you know what's hard?

you know what's hard...

when you are trying to do something for the first time and it sucks that you're not makin it
when you are required to learn and you just can't find the right drive
when you live too far from your friends and your address just blows
when you have parents who are right up your ass and they treat you like you're 7
when you realize that money is an issue
when you start being cheezy and mushy and all that. crap!
when you not have time on your team
when you want anything so bad and yet you have to tell yourself, "not today or never"
when you needed to be right than feel right
when you feel right but needed to be right
when you feel like screaming your heart out
when you face frustration hitting on you
when you challenge to be different
when you put up a fake smile and wave to the crowd like the usual

yea. these are a few... a few of the many things i can define hard. a few that i have already been. i can just imagine the torture!!! i do see a picture of me, miserable and quiet. yes, it's sad. im off my game. im so lost today. i always thought then that never would i be "you know what's hard" dramatic but here i am. eating my own words. being one of those... people. i should really laugh at myself, actually i am. im not even drunk and i wrote this. im nuts. i know. gotta admit and believe me, it gets harder. sigh. uugggghhh! aaaahhhhhh. fudge!!!!! hey you...... up there! c'mon help me. but hey, dnt worry. il get over it. i just need something new to do. so......

how does one make it stop?
tell me, how do i uncross the line?
how do you start quitting?
Ctrl + Z, pls. pls. pls...... work. (shet! crazzzzy!!!)

"aking napatunayan... na nsa huli... ang pagsisisi... pra bang gs2 kong umiyak... ngunit pra saan pa wala nmang magagawa....." --- could have took the risk but too late for that too. too much information sucks, damn it!