this just got inside my head.
Sometimes, we just play small roles
and it stays that way.
Maybe, not as fulfilling or an achievement.
Maybe it's not as happy.
But to me, i'll take it.
Maybe, i like small roles.
Maybe, that's what i can.
Maybe, that's all that is needed.
So, ok na yan. 

Wala ng madaming tanong.

aerosmith love

That kinda lovin' makes me wanna pull down the shade. Yeah!

That kinda lovin', yeah, now I'm never, never, never gonna be the same.

I go crazy, crazy baby, I go crazy.

You turn it on, then you're gone.

Yeah, you drive me crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby.

Some kinda lovin'

anything could happen

Yet since we found out

Since we found out

That anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could happen

Anything could



I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

I know it's gonna be

Oh, whoa

american dream

another good friend is leaving tomorrow
i can't say i can get used to it
but i didn't cry this time. so yey!
i hate goodbye's

i always get saddened by my friends who leave
who choose not to stay and start elsewhere
i need them
i try hard to stop them
because i never fully understand why..

yet for some reason, now, i kinda do.

maybe, i should also take that chance
i can make a good executive assistant or a researcher or a waitress during the day
and a programmer during the night
or i can go to art school
find if Juilliard is real
be an intern
and a mayor of Times Square
take photos and lots of instagram
plus, i owe it to my visa!

guess, i could have a change of plans.

guilty pleasure

One guilty pleasure i have is gLee.

No matter how weird the characters get.

I won't mind if my high school is like that. 

the talk

i did wish we had the talk
even if its like gambling all in
i remember, i tried thrice but fail
i took it as a reality that maybe i shouldn't think about it nor try again, ever
besides, i realized, i wanted the talk because of me
i wanted to get pass the idea easier
up to this day
i often imagine that day and what im gonna tell
or how will i start
should i just be frank and go straight at it
that way, il leave less chance for me to be emotional
coz i know i will be (no matter how hard i try not to)
i also thought of like a cross examination process something like the ones we see on tv, il ask and you answer
then at the end, il tell my side and walk away
..but what about your reaction
i've done different scenarios in my head but none of them was something i wanted myself to hear
because i didn't think or felt that you can
and tell me any good news
why would you?
how can i expect anything from you?
nothing will change
you have a nice thing going
and i think everything is going well for you
maybe that's how they should be
i have to remind myself that they are your own choices
no need for me to ask you if you're really sure
matanda na tyo eh.


(i'm asked why i didn't do the talk with sir. i hope that's the last time i have to explain.)

ode to our fathers

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure, I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love, love, love, to dance with my father again