thank you for the music

I'm nothing special, in fact I'm a bit of a bore
If I tell a joke, you've probably heard it before
But I have a talent, a wonderful thing
'Cause everyone listens when I start to sing
I'm so grateful and proud
All I want is to sing it out loud

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

Mother says I was a dancer before I could walk
She says I began to sing long before I could talk
And I've often wondered, how did it all start
Who found out that nothing can capture a heart
Like a melody can
Well, whoever it was, I'm a fan

So I say
Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

I've been so lucky, I am the girl with golden hair
I wanna sing it out to everybody
What a joy, what a life, what a chance!

Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me

So I Say
Thank you for the music
For giving it to me...

-- ABBA

The Hit

Today, was set to be a happy day.

I finished up a volunteer work

Took us 8hrs to finish

But that's ok.

It was really fulfilling

and very overwhelming at the same time.

Nice to know that still a lot of people have hearts to help one another

Thanks everyone. :)

So, on my way home

I was driving by a major road

I know, i was careful.

Seconds left and i was about to finish crossing a busy intersection

Large noise.

I was shocked, my knees were shaking as i open my car door.

I am thankful I'm ok but my heart was still in high speed

Confuse of what to do first

Thinking what to bring outside?

My phone, my ipod, my bag?

Should i call my dad?

Saying to myself, im alone and i need to do this.

Took a deep breath, step out and put up a game face.

Look over the road and find the other car.

Walk over to the right and saw the very crushed passenger door,

I felt tears in my eyes

All i can really feel was why? why me?

Over my head, i was thinking of what will happen now?

Over my head, the happy feeling i have was going away

I was only few kilometers away from home

Why? Why did this happen?

I got hit.

Unofficial Year One

Happy Anniversary!
A year ago.
7-11.
Along EDSA.
After Christmas Party.
We stayed til mornin.


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1st official barkada wedding

I was at a beautiful and fun wedding today.

All the time, the event really gave me that wedding feeling.

They were happy.

and I was happy for them.

I see us somewhere there too.

I saw you Sir.

I saw you.

(or I maybe crazy)

5 and 6

Today, marks the countdown of a celebration
a celebration of love and success
happening in two different worlds
between two different people
i hope we will both be happy
i wish not to think of you then
so im doing it now.
congratulations to us!
5 and 6 years.


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Think Emma Morley

I would like to thank you Emma Morley.

You're the man!

I wished i could meet you.

Maybe we could get coffee, talk about Dex.

Thanks for teaching me a lot of things.

For making me cry too.

Made me feel normal and sane.

You're really lucky, Em.

I'm happy for you.

a weird one

he sits at the passenger side

of the car

tries to learn how to drive

rarely text

but puts on a smiley

sometimes he calls

over the good old fashion telephone line

we do this sometimes

then often act like strangers

after, talk about the future

make our guesses

give out opinions

as if we'll grow old together

telling it to the litte ones

then he speaks

of words that makes me stop

stare

and smile

then i think

i finally found a "weird one"

the elusive cause

which creates an effect that we call,

Happy.

the girl who can't be moved

the movie made me cry again.
i dunno why i watched it again
it's either i see myself in it
or i wanted to be in it
or im that weird and i just like to cry tonight
well, super check
i dunno why im so moved by this movie
im blaming partly that background music
and Emma's smile just to tell his
dense friend Dexter, her way of saying fine, ok, alright, whatever makes you happy Dex.
She just put the bar up there.
She made it through all those years.
She didn't moved.
She disappeared but came back.
She was able to tell and done things i don't know if i have a chance to try.
She's one brave girl.
She did it!
i wish to tell myself the same.



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Corazon and Isabel

Today, i needed to narrate the last phone conversation with a friend.

I just had to.

It's a happy moment worth sharing.

Not so sure about the joke. Haha. But sabi nya "pwede na"

I do enjoy the singing parts, always.

I usually stop myself from sharing this kinda of stuff.

Because, they are too personal for me.

Plus, this is a part of a complicated story only i understand.

Anyway, i enjoyed telling it.

It felt real.

It felt happy.

It felt permanent.

There were topics we talked about that really made me smile.

Family, specially his good job Lola.

then, names. I know i asked him for a guy's name but he gave "Corazon and Isabel"

then, what to tell my grandchildren about him?

then, the modulated voice and tries.

He remembered the road trip to Baguio.

. . .

I know i will forever remember these conversations

and tell the same story over again.

one day

And in another life I would be your girl
We keep all our promises, be us against the world
And in other life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

The one that got awayComplete lyrics: http://www.directlyrics.com/katy-perry-the-one-that-got-away-lyrics.html

fine!

Miss ko na si sir.

palitaw

Sa Batibot ko natutunan ang tungkol sa palitaw
Lulubog Lilitaw Palitaw
Ganun ka sir!
Isa kang palitaw na lumulubog madalas
Na lagi kong inaabangan lumitaw
May araw na lagi ka andyan
Tapos mga araw na wala ka
Di naman kita dapat hanapin
Wala rin need na nagexplain ka bakit bigla ka na lng nawawala
Mali lang na nghahanap ako ng dahilan
Simula pa nung nagkakilala tayo ganyan ka na sir
Dapat tanggap ko na yun ngaun
Pero naiinis pa rin ako
Dapat gets ko na ang palitaw.
Lulubog. Lilitaw.



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yellow

i'm all yellow.

sakto naka-yellow ako.

been singing the song all morning.

malungkot ako ngaun.

isa sa mga araw na gusto ko lang umiyak

hanggang magsawa ako

at ng matapos na.

minsan gusto ko isipin at asahan na

kaya ko un!

tapos matatapos ung araw na pagod na ko.

ayaw ko na siguro umiyak ulit.

wala ng papatak na luha.

minsan mali rin na masyado kang masaya.

minsan mali rin na hinayaan mo ung sarili mo maging msyadong masaya.

minsan mali rin na maging matapang.

tapos tatanungin mo ung sarili mo,

ano bang iniisip mo?!

pra ka ng tanga oh.

umiiyak sa harap ng computer.

wag mo ng patagalin yan, Regina.

hindi mo kaya yang sakuna na yan.

ok?

ok! game!

y u col

Wala lang.

Ansaya.

Hehe.

deal

Sa hinahaba man ng prosisyon,

Sa simbahan din ang tuloy.

Wala rin akong nagawa.

Nagmadali ako umuwi.

Ok.

Deal!

;)

mumu

Una, sabi nya natatakot siya umakyat.

Bakit kasi hindi ng-elevator?

Pangalawa, sabi nya 9 tapos naging 10pm.

Aba! e 10:30 na. Tapos umabot pa kami ng 11:30. ;)

Pangatlo, Feeling Close.

Kilala daw nya ung asa wall. Haha.

Pang-apat, Graffiti kong Gmail.

Uy! parehas.

Pang-lima, ung Wilson na bag.

Wala nmang laman. :P

Pang-anim, Shakey's.

Pag sarado. Pag hindi sarado. Nauwi lang din sa KFC.

Pang-pito, Old singer.

Bagay kaya. Shhh! You're fine.

Pang-walo, CR-V.

Ayoko ng maroon. So, puti daw. Dumihin nman un.

Pang-siyam, Keep Manila Happy.

Ano ba yan, parehas na nman.

Sampu, Awooo daw ang sabi ng mumu.

Ahahahaha! Ngayon alam ko na. ;)

the equation

Solution: Remove myself from the equation.

Go!

(it's that easy!)

why u?

dadating ang araw, matatanong ka ng...
bakit ako?

sagutin mo ng

sabi nga sa isang indie film

sino ka si Kris Aquino sa isang famous massacre film? "...why me?"

gusto mo ba tlaga ng dahilan?

o gusto mo lang may idahilan?

bakit nga ba habang tumatagal, dumadami ang tanong?

bakit nga ba minsan kahit ayaw natin

nagiging isa tayo sa mga taong nagiging msyadong matanong sa mga bagay bagay sa buhay

tama ba or mali

hindi mo pinapansin nun pero nakaka-praning na ngaun, guilty kc tayo

kung masaya ka nman

bakit pa tayo kailangan magtanong?

ano bang hinihintay mo validation?

sabi nga nung baliw sa pelikula na si Benson pero si Ringo Star daw sya

enjoy-in mo lang yan while it last

anlalim nun, hindi pa maganda ang gusto nya sabihin

pero ganun nman ako

pasasaan ba at magiging phase lang to sa buhay

matagal o madali, mabilis o mahirap

minsan wala nman tlga sa'tin kelan magpapalit ang ikot ng mundo

basta iikot sya sa ayaw mo at sa hindi

hindi nga rin nman lahat ng bagay sa mundo ay may closure

may mga bagay na hinde napapaliwanag ni google

tama na minsan lahat napaguusapan bukod sa feelings

oo, pakshet minsan yang feelings na yan

pero ganun ang buhay

sa ngayon, may ibang tanong sa mundo na mas kaya natin sagutin.

Ako Na Lang

Ako Na Lang..

marinig ko pa lang mabigat na agad ang dating

bakit hindi sya maging

Ako Na Lang!

at least yan confident or msayadong confident

or pwede cguro ng hinde ako sure

Ako Na Lang?

kung combo

Ako Na Lang?!...

anong nga bang unang pumaasok sa isip mo pag naririnig mo yan?

default sakin ang hindi masaya na version

sa tingin mo?

yes or yes?

hindi nman sa madrama ako pra sa "Ako Na Lang"

hindi nman sa msyado akong ma-pride pra hingin na "Ako Na Lang"

hindi rin nman na duwag ako pra sabihin na "Ako Na Lang"

naniniwala pa rin ako na hindi lahat ng bagay sa mundo pwede natin sabihin

hindi ibig sabihin na pag sinabi mo oks na

minsan sabihin man natin o hindi

gawin man natin o hindi

ayaw natin sabihin yan.

ayaw natin gawin yan.

bakit?

kasi sakin, ang masaya na version nyan ung walang "Lang"

Ako Na.

(smiley)

another classic

and it all went down to another classic.

a 1950's song by the Fleetwoods - Come Softly to Me

i miss you, sir.

sorry sir

wala ako sir.
wala rin tlga ako kanina.
at wala rin ako ngaun.
or mamaya.
minsan na lang tayo mag-uusap.
at baka hinde na tayo magkita.
isipin mo na lang na busy ako sir.
sana makapag-explain ako sayo.
sana mabigay ko pa ung regalo mo. (antagal na kasi nun)
ipapabigay ko na lang kung sakali.
pero sana makapag paalam ako ng maayos.

it just dawned on me

i was watching a singing contest, i'm actually seeing it for the second time.

and it just dawned on me that i really like the song

the lyrics is talking to the guilty me

the girl singing is also beautiful

anyway, it just dawned on me

saturation-exhaustion-hurt-helpless

words that makes us ask again what are we doing?

then it just dawned on me

what am i doing?

what do i want to do about it?

and what i can do about it?

so it just dawned on me

i don't have a solid answer

do i get a second opinion on this?

ask the "experts" maybe? but i actually have done this one.

and i am trying to follow his advice

i just don't know how to start

it just dawned on me that i really don't want to do it

but i have to do it

i know i maybe wrong about this

so universe, if you're planning to stop me

you know you can

exciting day

it's today.

we can never can tell what will happen.

i'm wearing red.

bringing the gift.

wrote a few lines and doodled something at the back page.

cracking his own joke later for my msg.

because i just wanted a good laugh.

and a different way of greeting.

without feeling guilty.

finishing the song, ligaya.

would like to dedicate strange magic by elo

i tweeted it.

found a lego beatles birthday song.

sir, will be busy today.

fight!

Sabi nga ng isang upcoming movie:
"Love is a battlefield. Everyone fights. No one surrenders."

Then shempre may kadugtong pa yan na hinde na related sa topic ko.

Pero nakuha na nya ung gist.

Less complicated lang kasi walang may kasal.

Tinanong ko sa kaibigan ko kung may karapatan ba ang mga "other party"

Ung tipong alam nman nila pero sumige pa rin.

Sabi nila wala. (as if hinde ko naisip na isasagot nila un?)

Gaya ng prediction ko sa pelikulang ito.

Pustahan, pipiliin nya ung tama. Ung dapat gawin. Ung mas magandang example sa mga bata. Ung hinde magagalit ang simbahan or kung sino mang mas nakakatanda.

Kasi yun siguro ang dapat nating makita.

Kasi yun ang aral na dapat nating matutunan.

Di ko naman masisi ang gusto nila dahil ganito tayo lumaki.

Hinde ko rin nman pwede sabihin na mali.

Pero para sa'kn.

Sana kung ganun lang din naman ang punto ng pelikula.

Bakit pa natin ginawa? Eh matagal na natin alam yun.

Gusto kong isipin na may mas malaking gusto sabihin ang mga ganyang palabas.

Gusto kong isipin na kaya nating ipakita yun at intindihin.

Gusto kong isipin na may karapatan ang mga "other party".

Karapatan para lumaban pero hinde manira.

Karapatan para maipakita niya ang nararamdaman niya ng walang kapalit.

Karapatan para piliin din kahit hinde sya piliin.

Sabihin na nating mali kasi hinde nman tlga sya tama.

Sa akin hindi nman nya kasalanan yun.

Ayoko man sabihin, pero nagmahal lang siya.

Oo, bordering sya sa pagiging martir.

Minsan iisipin mong kalokohan na yan!

Sa dinadami ng isda sa dagat, bakit nga ba hindi ka pumili ng iba?

Bakit ba hinde ka nakinig nung sinabi sayo na.. Not available po un.

"Because we don't choose the people we love."

Madalas ko ito naririnig. Again, sa mga pelikula.

Hindi nga nman natin sila pinili.

Kasi kung oo, walang challenge.

May mga taong dadating sa buhay natin ng ganun na lng.

May mga bagay na hinde natin kaya pigilan.

May mga bagay na nangyayari na hinde naman natin alam kung bakit.

May mga mararamdaman tayo na hinde naman natin dapat maramdaman.

Tapos mananadya yung tadhana.

At wala na tayong magawa.

Kaya sa ganitong labanan.

Ano pa nga ba kundi...

Fight!

Mahirap makipagtalo sa puso kasi wala naman yang bibig.

practice

it's tomorrow.

sup? sup?

so, what now? game! haha.

i really don't know how to do this.

but i can do this!

maybe i can be spontaneous after a certain comment

or try it with a joke? they say they are half meant, right?

hmmm. how about a song?

no, i can't sing that.

and i can't dance it either.

how about i quote someone.

or give a line from a movie?

find something really nice on youtube?

write a letter?

type a letter?

what if i make it a picture?

waaaaah.

this is madness.

anyway, hope to see you tomorrow.

i have something to give

and a speech to tell, sir. tay.

Huwag Na Lang Kaya

Ano sa tingin mo?

Ano ba ang definition ng sumuko?

Magkaiba ba sila ng duwag?

Hinde ba pag tanggap ang tawag sa pagsuko?

Tingin ko good job ang marunong tumanggap.

Magaling ang marunong umamin na duwag sila.

Mahusay ang marunong tumigil.

Matapang ang mga taong kayang sabihin na talo sila.

Pero anong nga ba ang tawag sa talo na lumalaban pa?

Para lang ba tong boxing?

Hahangaan ko din ba sila?

Idol ko ata kasi sila.

Sasabihan mo ba ko ng tanga!

Bakit hinde mo na lang ako pigilan at ng matapos na.

Magpapapigil naman ako.

Or kung itigil ko na lang to?

Ok bang regalo un?

Ilang araw na lang. . .

something in the universe

we have all crazy request in life

and we're never satisfied

too hard to please

during Christmas we write a letter to "Santa"

and wish for other stuff

on our birthdays, a wish list

when going away or coming back

again, we would want something

plus the special occasions and holidays

and our personal holidays, haha!

sometimes it's really kinda selfish

but i guess that's tolerable at times

if i would really ask myself

and want one thing

i wish that there's always

something in the universe

that would make me happy
before i go to sleep

and excited about the morning after.

(if that's not too much to ask, mr. or ms. universe)

i do pray

i don't pray that often

but i pray when i have something really big or hard to say

actually when im about to cry or already crying

nwei, i actually don't pray for myself

it's not an advocacy or a promise i made

i just always feel that some people needed it more

and im just being to dramatic

for thinking i have problems

i feel im such a girl

when i was a kid, i usually start my thank you's then ask

now, it's mostly thank you's

then at rare times

i ask

for the things i can't control

for the things i can't change

for the things i get myself into

for the things that hurt really bad

for the crying mostly

and for a new start

because some days we become helpless and it's ok.

so, a little help pls.

it's not true

it's not true that the road less traveled is taken because we don't know where it leads.
we pick that road because we wanted to try the adventure.

it's not true to just tell someone "it's not what you want to be, but it's what you will become"
because on some cases people need to change themselves on their own.

it's not true to believe in do not cross the bridge until you get there
even the chicken cross the road.

it's not true that falling will kill you
but getting up might.

it's not true that fear is because of things that never started
the fear is about the days after that.

it's not true when they said if you love someone you have to say it out loud
it's complicated than that.

it's not true that you don't have to get drunk if you're broken hearted
but by default you feel that you need to and you should at least once.

it's not true that waiting is painful because of the time
it's because you know you don't want to do anything else.

it's not true when it seems that you're cold, you're a coward who doesn't care
sometimes you just care too much to not complicate the situation.

there's a lot of true and not true in this lifetime so let's go and find them.

inspirations

we can draw a lot of inspirations from all sorts and walks of life.

i often get mine by looking at people

from a glass window

on a busy street

in a bus

at a theme park

of coarse, i don't know them and they don't know me

but somehow other people makes you smile

others makes you laugh

strangers make you think

and wonder

about this universe we share

help you understand the many questions of life

that becomes addicting to get to know

i like seeing people being confident

i like seeing people loving the simple things

i like seeing people dream and sharing it

i like seeing people excited about going to work

i like seeing people happy

we should all be happy.

full house

I think I love you
Geureongabwayo
Cause I miss you
Geudaeman eobseumyeon

Nan amugeosdo moshago
Jakku saeng-gaknago
Ireongeol bomyeo amuraedo

I'm falling for you
Nan molrassjiman now I need you
Eoneusaenga nae mam gipeungose
Aju keuge jarijapeun geudaeui moseupeul ijen boayo

poker story

Hindi natin malalaman kung panalo or talo tayo pag hindi tayo umabot sa "All-In" or "Cards Down".

Sir, All-In. Cards Down na tayo.

unsayable

Hayup ung linya na yun. Hayup.

"Di mo alam kung gano ko gusto sabihin sayo na sana tayo na lang. . . ."

crying my heart out

It's ok.

Just try to learn how to stop sometimes.

Ikaw din, maubos yang luha mo.

great buck howard

one day a young lawyer while taking his exams for law school suddenly said: "im not happy".

quit his exam and get out.

drove his car to nowhere and brought his things.

he wanted to be a writer.

and all he got was pen and paper.

then he met "the great buck howard".

so far, i really don't know what's gonna go down in this movie.

but i wish to be inspired.

i can use some.

A letter to Sir

Dear sir,


i learned about the girl in the movie.

today, i get to understand her.

there's this great percentage that i'll cry hearing or watching a nice love story.

or what usually happen is, i walk away when it's cheezy time.

yes, im that coward sometimes. im not as brave.

besides, i think we can always predict the happy ending.

no need to validate that.

maybe by default, i assume that i force to relate it to myself

but i realize, no. that's not what im doing.

it's the difference.
and i think i know now how we differ.

well, for one thing. my story is much real than hers.
i don't have a perfect hair specially when i just went to bed.
i have a guy's name as a nickname.

and they say i think like a guy sometimes.

and that i have too many men friends.

then i have a non-desirable last name which you said was also very guy-ish.

im not friends friends with the family vs her

and i feel that they wouldn't prefer me.

i don't change status or my picture.

i don't do terms of endearment i prefer to use made-up names.

im not gonna pressure you to marry bcoz i don't even think about it right away, i take time.

i make plans as far as breakfast in the mornin.

or a roadtrip next weekend.

il be ok if we can only fulfill my monthly movie request.

and we go from there.

i don't plan forever, i just try live it. and wish.

i really don't ask much and i don't expect much.

you can skip the sweeping off my feet parts. it's ok. you're fine.
i may not share everything to you or capture us all the times with pictures
but i always write about it.
my story would carry more drama than the movie could pull off.
i could be much corny than ever.
and look weirder too.

i don't have that courage to say my feelings first even i can say that i can.
i can't say it like that even if i could do the crying parts.
and even with the right character and motivation and what i think my great acting skills can deliver.
because, the girl in the movie isn't really me.

and i don't have the right to do that. to go first. to say it and hear myself say it.

we may have the same feelings or same passion.

maybe same lines and same perspective.

but we love two different guys.

she doesn't love a guy who's with someone else. ever.

maybe her bestfriend or her sister but not her.

why don't they make that?!
maybe because that's too painful to take.
and my story is all about that.
which makes all the difference in the movie world.
im like sally in harry met sally.
who is pretending to be sally.
who is pretending your harry.
i really love her last lines.

"you see. that is just like you harry. you say things like that. and you make it impossible for me to hate you. and i hate you harry. i really hate you."

..i hate you because i need to be friends with you which is the hardest thing and i'm here writing about it.

Yours truly,
Reg


P.S.
I know you don't like drama so sorry if this is. :)


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absolut happiness

Part 1

Reg: ngayon ko lng sinalubong ang birthday ko ng wala sa bahay.

(bukod nung onshore ako)

Kaibigan 1: Masaya ka nman?

Reg: Masaya.

Kaibigan 1: (sabay gulo ng buhok ko)

Para sa "ka-ma-ra-de-ry".

Spell.

"Friendship" na lang.

Shots at Wishes.

Kwentuhan. Madaming kwentuhan.

McDo at kwentuhan pa.

Kotse.

at Eurotel.

Part 2

9AM Drive.

Bahay.

Powernap.

Luto.

Bumili ng Nestle Cream at ice cream.

Kumain.

Kumain.

Kumain.

Nag-internet.

Natulog.

Kumain.

Nagpasalamat habang kumakain.

Nanuod.

Natulog.

Thank You.

Fin.

man in my lock screen

the same man before
in my home screen
yep, he's back
and he is in a coffee shop
discussing things
from a notebook
hey, man in my lock screen.


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ms. curiosity

because im that curious

i needed to ask

i wanted to understand

after answers from an expert

i have to admit that i may

still not #getaclue of what was explained

maybe #neverinamillionyears

and all would be left is

#amomentofsilence

for some questions in this universe

that i have to stop trying to answer

so to the guys out there

#passthemsomewater

cheers!

for the curious case that you all are.

(tried to come-up with an entry on today's trending topics. haha.)

central terminal

So, how's my day? I've been trying to answer the question the time i went in the train. And this may sound too cheezy but the scene replaying over my head is the time i saw his train coming in and look the other way to find him and we smiled. The guard caught me doing it and he smiled too. (haha)

I already told you this Regina. You should avoid doing this. Sometimes, it will be easier if you tell yourself: "It's all professional." then repeat it over and over until that's the only thing running in your head when you see him. Besides, you call him "sir".

I know.

Believe me, I'm trying. I really do.

in my head

"i think i might have made you inside my head"

im not sure. but i will soon find out. i don't know if im prepared for that. but i still have to, at some point. i always write about you, sir. if you read, others won't get it. but you will. i hope you will. i write about our happy times, and of coarse vice-versa.

i don't know why i keep on doing this. maybe it's just what i do. unlike what the rest of the Universe expect for me to express, for certain topics i just can't. they are all locked inside my heart, where Universe is right. im all heart. one of my features that i still can't choose to be a good thing or not.

anyway, since i have that deficiency of courage to say things. tada! another entry. i know you're not just in my head. i know that i didn't just made you up. you're not some imaginary friend i never had from childhood. i know you're real, sir.

whenever we talk, im happy. whenever we see each other, im happy. near or far. often or not. everyday or every other 2-3 months. physically together or from a picture. messages, there are so many of them alongside moments. i remember them and i know it means something to me. a lot has already been told, some i've seen with my very eyes about the long shot im aiming with you. all the warning signs were there on my way here but can't escape the feeling of happiness that doesn't change and i don't get it.

im not saying i don't want this. i always feel this is right. this is worth it. there are times i get scared by i just say that. i don't stop. i tried for several months now to take it all back because i don't want to complicate your story in the end but obviously i wasn't successful --- i wasn't sure if i should keep on walking this side of the road but i still found myself waking after you. i guess, not until i reach the finish line. how? maybe im walking too slow or take on a different road. i don't know how or if that's even possible anytime soon. i never thought it would take me this long to do this. too long, i was able to push myself to be excited with the morning after or your dreams and your goals. life taught me to avoid making plans before but i see myself eating my own words. i have wishes for us. it's weird, like every other thing im doing lately. (for example, this one you're reading)

this may appear like im complaining, im not. or unhappy, im not. this is an interpreter of my unsung emotions, getting freed for the first time. so, forgive me for my choice of words. i don't know what im doing. i don't know what's next? i don't know if this is a good idea. i don't know if you will be able to read this. i don't know if you'll understand. i don't know if i turn out to be a girl out of hand for you or a stranger in the next few seconds. im not gonna ask you to choose. im not gonna ask you to tell me anything. actually, i don't intend these questions to be answered, that's not the point. im saying this because i feel that i need to do this before we start something new. before we start fulfilling our dream this saturday. i just wanted to be honest from this day. yes, this is about you, sir.

im saying i feel that i love you and i know that's what i decided, a long time ago.

fire starter

im a fire starter
i make fire
let it burn
and enjoy the warm
with all my cards on the table
i play as hard
i know im not gonna win this
but i will know that i tried
and i was the happy girl
sometimes in reality
we can't say what happen
when and how
especially why
and i may choose to keep them forever
so im counting down the days

a week from now in old city
will be memorable
because
i got one card left

im fallin in.
(in case, i don't tell you)


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yes, i fear.

i should know
and anyone should know
that i learn that
the world can take it.
the-world-can-take-it.
yes, the world can take it!
the world can take it!!!! (screaming)
it's ok. he won't mind.
if im scared.
if im emotional.
i often take care of myself.
but at times i had to share.
i fear putting up my defense because that takes a lot of effort on my part.
then i cry after.
i fear just going with it.
i fear expectations and plans.
i fear being able to love someone that loves someone else.
i fear letting go of the happy times.
there goes my fears
and it doesn't mean
im not aLready there.
i dO not fear beginnings.
there are just some things that i don't haVe to start alone.
like this onE.


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FML.

sometimes, we should always be careful on the things we wish to be answered.

because once we have it.

we may not be prepared to handle it, worse case.

but since we asked for it.

we try toleration.

sometimes, temporary denial.

im looking a couple of days seclusion.

maybe drinking. i don't know yet.

whatever works.

and what's funny about it...

is you did it all because you are happy.

it was that thing called Love again.

yah, it sucks that way.

i plead guilty.

i asked the Universe that maybe we could go on that popular island you haven't been. i knew you wanted to go. someone told me that you already did.

i have to try my very best not to cry when i see you. but that's not a promise.

Maybe i could pretend you're right. Love is a laserquest. Suck it and see.

http://instagr.am/p/FbxdZ/

30 Secrets.

half-time

im a little over late. it's 13 minutes past midnight, for the 1st day of july.
i woke up and i knew what i wanted to do first. tried to avoid it but failed.
i gave someone a blank msg. because i didn't know what to say. i told him it's invisible.
then later. . .
i spend the first day of this second half of the year in a coffee shop.
i love working with people around.
meet there with long time no see friends and tried to tag along for a free movie i already seen.
i sticked to the coffee shop instead.
i had to watch a number of rich people wait for their vallet parking for 3 hours and still i didn't understand why do that?
i saw an actress at the neighbor coffee shop (i assume), she's too white.
when it got late, i drove and decided to go home.
had a little computer tutorial with Mimi.
now, im here.
it's that easy to look back for the past 24 hours.
absolutely hard for the last six months.
that's why im not doing it.
i need a bulk order of stop and go signs.
should be really big so i don't miss it.
plus a drink and a cheer for the next 6 months more.

hingang malalim ulit.
let's go!
kaya ko to!

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song for you

Shawty, I'ma only tell you this once, you the illest
And for your lovin' I'ma Die Hard like Bruce Willis
You got spark, you, you got spunk
You, you got something all the girls want
You're like a candy store and I'm a toddler
You got me wantin' more and ma-ma-more of

Your love, your love, your love, your love
Your love, your love, your love, your love
Your love, your love, your love, your love
Your love, your love, your love, your love

Find me in the dark
I'll be in the stars
Find me in your heart
I'm in need of your love

top 10

10. Takot ka sa dinosaur at masyadong malalaking bagay. Seryoso ba un?
9. Tawag mo sa nanay mo, "Ma". Tumatawag ka sa inyo minsan pra sabihin na nabayaran mo na ormay pera na. Si Papa mo may pagka-imbentor. Si tito may photo studio. (Papiktur tyo, para madevelop) -- korny attempt #1
8. Pag nawala ka at tinanong kita san ka galing. Ang ssabihin mo galing kang moon. Pag san ka pupunta, ang sagot ay "secret".
7. Minsan sinipag ako maglinis sa bahay. Nakwento ko syo. tpos nasabi mo na magulo ung kwarto mo, baka gusto ko din linisin. (baliw ka tlga!)
6. End of the world na pag naunahan kita sa ofis. Ang kulit!
5. Gumimik tyo sa bar, nag-long sleeves ka. puti. tpos hindi ko na sya nakita na suot mo ulit.
4. Pinilit mo ko mag-kape bago mag-drive. Naappreciate ko un.
3. May parehas tyong phone. SE K850i. Parehas din sila sira. Green syo. Blue skn.
2. Sinabi mo na ako ung stalker mo at hinde ko iniisip ang topic na love at boyfriend-boyfriend. Nainis ako nun, di ko lang masabi.
1. Ayaw mo ko ipakilala dun sa kamuka ni Papa P. (Idol mo ba un? E di ba idol ka rin? Hindi mo naman kamuka un, mas gwapo ka dun.) --korny attempt #2 :P Anyway, minsan sa tingin ko, ikaw dapat ang sinasabihan ng "shhh. you're fine." Ok ka na sir. No need maski dati. You're fine, sir. You're fine. Lagi mo un tatandaan ha.

"Taas na nga kamay ko syo. Nagkakagusto na nga ako syo eh. Mahal na nga kita palagay ko eh, maging sino ka man!" (kiss) -- korny attempt #3

Pressure magbigay ng top 10 lalo na pag lampas sila dun.

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yanangshinashabikosayo

Minsan andaming korny na movie pero papanuorin mo rin sila one day, kung hinde man. tatamaan ka rin! Haha.

"Kaya mo ba mahalin ang isang taong alam mong mawawala rin sa'yo?"

O edi mahirap sya hinde sagutin.

mga masayang linya

Kapag di mo tinigilan yan baka..


"mahalin kita ng totoo dyan e"
-- Mula kay Ramon Bautista

"bawal ngumiti"
-- Mula kay Jessie Han

(cge ka, ikaw din. walang bawian.)
-- Mula sa'kn

chicks s*ck

Girls have their default expectations of
being considered on things that matter and it's nature. They storm out when you don't get it.

im watching Grey's Anatomy
and im crying
because Alex Karev, chose not to go to Africa for an excellent job offer because of Lucy. He said they're new. He said it's still a competition, nothing personal. He said he got nothing if he stays. In the end, he finish up telling her that she was a factor.

then tears just fell.


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something green

This is my first choice for the Day 4 - Something green. -- 30 Day Photography Challenge.

but then, previous shots don't count.

So, here's my appeal.

The drummer.

lonely day

people get weird around you whenever you post something sad and emo.
(a short commercial)
phone is ringing, hmm.. don't wanna answer. sorry.
(and we're back)
your friends will ask you, are you ok? what's happening?
funny.
but sincerely appreciate it.
sorry but im not commenting on this issue. haha.
im a very private person. depending on the topic.
thanks guys, il be fine.
hugs and kisses.
we have our off days and today, i got mine.
i knew it when i got up.
this is going to be a tough day. i say.
hopefully, not until tomorrow.
there's a lot of work, so it's fairly easy to be busy and get myself distracted.
yet seriously hard to stay focus.
and get over it.
of coarse, im still human.
i rest. i stop. i pause. i even took a nap.
try to have my silent moments and try not to burst into tears all by myself (bcoz it's just weird)
but im not building a wall to stop myself from crying.
it's my party and il cry if i want to. cry, if i want to.
because i do believe that tears ran dry.
i just have to wait, like waiting for a bus to get home.
yah, that's the game plan.
come sunrise, it's june.

4 3 2 1

"Everybody knows that something's wrong
But nobody knows what's going on
We all sing the same old song
When you want it all to go away
It's shaping up to be a lonely day

I could tell from the minute I woke up
It was gonna be a lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely day"

secret

everyone has a secret or secrets.
why do we keep 'em is also a secret.
from who.. is again, a secret.

i have secrets.
some, i don't know why im still keeping.
some, i don't know why i did.
some, i know that will forever be kept.
some, i wanted to be known.

you have secrets.
some, i don't know why you're hiding.
some, i don't know why you did.
some, i know that i won't know.
some, i secretly managed to know.

then i wish i don't know. i don't wanna know.
secrets were made so that there are things not within our knowledge.
better try not to ask and question why?
and don't try to be curious.

stop!

IMG_0169.JPG

Pakilala mo nman ako.

Kamukha mo si Papa P, Papa P (Ding Dong)
P Papa P, Papa P
P Papa P, Papa P (Dingdong)

(ang korni ko! shet!)

sabi nga ni Ben Diesel:

"Mga hinde tao, kasi bagay." -- (ktv + poker)

nakatali

watchatink?

1:43AM

Baby I’m Yours, Arctic Monkeys.

I’ll be yours until the sun no longer shines
Yours until the poets run out of rhyme
In other words, until the end of time

sabi nga ni mr. ramon bautista:
so what kung binibigyan ko ng ibig sabihin yung mga maliliit na bagay tulad nyan hihi

good to know

i like that you write on notebooks.

i picture you smiling as you write your thoughts down.

or maybe just grinning or with a serious face,

with brows down and your left hand covering your mouth,

leaning maybe on the left-side of your chair and staring at the computer.

i like hearing about your dreams, your plans, and maybe your 5 year plans. (that was a surprise!)

i like that sometimes even it's too late you still have the energy to talk about them.

i would want to see you fulfill them one by one. step by step. (maybe, with me)

i like it when i think no one can stop you from the chain of idea you're currently thinking about.

not even when i open up a new topic.

i like how you can explore every detail in a concept that i thought was simple.

or maybe you saw something significant to something that didn't matter to me.

i like it most when i don't get you.

because you have no choice but to explain. (then i learn from you)

i like encouraging your dreams because even if sometimes they are weird,

classic and funny, at least you tried.

i like that sometimes i feel that you want to change the world with your ideas

and make the big difference --- what a mind job!

i like that you fail to maintain a non-geeky conversation all-the-time.

i like that you entertain my endless, sometimes pointless questions and my long story explanations. (im really sorry)

i like the way i know you, and i can write here a lot more.

yet they may say little about the typical things and a lot of bits and pieces of everything else

from stories you told or a conversation we had or an observation i made...

it's good to know that i know.

headshot

sa panahon ngayon uso na ang larong sweet sweetan.

ang unang ma-inlove.

TALO...

i avoided friday because im still lost with some answers and questions. in return i got my summer. took my alone time and think about the last phone conversation. then today, i saw a picture. sometimes, even i know it's wrong. i don't wanna be me. i wanted to be someone else. that might sound deep and serious but no. i just want to know what it's like to be her. it's bad to compare but i think it's normal that i do. it's history vs. chemistry. maybe age. maybe religion. and friends, family. familiarity. importantly, a relationship. still i like to believe that i will win this maybe by a miracle who knows? i know even before i started that i never should have tried playing this game.. but, that didn't work.

(ang tigas lang ng ulo ko, nababaliw na ko)

how can i tell you about my loved one?

ano ka ngaun Maria Regina?

mahirap sumagot pag ang nagtatanong ay syang sagot.

Ako na ang matapang.

silly love songs

You'd think that people would have had enough of silly love songs.
But I look around me and I see it isn't so.
Some people wanna fill the world with silly love songs.
And what's wrong with that?
I'd like to know, 'cause here I go again

* * *

Love doesn't come in a minute (Doesn't come in a minute)
Sometimes it doesn't come at all (Doesn't come at all)
I only know that when I'm in it (Only know when I'm in it)
It isn't silly (at all), love isn't silly (at all), love isn't silly at all, not at all

stuck in a moment

Now you don't wanna let go,
And i don't wanna let you know,
There might be something real between us two, who knew?
Now we don't wanna fall but,
We're tripping in our hearts and it's reckless and clumsy,
'cause i know you can't love me here...

I wish we had another time,
I wish we had another place,
But everything we have is stuck in the moment,
And there's nothing my heart can do,
To fight with time and space 'cause,
I'm still stuck in the moment with you...

--

Love In the First Degree

Love Changes Everything

Opposites Do Attract

dynamic duo

it's a very inspiring day today. i got saturday design school and a surprise design talk attendance. the design talk featured: Everywhere We Shoot. I only got to know them today. A team-up of photography and graphic design by a creative couple: BFGF style, Ryan Vergara and Gorovs Garovillo. Anyway, i have to admit that their love story was cute and added to the inspiring parts but seriously i liked it because of the story of how they got to their 6-item wishlist. --- of course, i didn't memorize them.

so, this wishlist. before, they didn't even had any. they were two persons just pursuing their passions separately, (after some time) fortunately found their common ground to work together that built an idea. that created a dream which they went for.

like every success story they needed to fail a couple of times. their projects flopped. their concepts became only good for them and their friends. even supported by loved ones, no one wanted to print their works. considering it's frustrating, tiring and much of a downer, the dream is still the dream and sometimes, we can't give it up.

took a while before they got their first break and when they did, to them that was all they wanted. end story. but of course, what's good about a dream is when you already able to fulfill it. you get to dream another. this gave birth to the wishlist. they went on and on doing the thing they love to do. they crossed out their wishes one after another, from unexpected recognitions and favorable coincidences without high expectations. they were given great fulfillment and pride. it's been 8 years since they wrote those six wishes and now they are done.

i know there are a lot of same stories of what they have but that was the story that made me smile today. when we were watching their work and listening to their candid talks, all i saw was happiness. it mirrors in their choice of words, in their work and their success. you will see it in their faces --- with her green hair and his obsession to Japan. for me, it was more than a regular success story, it's a great feeling of looking back and being able to tell one another that "we made it!"

wish to say it someday.

tulog na ko

di kita dapat hintayin
kaya lang kahit pilitin ko
na alisin ka sa isip ko
bandang huli
hinihintay pa rin kita
mahirap nga talaga maghintay
hinde dahil sa hinihintay o paghihintay
mahirap kc nakikita ko ung sarili ko na naghihintay
tapos wala akong magawa
kaya gaya ngaun ayaw kitang kausapin
kaya gaya ngaun ayaw kitang makita
kaya gaya ngaun ayaw kong sanayin ulit ung sarili ko na andyan ka
masyado mo kasi akong pinasasaya
nagagawa ko isipin ung bukas, ung susunod na linggo
ung susunod na buwan
yan ung 3 good reason na hinihingi mo
kung bakit ayaw kitang makasama
kahit namimiss kita
good luck sa mga pangarap mo
good luck sa mahiwagang notebook
sana lagi kang maging masaya.
kaya mo yan!


(sorii hinde na ko nag-reply)

Araw ng Kagitingan

Mahal Na Kung Mahal Kita - Parokya ni Edgar

Gusto Ko Lamang Sa Buhay - Itchyworms

Superhero - Rocksteddy

Adik Sa'yo - Rivermaya

Kailan - Eraserheads

Sundo - Imago

Tuliro - Sponge Cola

Torete - Moonstar 88

Torpe - Hungry Young Poets

Kasalanan Ko Ba - Neocolours

Ayon sa WikiFilipino:

Ang Araw ng Kagitingan, na ipinagdiriwang tuwing 9 ng Abril, ay isang taunang pista opisyal sa Pilipinas na gumugunita sa katapangan at katatagang ipinakita ng mga sundalong Pilipino at Amerikano na nakipaglaban sa Imperyong Hapon sa kasagsagan ng Ikalawang Digmaan Pandaigdig. Ito din ay kilala bilang Araw ng Bataan at Corregidor.

Ako ng Magiting.

dream catcher

Every time I close my eyes... it's you

And I know now who I am

Yeah yeah yeah

And I know now

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be

But it is us I see

And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going

Hold it close, won't let this go

Dream catch me yeah

Dream catch me when I fall

Or else I won't come back at all

You do so much

But you don't know... it's true

And I know now who I am

Yeah yeah yeah

And I know now

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be

But it is us I see

And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going

Hold it close, won't let this go

Dream catch me yeah

Dream catch me when I fall

Or else I won't come back at all

See you as a mountain

a fountain of God

See you as a descant soul

in the setting sun

you as a sound just as silent as none

I'm young

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be

But it is us I see

And I cannot believe I'm falling

There's a place I go when I'm alone

Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be

But it is us I see

And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going

Hold it close, won't let this go

Dream catch me, yeah

Dream catch me when I fall

Or else I won't come back at all*

(a song to start your day...Game! Ü )

pundido

ang ayoko tlga is ung mga bagay na may paraan ka nman baguhin pero ayaw mo lng. ung di ko makitaan kht onting effort, na inisip mo din pla un. na minsan ginusto mo pla un solusyunan. tnry mo. ung pro solusyon wala naman aksyon o kaya pro problema walang solusyon.

mali na pero ok lng. kc para sayo tama. kc pagod ka na. kc ayaw mo na. pra syo kahit sinasabi na ng anak mo, asawa mo, kamag-anak, kaibigan, kapitbahay at cguro miski lahat ng tao sa paligid mo, ayaw mo pa rin.

lagi mong sinasabi kc ganun ka.

grabe! nakakapundi isipin, nkkpagod intindihin. nakakainit ka ng ulo.

para sa kn di dpat nabubuhay ng may kasama ang mga ganyang tao dpat mag-isa lng sila sa buhay. walang ibang iniintindi at walang iintindi sa knila. npkmaka-sarili nila minsan di ko mapatawad.

naisip nila dapat yan nung bata pa sila o kaya ngbago sila nung tumanda.

total naman di sila marunong makinig so bakit ako makikinig?

hinde ko alam baka ako lng ang mali pro minsan alam mong tama ka e. gaya ngaun. hinde ko alam kung di ko na lng kaya unawain pro bka naman hinde dapat. hinde ko alam kung tatahimik na lng ako pro di naman kc ako bulag. hinde ko alam kung nangangaral lng ako kc galit ako o kc gusto ko silang tamaan. hinde ko alam kung nagmamarunong o ngmamagaling lng akong bata pro un nga e.

mahirap. mahirap maging sila pro bakit hinde nila try maging ako.


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LH 0404 0711

You've never spoken about it, but you do feel that you're ready to be in a committed relationship now. You're not as flighty as you used to be.


(Game! Let's go! Let's go! Kaya natin to!)
Sana walang mangyari syo, sana sa atin na lng. (patay) Hahaha. ;D


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the last 30 days

yesterday i went to a coffee shop early mornin set to stay away from stress and my corporate world for a while.

so there i was exactly 10:56 am shaw station walking towards shangri-la that was amazingly not yet open. smiling and couldn't believe that i kept waiting. guess, i really wanted a break. 4 minutes after, got my coffee and brunch: chicken pesto sandwich. as i was eating and people watching, i enjoyed my alone time with a happy bunch of workforce, who wears warm smiles and sweet hello's. what a nice feeling to be around people who love their work whatever it is. gives me the picture of what its like to find the things that will make you wanna wake up the next day and go to work. i wish someday i can go back to this feeling. soon. to the future!

i just planned to take a half-day off but everyone knew that that's not gonna happen. (yes, they can hate me)

DJ Mo said, there should only be two(2) reasons why you should do what you do:
a. if it makes you happy (masaya ka ba?)
b. if you make money out of it (pinagkakakitaan mo ba?)

True! Only, im more of an a. than b. To me, every choice we make is only answerable by yes or no. no gray area. which in reality leads us to a question of what keeps you going?

good girl

I like, how I'm catching your eyes,
I like, how I don't even even try,
I like you, I like you boy,
I like you, boy.

[CHORUS]
You might mistake me for heartbreaker,
'cause there's blood on the floor,
I'm hoping you will see, there's something good in me,
Never seen before,
Might mistake me for a heartbreaker,
'cause there's blood on the floor,
I know you're shaking me ,
My heart is there for keeps, there's an open door.

I know I can be a good, good girl,
I know I can be a good, good girl,
I know I can be a good girl,
But I've been bad before.
Good girl,
But I've been bad before.


(Haha. wink)

LH 032711 0656

You wish you knew when you were going to see your honey again, but your individual schedules prevent you from making any solid plans.


(aah, haaays.)

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Thank You Dilbert!

just when i don't know what to say anymore... tada!

Dilbert said: Sometimes it's nice to remind yourself that your happiness can be engineered, and that luck is a product of good design.

From: Dilbert Blog by Scott Adams

Happiness Engineering

Mar 17, 2011 | General Nonsense | Permalink

contemplation

Based from the dictionary.

1. Look at thoughtfully; observe deep in thought
2. Consider as a possibility
3. Think intently and at length, as for spiritual purposes
4. Think deeply about a subject or question over a period of time

im on that road again. after 8, possibly 9 months. here we go again. i always have this capability to put chaos in my head and complicate my life as if its not complicated enough. geez. i really think too much. i sometimes wish to turn my brain off for a while and only hear silence. c'mon tell me, what's wrong with me?

i, for a fact, am not trying to be a hero or somebody big in this lifetime but i would like to see myself try. i hope that simple picture in my mind to be real someday i believe that if it happens, it happens. all other things are bonuses, pieces to keep us entertain for a while.

maybe that's my problem. i want so many things to happen. maybe i challenge myself so often. maybe i dream a lot. maybe i look at life like a movie, good or bad but not real. maybe i expect a lot from myself or too little. maybe i over simplify things and become too confident. maybe im not a religious person not that i want to be and not that it's wrong or hate the idea. maybe i dnt learn from mistakes. maybe im bored. maybe i dnt want to "work work" because its too damn tiring. maybe i dnt know things or i know too much. maybe i feel incomplete. maybe im just not happy. maybe i love so much some people. maybe im jealous of other persons. maybe all i need is love. maybe this is just about a guy. or maybe about family. maybe i write too long and explain everything and not have the courage to say them. seize it. maybe im getting old for this shit. maybe, this is me.

so yes. i seriously need help with this one. please.


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resistance is futile

I'm Reg and it's been almost 19 days since i bailed.
Di ko rin natiis.

Adik sa'yo, awit sa akin
Bilang sawa na saking mga kwentong marathon
Tungkol sayo at sa ligayang iyong hatid
Sa aking buhay tuloy ang bida sa isipan ko'y ikaw

where are you now?

coz im thinkin of you
you showed me how


and then end.
un lng. un lng ung natatandaan ko lagi sa kanta na yan.
(amp)


tanong ko lng..
where are you now?


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you can run

You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love

Here's how it goes, you and me, up and down but maybe this time
We'll get right, where to fight
Cause love is something you can't shake
When it breaks
All it takes is some trying

If you feel like leaving
I'm not gonna beg you to stay
Soon you'll be finding
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love

So if you go
You should know
It's hard to just forget the past so fast
It was good, it was bad but it was real
And that's all you get in the end of the matter

Here's how it goes
All it takes is some trying
You can run, you can hide
But you can't escape my love

You can run

--Enrique Iglesias (Escape)


Note: The video maybe a bit too much for very young audiences. But the lyrics tells it all. :P

ang aga

3:24
. . .
5:55
. . .
6:37
6:38
. .
6:47
6:48

para lng ako naghihintay ng tren
na hinde naman darating
nakkpagtitigan sa orasan
sa papel
sa paligid
sa kisame naming napaka-dumi
bka may mangyaring kakaiba
ngunit wala
paulit-ulit lng
araw-araw
gumagawa ng sariling palaisipan
nagpapagod sa mga gagawin at hinde dapat gawin
inaaliw ang sarili
lakad dito lakad dun
gusto ko sana
maging masaya
gaya nung pasko
wag mo isipin
na sobra un
wag mo isipin
na ayoko
wag mo isipin
na hinde ko alam
alam ko un

tingin ko kc di na mauulit un
minsan tanga lng ako
kinakalimutan ko

ung mga hinde ko dapat gawin
sabi syo di ako matalino e
lagi naman akong ok
minsan naiiyak din
sinusulat ko na lng
ayoko dito pero
hinde nman ako gumagalaw
di ako umaalis
cguro panahon na
kc
. . .
hinde naman ako si jessie

malayo ung regina dun.


7:00 pinatay ko ang alarm
gising na!




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sungit

"Ako na nga nagdudugo ang puso, sya pa nagsusungit." -- Originally, Jessie Han

(Pro kakasabi ko lang din nyan. Haha. Di na nagreply. Hmpf!)

a love story

There's this girl who met a guy at work over a year ago. He was like every other guy, nothing special. She was simple, look at her, nothing special too. But there's this mystery that surrounds her and her ways. Her smile. That particular grin on her face that last. It started so simply. Each moment creating a new fate, just like...poetry. Writing every line, telling her a story. First, a rush. Heat. Emotion piling, trying to get out. It is not obvious to the human eye but her heart flutters consistently. Unexceptionably it was not worrying. She does not understand, why? Is it his eyes? his ways? his words? his touch? No...what is it, then, what is the reason? She knew where this road leads and where it probably ends, and even if it can be a tragedy she chose to be at it again. This isn't the first time she felt this feeling but somehow she believed it is different. How could it be? Why? Soon enough, it didn't matter. Soon the why and the reason are gone, and all that matters is the feeling itself. And this is the nature across this universe; we struggle against it, we fight to deny it, but it is of course pretend, it is a lie. Beneath her poised appearance, the truth is she is completely out of control. She cannot escape it. It kept her going. Her only hope, her only peace is to understand it, to understand the why. Yet maybe she already know and she already understand the answer to this question which makes this even more puzzling for her. Why didn't she stop? What she realized is, that she didn't need the question the time she found her answer. Whichever way we see it, she will not care. She takes what she can and keep everything. Because that night until that mornin of that december party --- she knew she's happy.


There's a lot i dont understand about life. You meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you and then you meet one person and your life is changed forever. -- Love and Other Drugs


Hey, Happy Valentines Day! ;D

red hot friday

last year, valentines din. pumasok kmi ng naka-red.

iceman: nax!!! nanalo k pla... hehehehe!
wonderwoman: oo nga e
wonderwoman: nanalo nga daw ako
wonderwoman: ano kayang napanalunan ko?
wonderwoman: wahahaha!!
wonderwoman: nax!!! nanalo k rn pla... hehehehe!
wonderwoman: :-P
iceman: hahahaha!
iceman: ang pasalamat ko lang hindi ko kapareha yung babaeng yun!!!
wonderwoman: wushu
wonderwoman: sabihin mo masakit sa loob mo di mo sya kapareha
iceman: che!!!!
wonderwoman: anong gs2 mo gwn ntn dun sa partner nya ha?
wonderwoman: bugbugin ntn?
wonderwoman: :D
iceman: che!!!
wonderwoman: :-P
wonderwoman: yiiiiiii
wonderwoman: kinikilig
iceman: che!!!
iceman: bahala ka...
iceman: isa pang asar...
iceman: d nkita papansinin ever!!!
wonderwoman: tlga?
wonderwoman: cgurado ka dyan?
wonderwoman: yiheeee..... yiiii
wonderwoman: huy!!!
wonderwoman: o cge na..
wonderwoman: titigil na ko
iceman: tama
iceman: tigil
iceman: stay...
wonderwoman: baka di mo pa ko pansinin.... forever
iceman: roll over
iceman: play dead...
wonderwoman: che!!!
iceman: hehehehe!
iceman: :p

(wala lng)

laging handa

"Dapat sa buhay natin lagi tayong handa para di tayo nasasaktan" -- Justin Lee



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di na natuto

Nand'yan ka na naman
Tinutukso-tukso ang aking puso
Ilang ulit na bang
Iniiwasan ka di na natuto


(masaya nman!)


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tuldok

napaka-ilap ng tuldok na yan!
ang dali-dali nman nya gawin.
isang dutdot.
isang pindot.
isang bagsak ng panulat mo.
tapos na.
wala na.
pero bat di matapos?
bakit parang kuwit ang ginawa ko?
dpat tuldok ang nkkita ko.
ngaun nman.. tandang pananong.
may ibig bang sabihin o wala?
pinahahaba ko lng ata!
pinatatagal.
ayaw pigilan.
at di paawat.
gaano ba kahirap ang isang tuldok?
di ko lng cguro maamin na. . .
sa totoo lng,
m a h i r a p


"My lack of interest in seeing you is not a strategy. I'm not playing hard to get. I don't want to see you because i turned my life upside down for you. . . " -- Grey's Anatomy

(the line went on after this excerpt though dapat huminto na sya dyan! tuldok na. cause everything she said after that was an explanation. what we don't understand most of the time is we don't need to explain. we only need is to express.)


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suggestion

has anyone watched The Astronaut's Wife?
maybe it's not a bad idea after all, being
an astronaut's wife.
it will be sad and lonely at times but
that's every day life now.
slowly, we learn to deal with the empty space.
what's harder is a non existing space.
not empty. it's just not there.
at least all he'll gonna deal with is what?!
mostly, other life forms.
not my problem. haha.
no hard feelings.
so.. yes.
i think the NASA avatar fits right.



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singing the same songs today

Here I stand head in hand
Turn my face to the wall
If (he's) gone I can’t go on
Feelin’ two-foot small

Everywhere people stare
Each and every day
I can see them laugh at me
And I hear them say

Hey you’ve got to hide your love away
Hey you’ve got to hide your love away

. . .

Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
You were always on my mind
You are always on my mind
You are always on my mind





hingang malalim.
let's go! let's go!