it's exactly 2 hrs and 14 minutes before Christmas day ends. since, i introduce a bit of anarchy in our household.. it's been celebrated differently. (hehe)
Christmas day is usually just another ordinary day, nothing really special. we are long gone in our dreams when clock strikes 12 but not today. of coarse, thanks to my good acting skills and award-winning performance for a daughter role, my parents bought it. (yes!)
i didn't really asked for something big. i just made an effort to spend time with family. we were singing the whole night while waiting for noche buena. (ehem ehem 98?!!?) i remember... "Stop in the name of Love, before you break my heart....." wahahahaha. i actually ended the song after that line and still 98?!!? (what the?! haha!)
we shared my cooked canton, fried eggs, cake, ice cream, puto bumbong, rice and mawawala ba ang Coke? :D woo sarap!
this mornin', we bring the component outside like we always every year so we can eat n celebrate outside (literally). honestly.... so we can hit the volume louder. (hihi) at first, my dad calls the shots on what will be played until after lunch i was proclaimed DJ. (bwahahaha!) started with dream sounds, slow jams and cool down music.. 2nd set list are the latest RnBs, pop, house mixes and ended with dance retro right before dinner. (haha!) i had a nyc time doing some steps with my sister again. i missed that. (awww)
hit the mic to take some rest. then dinner. then sang again. (adik!!!)
i missed my family. i usually realize that when this kinda day ends. i know iv been always too off specially nowadays or this year... but it didn't really mean anything less for them. i just got older, i guess and they got more older.... and patience is a virtue WE NEED to have. (haha!) like over dinner, just listening to their conversation irritates me once in a while... well, im already in acceptance stage coz iv been hearing them since lunch time. sometimes, i dnt really know which is harder... to be them or to be me? in the end, i ended up smiling.. tellin myself soon, they'll end this phase where patience is a virtue WE DON'T NEED to have. =p
i had a nyc Christmas day at home. with family. hope you are too.
"Christmas is not Christmas without its essence in your life"
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
santa, can u hear me?
santa can u hear me? i have been so good this year, and all i want is one thing..tell me my true love is near he's all i want..just for me, underneath my christmas tree i'll be waiting here, santa that's my only wish (next) year... (haha! inedit?!)
cute song. hehe.
so, the weekend is over. how was it? geez, i dunno. i was in a whole. hehe.
got 1 day out of it to call timeout.
nweiz, this is a happy post.
i just had a mini xmas party with my ofycmates and it was a blast.
i was late and that's not new.
hehe. i didn't had enough time to buy, wrap and dedicate my gifts so.. yah. took a while. :)
over songs and food overflow.
we reunited again.
story after story.
laugh after laugh.
gifts galore and more!
smiles are everywhere.
yep, we did miss one another.
awww, pasko na!!!
happy holidays everyone!!!!!
cute song. hehe.
so, the weekend is over. how was it? geez, i dunno. i was in a whole. hehe.
got 1 day out of it to call timeout.
nweiz, this is a happy post.
i just had a mini xmas party with my ofycmates and it was a blast.
i was late and that's not new.
hehe. i didn't had enough time to buy, wrap and dedicate my gifts so.. yah. took a while. :)
over songs and food overflow.
we reunited again.
story after story.
laugh after laugh.
gifts galore and more!
smiles are everywhere.
yep, we did miss one another.
awww, pasko na!!!
happy holidays everyone!!!!!
Friday, December 19, 2008
that thing i did today
hi.. let me tell bout a thing i did today... i push play today i didn't stop; paused but not stop... i wanted this one thing to happen. i already thought about it in my head... i attempted, tried and failed to think 3x or right on this thing.... that i did today. (3x coz i did think twice and i didn't really change my mind. bad. =p) so i went doing this thing until it was deadline. then reality hit me (i could even see conscience say "i told you so" or "karma") ....what was i thinking? or was i? (guess not!) ........i should hate myself. im a horrible person and friend at that.
something happened and it was not how i pictured it. i thought i had the perfect plan. i thought i already got a deal with heaven or christmas came early. well, we dnt always get what we want... don't we? from a series i thought i live up to one doctor said and where it got me? here with coffee, pen and paper. well, im glad i tried. rather say "what might have been?" now, i know. so, that's what they mean about doing something... haha! it's not me but i like that attitude, the excitement, liked the challenge. again, horrible person and friend.
actually this "karma" isn't over. i mighta just got myself into a deep whole again. might take a while before i come back. get back to you after the weekends.
u know that feeling when you know you are so wrong but you still dnt wanne be right. yea. that feeling. no, dnt say it. i know... i bump my head so bad. i have a disease. i should not do this.... i shouldn't. ughh..
It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you
And when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you
Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan
upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan
bawat patak, anong sarap
ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
ang beer na ‘to o ang pag-ibig mo?
Pangarap ka na lang ba
O magiging katotohanan pa
Bakit may mahal ka ng iba
Ngunit di bale na
Kahit mahal mo sya
mahal naman kita
lang hiyang mga kanta yan.... sama mo na ung saktong kanta na migraine.
lech!
loosing sanity.
what is happening?
hinde mapigilang damdamin. wild.
dying to tell u feelin pare... pro f*ck di pwede. hinde!!!! oh hinde!!! (ok, OA na! =p)
lech! lech!! lech!!!
-121908:1354PM
something happened and it was not how i pictured it. i thought i had the perfect plan. i thought i already got a deal with heaven or christmas came early. well, we dnt always get what we want... don't we? from a series i thought i live up to one doctor said and where it got me? here with coffee, pen and paper. well, im glad i tried. rather say "what might have been?" now, i know. so, that's what they mean about doing something... haha! it's not me but i like that attitude, the excitement, liked the challenge. again, horrible person and friend.
actually this "karma" isn't over. i mighta just got myself into a deep whole again. might take a while before i come back. get back to you after the weekends.
u know that feeling when you know you are so wrong but you still dnt wanne be right. yea. that feeling. no, dnt say it. i know... i bump my head so bad. i have a disease. i should not do this.... i shouldn't. ughh..
It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you
And when we are apart I feel it too
And no matter what I do I feel the pain
With or without you
Ibuhos na ang beer sa aking lalamunan
upang malunod na ang puso kong nahihirapan
bawat patak, anong sarap
ano ba talagang mas gusto ko
ang beer na ‘to o ang pag-ibig mo?
Pangarap ka na lang ba
O magiging katotohanan pa
Bakit may mahal ka ng iba
Ngunit di bale na
Kahit mahal mo sya
mahal naman kita
lang hiyang mga kanta yan.... sama mo na ung saktong kanta na migraine.
lech!
loosing sanity.
what is happening?
hinde mapigilang damdamin. wild.
dying to tell u feelin pare... pro f*ck di pwede. hinde!!!! oh hinde!!! (ok, OA na! =p)
lech! lech!! lech!!!
-121908:1354PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008
hey reality!
today, i woke up with sunshine beaming to my face. light emerge from my eyes as i try to open them. i knew then that i needed a new start. i have to wake up and not see storm in my window or even dark clouds. i pulled myself up, off my bed and went down.
downstairs, i said hi to my dad and my mom. went on straight to the kitchen to wash my face and make coffee. mornin! in my head, i tried to remember....
i know i told a million times myself that il stop being sad about all this but who am i kiddin' then? i needed to be sad for me to be happy. i needed to not be ok to be ok. it was a phase. it was a cycle.
a little over 2 weeks ago, i can still picture myself how was i. nowhere here. far away from all this and enjoying --- everything. i know i wrote the last 3 drama-inspired posts over my depression and frustrated feelings. drank a few for a couple of days. stayed quiet. acted like everything was the usual and hide in absence. i know im not a good pretender sometimes thus every time anyone asked "what's wrong?" i say, "nothing". i can't say it. im too chicken to get it over with or maybe i knew im going nowhere. i can't help feeling sorry and stupid and weak and shallow. damn it! like what my friend made me realize.. yes, it's hard being at the border. but u know, almost doesn't count. came 90 but 10 didn't. train left, im not in it. that time, i thought... i had "problems".
but wait there's more....
the week after this drama, life to me was like wheel of fortune. like my feelings depended on this magical roulette of chance that was really called reality. i was going with the flow. waiting for that roulette to stop and tell me what to do. one moment i was happy, one moment i was blue. one time i had a career and now it's gone. i had enough reasons to have a bleak outlook in my head and i can't give any excuse for it. my friend told me that straight. i was so down. like it really sucked to be me and i know it. i have the right answers and the right stuff to do but i dunno how to get a hold of myself. a number of people asked "how i feel?" i said, "gud question.." i just dnt know anymore. i can't seem to know which problem should i be sad about. there's too many of them. as if things were getting better and better everyday. it rained, it poured and i dnt have my umbrella. yea. im out there... somewhere in the middle. gone.
i needed a hug and lucky me, i got virtual hugs at least. the days i miss the people who hug me when something's wrong. ana.. mikey.. ed.. carl.. boogie.. uri.. awww... the warmth.
days passed by and i must say a little alone time helps. i have to do this. i have to. i need to do this. i gotta pass these emotional turmoil. logical, in short and right with this career thing. bigger problem at hand. bigger picture to paint. shake this sh*t off.
"Oh I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah" -- Kravitz
... coffee?
downstairs, i said hi to my dad and my mom. went on straight to the kitchen to wash my face and make coffee. mornin! in my head, i tried to remember....
i know i told a million times myself that il stop being sad about all this but who am i kiddin' then? i needed to be sad for me to be happy. i needed to not be ok to be ok. it was a phase. it was a cycle.
a little over 2 weeks ago, i can still picture myself how was i. nowhere here. far away from all this and enjoying --- everything. i know i wrote the last 3 drama-inspired posts over my depression and frustrated feelings. drank a few for a couple of days. stayed quiet. acted like everything was the usual and hide in absence. i know im not a good pretender sometimes thus every time anyone asked "what's wrong?" i say, "nothing". i can't say it. im too chicken to get it over with or maybe i knew im going nowhere. i can't help feeling sorry and stupid and weak and shallow. damn it! like what my friend made me realize.. yes, it's hard being at the border. but u know, almost doesn't count. came 90 but 10 didn't. train left, im not in it. that time, i thought... i had "problems".
but wait there's more....
the week after this drama, life to me was like wheel of fortune. like my feelings depended on this magical roulette of chance that was really called reality. i was going with the flow. waiting for that roulette to stop and tell me what to do. one moment i was happy, one moment i was blue. one time i had a career and now it's gone. i had enough reasons to have a bleak outlook in my head and i can't give any excuse for it. my friend told me that straight. i was so down. like it really sucked to be me and i know it. i have the right answers and the right stuff to do but i dunno how to get a hold of myself. a number of people asked "how i feel?" i said, "gud question.." i just dnt know anymore. i can't seem to know which problem should i be sad about. there's too many of them. as if things were getting better and better everyday. it rained, it poured and i dnt have my umbrella. yea. im out there... somewhere in the middle. gone.
i needed a hug and lucky me, i got virtual hugs at least. the days i miss the people who hug me when something's wrong. ana.. mikey.. ed.. carl.. boogie.. uri.. awww... the warmth.
days passed by and i must say a little alone time helps. i have to do this. i have to. i need to do this. i gotta pass these emotional turmoil. logical, in short and right with this career thing. bigger problem at hand. bigger picture to paint. shake this sh*t off.
"Oh I want to get away I want to fly away Yeah yeah yeah" -- Kravitz
... coffee?
Thursday, December 04, 2008
introducing noise
finally, i broke my silence. i shared to one of my closest friend what's going on with me. and damn, i knew it. she'll laugh at me. that's fine. i was laughing at myself anyway. what can i say. im a funny person. haha! btw, that felt good. the silence, being broken. just needed time. as we were discussing, i got a different opinion from her which was understandable and so i wonder. wonder.... wonder... and wonder some more.... kept on looking outside this cafe' window and still wonderin. maybe later with booze. (planning to try something new ;D)
actually, i already thought of that, like i told her and did it. there were a number of things that i made effort on. what can i do? could i have made it more clearer? maybe i should've done something else? what could that be? hmmmm.... or maybe im being too hard on myself to assume and ask and wonder more on my part. i dnt really know. did i did it too late? i guess i ask the hypothetical question too late?! haayz. well, life is life like what my friend say. sigh and smile girl. sigh and smile.
nweiz, as i am trying to continue on this entry... Christmas carols are playing..... aaaawwwww.... can i cry? hehe. what kind of Christmas would this be? for some time i had it clear. though now... exciting i guess. well, there are just 2 possibilities anyway.... recent events have showed that more likely we know which of the two but i would like to entertain a sense of unpredictability and hope for excitement. (yes, u can say it. im weird!) sometimes i dnt know myself too.
message. hey, i envy you. i do.
officially. goodluck to me. say "goodluck reg and merry holidays!!! " =p
actually, i already thought of that, like i told her and did it. there were a number of things that i made effort on. what can i do? could i have made it more clearer? maybe i should've done something else? what could that be? hmmmm.... or maybe im being too hard on myself to assume and ask and wonder more on my part. i dnt really know. did i did it too late? i guess i ask the hypothetical question too late?! haayz. well, life is life like what my friend say. sigh and smile girl. sigh and smile.
nweiz, as i am trying to continue on this entry... Christmas carols are playing..... aaaawwwww.... can i cry? hehe. what kind of Christmas would this be? for some time i had it clear. though now... exciting i guess. well, there are just 2 possibilities anyway.... recent events have showed that more likely we know which of the two but i would like to entertain a sense of unpredictability and hope for excitement. (yes, u can say it. im weird!) sometimes i dnt know myself too.
message. hey, i envy you. i do.
officially. goodluck to me. say "goodluck reg and merry holidays!!! " =p
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
you know what's hard?
you know what's hard...
when you are trying to do something for the first time and it sucks that you're not makin it
when you are required to learn and you just can't find the right drive
when you live too far from your friends and your address just blows
when you have parents who are right up your ass and they treat you like you're 7
when you realize that money is an issue
when you start being cheezy and mushy and all that. crap!
when you not have time on your team
when you want anything so bad and yet you have to tell yourself, "not today or never"
when you needed to be right than feel right
when you feel right but needed to be right
when you feel like screaming your heart out
when you face frustration hitting on you
when you challenge to be different
when you put up a fake smile and wave to the crowd like the usual
yea. these are a few... a few of the many things i can define hard. a few that i have already been. i can just imagine the torture!!! i do see a picture of me, miserable and quiet. yes, it's sad. im off my game. im so lost today. i always thought then that never would i be "you know what's hard" dramatic but here i am. eating my own words. being one of those... people. i should really laugh at myself, actually i am. im not even drunk and i wrote this. im nuts. i know. gotta admit and believe me, it gets harder. sigh. uugggghhh! aaaahhhhhh. fudge!!!!! hey you...... up there! c'mon help me. but hey, dnt worry. il get over it. i just need something new to do. so......
how does one make it stop?
tell me, how do i uncross the line?
how do you start quitting?
Ctrl + Z, pls. pls. pls...... work. (shet! crazzzzy!!!)
"aking napatunayan... na nsa huli... ang pagsisisi... pra bang gs2 kong umiyak... ngunit pra saan pa wala nmang magagawa....." --- could have took the risk but too late for that too. too much information sucks, damn it!
when you are trying to do something for the first time and it sucks that you're not makin it
when you are required to learn and you just can't find the right drive
when you live too far from your friends and your address just blows
when you have parents who are right up your ass and they treat you like you're 7
when you realize that money is an issue
when you start being cheezy and mushy and all that. crap!
when you not have time on your team
when you want anything so bad and yet you have to tell yourself, "not today or never"
when you needed to be right than feel right
when you feel right but needed to be right
when you feel like screaming your heart out
when you face frustration hitting on you
when you challenge to be different
when you put up a fake smile and wave to the crowd like the usual
yea. these are a few... a few of the many things i can define hard. a few that i have already been. i can just imagine the torture!!! i do see a picture of me, miserable and quiet. yes, it's sad. im off my game. im so lost today. i always thought then that never would i be "you know what's hard" dramatic but here i am. eating my own words. being one of those... people. i should really laugh at myself, actually i am. im not even drunk and i wrote this. im nuts. i know. gotta admit and believe me, it gets harder. sigh. uugggghhh! aaaahhhhhh. fudge!!!!! hey you...... up there! c'mon help me. but hey, dnt worry. il get over it. i just need something new to do. so......
how does one make it stop?
tell me, how do i uncross the line?
how do you start quitting?
Ctrl + Z, pls. pls. pls...... work. (shet! crazzzzy!!!)
"aking napatunayan... na nsa huli... ang pagsisisi... pra bang gs2 kong umiyak... ngunit pra saan pa wala nmang magagawa....." --- could have took the risk but too late for that too. too much information sucks, damn it!
migraine
Oo nga pala,
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako?
Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako,
Kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod,
Kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman,
Yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot,
Ay 'di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil 'di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil 'di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil 'di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil 'di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
-- Moonstar88, Migraine
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako?
Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nasusuka ako,
Kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod,
Kailangan bang lumuhod?
Gusto ko lang naman,
Yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot,
Ay 'di rin isang tanong
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil 'di na makatulog (makatulog)
Dahil 'di na makakain (makakain)
Dahil 'di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil 'di na
Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...
Nalilito...
-- Moonstar88, Migraine
i started my day with my head, hurting.... it really hurts. i woke up 830. obviously i won't be making it by 9. i slept around 12mn. so it looks like 8hrs wasn't enuf. i drink coffee and took a bath. it was around 1030 when i left, i was in ayala by 12nn. then lunch?! KFC. wohoo! =p
as i was on my way to ayala. i heard this song... yes. i really like it. the song hit everything it can. and i knew then i was in for another level of brain crushing. (world, are u telling me something?)
nweiz, i took the great effort of getting through firewall just to download a copy, hack to my pc drivers and place it in my ipod. then it was the song repeating to my ears since hours and hours ago... haha! yea. im crazy!
what can i say?? i have migraine.
Monday, November 24, 2008
can u blame me?
i just did something stupid today.. i was really not myself and i hate it! hate it!
i lost my proxy card.
i left my watch. i really hate it when i forget my watch. i feel lacking.
something's wrong with me today.
a bit paranoid too.
of the question that im debating to question. (whaat?!)
it's that kinda day where im tryin to not be bothered...
of the many things that plays inside this twisted brain. (geez!)
i have this fear.
imagining it makes me numb.
to whoever is in charge i ask, please spare me.
i am too weak. i can't do this again. i just can't. (deep pare!)
i feel really lazy.
im suppose to be bibo but i wasn't and i didn't even think twice about it. go on, tell me whatever you want....
the type of day when i just felt like singing something from Boyzone. (hey, im a BSB fan!)
the moment compelled me to watch a love story called Tristan and Isolde (hahaha! what a great idea!!! am i genius or what?!)
someone told me.. the tagline was: before Romeo and Juliet there was Tristan and Isolde.....
(so are we watching this or not?!!)
and so i started.... really excited.
took a while before the potential love story begin.... i was too anxious to know how would it start.
then they're story began.... it was played out nice. not too dramatic or overly shallow. the scenes was just right.
the shocking twist.... it got me. darn!!! i can't believe it. it was torture!!!!!!!
the ending.... i wouldn't give it away. as much as my heart wants to share and pour out every emotion i had. (go! download and watch.)
"Something more than duty and death!
Why are we capable of feelings if not to have them?
Why long for things if they are not meant to be ours?
Well don't listen to me.
You're so sure of things.
You're certainty, it's like armour.
I wish I had that."
i lost my proxy card.
i left my watch. i really hate it when i forget my watch. i feel lacking.
something's wrong with me today.
a bit paranoid too.
of the question that im debating to question. (whaat?!)
it's that kinda day where im tryin to not be bothered...
of the many things that plays inside this twisted brain. (geez!)
i have this fear.
imagining it makes me numb.
to whoever is in charge i ask, please spare me.
i am too weak. i can't do this again. i just can't. (deep pare!)
i feel really lazy.
im suppose to be bibo but i wasn't and i didn't even think twice about it. go on, tell me whatever you want....
the type of day when i just felt like singing something from Boyzone. (hey, im a BSB fan!)
the moment compelled me to watch a love story called Tristan and Isolde (hahaha! what a great idea!!! am i genius or what?!)
someone told me.. the tagline was: before Romeo and Juliet there was Tristan and Isolde.....
(so are we watching this or not?!!)
and so i started.... really excited.
took a while before the potential love story begin.... i was too anxious to know how would it start.
then they're story began.... it was played out nice. not too dramatic or overly shallow. the scenes was just right.
the shocking twist.... it got me. darn!!! i can't believe it. it was torture!!!!!!!
the ending.... i wouldn't give it away. as much as my heart wants to share and pour out every emotion i had. (go! download and watch.)
"Something more than duty and death!
Why are we capable of feelings if not to have them?
Why long for things if they are not meant to be ours?
Well don't listen to me.
You're so sure of things.
You're certainty, it's like armour.
I wish I had that."
Sunday, November 02, 2008
hellboy II
i just watched the movie with my family at home. i never knew Abe could be so cheezy but it was cute and funny. we all know Red was cheezy the last time. i like the thought that they were even drinking beers while singing it. really got drunk too. i like this song... this also goes to my top faves.
c'mon everybody now...... hahahaha!
Chorus
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
o shit! i got a zit. ugh. >.<
c'mon everybody now...... hahahaha!
Chorus
You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away
And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile
Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, Im finding it hard leaving your love behind me
And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
Im finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what Im going through
I just can't smile without you
o shit! i got a zit. ugh. >.<
mukang guilty again
tell me, can you just forget a particular person from your class? embarrassingly, i just did. it's just 4 years ago. i can't seem to forgive myself for forgetting. we were even close during my first year in high school and i did this horrible thing. im really sorry. i can't even say anything more than that. in my lamest defense, i was busy with org. busy with thesis, i guess. busy with my own group or i was always missing when original A's(kmi) bonds with original B's(sila) due to my other activities in life. we had different barkadas. but i should've still remembered. i know we were in the same batch and took the same course. i was just 100% convinced that we didn't had the chance to be classmates. and my last memory was really frm 12yrs ago. hahahaha! soz tlga! i almost ask earth to swallow me. of all my classmates i chose to have this selective memory gap on her. i mean seriously, mukang guilty tlga. zero(0) memory?!! not one conversation that i can think of. gosh! how could i? i swear, i didn't do this on purpose. in the end, when i already ran out of logical reasons.. i wanted to think that there is a bigger explanation why but il rather keep that to myself. hehe. magaling! magaling! magaling nman kc reg e.... you're so forgetful. (i did remember one instance that we were really classmates before we part ways, so medyo bumawi ako.... ok na un)
strike 3! im out. coach, should i face the wall? hehe. il be more careful next game. oo na! talo na ko... tama na...
on the lighter side of things, its really a fun experience. embarrassing but fun. humiliating but still fun. ang galing tlga e. =p
strike 3! im out. coach, should i face the wall? hehe. il be more careful next game. oo na! talo na ko... tama na...
on the lighter side of things, its really a fun experience. embarrassing but fun. humiliating but still fun. ang galing tlga e. =p